Member: L-RAY
Location: SCOTLAND
Date: 20 Apr 2003
Time: 11:54:47

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Sometimes its hard for this guy to admit that maybe sometimes i am wrong> my wife will back me up on this!lol it does become easier with practice , i try and not go to bed without looking back on my day to see how i did and was there anything i could change or was there something i should have done different! there is always something-- so i ask my H.P.to guide me and make good the next day if possible< its a good way to get this guys Ego in check! ---regards L-RAY


Member: Pat H.
Location: No. Virginia
Date: 20 Apr 2003
Time: 19:05:47

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10th step inventory! One of my favorite things to do every night at bedtime. Acknowledging to myself where I went wrong during the day and planning on how to do better tomorrow .Sometimes finding amends I have to make. And any time my list gets too long,I know I'm not making enough meetings. Makes a good guidline for me.


Member: Kim V
Location: kvaughn@madison.main.nc.us
Date: 20 Apr 2003
Time: 22:53:25

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Kim V here alcoholic. I had to work this step today. I got back from vacation yesterday to find out my mother had once again over stepped my boundaries. I have explained my boundaries to her over and over and even set up consuenqences for her breaking them. Well I went off and sent her a shitty email. Today I emailed and apoligzed as I know she is mentally sick and can't help herself. I limit my exposure to her because of this but I must treat her as I would any other sick person. So I needed to say I was sorry and that I was wrong. I hate telling my mother I was wrong. But I did and I bet I will sleep better tonight. thanks for letting me share.


Member: BILL S
Location:
Date: 21 Apr 2003
Time: 06:02:16

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To all friends of ( bill double you and Doctor Bobs)I would like to thank you all for the help Ihave received in the years,Ihave been in your company.thank you.


Member: Lois Laatsch
Location: California
Date: 21 Apr 2003
Time: 11:20:49

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L-Ray said it all for me. Working this step daily is the thing that helps keep my EGO in check the most. I'm glad to recognize that I still decieve myself sometimes about my motives, and an honest search within shows me the truth -- and I want to be truthful to myself and you today.


Member: Lois Laatsch
Location: California
Date: 21 Apr 2003
Time: 11:20:55

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L-Ray said it all for me. Working this step daily is the thing that helps keep my EGO in check the most. I'm glad to recognize that I still decieve myself sometimes about my motives, and an honest search within shows me the truth -- and I want to be truthful to myself and you today.


Member: AZbill
Location: az-bill@mindspring.com
Date: 21 Apr 2003
Time: 13:58:27

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HI Bill here, alcoholic from Arizona. I am out of the tunnel now. And the light I kept seeing at the end of that tunnel was not a railroad train. This is the step where we correct any new mistakes (not old mistakes; those were done in Four). This is the step that helps me stay current. We have enter the world of the spirit. We have ceased fighting anything or anyone, including alcohol. More promises for us. Our sanity has returned. We react sanely and rationally. And the great thing about this is that it has happened automatically. We are safe. This step teaches us the proper use of our will. We are also given another assignment in this Step. Our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness. Thanks. Bill az-bill@mindspring.com


Member: Bobbie
Location: Hawthorne, CA
Date: 21 Apr 2003
Time: 14:11:07

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Hi, I am Bobbie..an alcoholic. Sometimes when life gets way to busy I lose perspective on my words and action. Most of the business is out of my control...I know nothing happens in God's world by mistake but I can't seem to stop reacting in bad ways to the other people. I often avoid my nightly inventory because I feel I deserved to say the things I said. Justifed and unjustified anger engulfs me. Acceptance of other people's defects eludes me. I just have to focus on one day at a time...or one minute at a time. Thanks for being here for me.


Member: Joy S.
Location: Chas SC
Date: 21 Apr 2003
Time: 21:04:16

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Good topic. I don't ever want to have to do another 4th and 5th step like my first in AA. There was so much pain and so much time! If I can keep my life from becoming a big screw up by giving myself a good "check yourself" at the end of the day then if I 4th and 5th in the future hopefully it will be for growth and I will have made progress on the nature of my wrongs. Thanks for sharing, it really helps me.


Member: alfredo
Location: nj
Date: 22 Apr 2003
Time: 03:16:47

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i seem to get more and more out of this step every time i read it....(to grow in understanding and effectiveness.....we will see that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or effort on our part. it just comes! that is the miracle of it . etc.....) sometimes i take for granted this wonderful life we have been given.....i just started working with a new guy who is struggling to stay sober.......i don't think i would be to effective in helping him if i didn't "continue" to work these steps in my daily life to the best of my ability....


Member: Anilg
Location: Mt vernon,IL
Date: 22 Apr 2003
Time: 09:50:47

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I am an alcoholic I follow step 10 and take my personnel inventry and admit whenever I am wrong it gives me peace and satisfaction within myself make me feel like a better person. I carry no guilt or shame after I have accept my wrong behavior.thanks to aa and alanon.


Member: Carol H.
Location: KCMO
Date: 22 Apr 2003
Time: 11:50:02

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Hi, my name is Carol and I'm an alcoholic. This steop is one that really helps me stay on the path. I can usually tell if something needs to be dealt with if it keeps gnawing at me. That means I have to do my inventory and promptly admit what's wrong. Then the peace and serenity come. Thank God! And thanks to AA!


Member: L.W.R
Location: pridelands
Date: 24 Apr 2003
Time: 02:23:34

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thanx for all your shares...brace yourself this is a long one today..i feel grateful to have this program,these steps,my sponsor and other alkies to help this alcoholic try to be a better human being,have a sense of usefulness and purpose, i am really going somewhere, life is beautiful,there are good people in this world and i am one of them. But like millions of us.. i wasn't always,, i was not much of a person when i came here, ((and that is as it should be, after all i didn't come to aa because i was a model citizen. Not so long ago,,, i was the poster child for playing god; codependant behaviour was the cornerstone of my problems... i had 'subjects not friends... and people were 'projects not human beings with thier own rights, feelings and a god of thier own. going to meetings... gave me so much more than just sobriety.. they taught me to be with other people, to show up and learn some responsibility, and in the real world i have been able to transfer these skills to holding down a job etc. I should have been dead, i guess i am another miracle... if i can get it, anyone can.. i had no skills, no social eticate...no support, no family, no nothing. i had aa, and it was tough.... i was the kind of person who would smell your shoes to find out if they were stinky... naturally people laughed at me and i suspect you may be having a chuckle even now.. well knock yourself out ((it is funny today.. i could always see that little "what a piece a work" look in thier eyes... it was embarrasing, and i hated my parents for abandoning me to raise myself,,to hang around and wonder lost and hopeless and very alcoholic boo hoo yada yada blah blah blah,,, big long story... so there i was feeling lower than a toads udder, humiliated, sick and suffering, so hurt and a wreck of a human being but hey! I WAS STILL SO PROUD..((good lord))) hidding under all that ego and fear hey?)) proud to the point of depression, neurosis, paranoia and panick attacks! now i see the purpose for why my life unfolded "exactly the way it was suppose to" as hard as that was to accept for so long, it has born me an unusually independant strength and natural ability to be the fine character i have become..to be able to think of others and carry a message! me! and can you imagine i thought it was because i am so special and extra smart!! no sir.. sickening sickening pride always going before a fall. in my ten the other night i caught myself bragging... opps.. better not go there... lol


Member: penny
Location:
Date: 24 Apr 2003
Time: 02:27:31

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THANKYOU FOR ALL YOUR COMMENTS, THEY HELPED ME OUT TODAY, NOT A GOOD ONE.


Member: penny
Location:
Date: 24 Apr 2003
Time: 02:27:48

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THANKYOU FOR ALL YOUR COMMENTS, THEY HELPED ME OUT TODAY, NOT A GOOD ONE.


Member: Kim D.
Location: Bridgewater
Date: 24 Apr 2003
Time: 12:01:03

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((Penny)) Care to share what's going on? It could help..... Making Amends and admitting my wrongs today is a little easier as the result of this program, but not always easy. Sometimes, I have to pray for the willingness to apologize and other times it comes freely. Like this morning for instance. I got snitty with a woman on the phone at work and then later apologized for my tone of voice. I would have NEVER done that while active. Step 10 allows me to look the world in the eye - knowing that I am human and will make mistakes - but can own them today. Also, notice that the words say CONTINUED to take personal inventory... indicating that we are human - imperfect - and we are going to be wrong in our lives. Those wrongs just need to be owned in order to live comfortably in our own sober skin. Have a good one.


Member: Craig L (Dogmanor@yahoo.com)
Location: Aloha, Oregon
Date: 24 Apr 2003
Time: 17:12:10

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Craig here another real alcoholic. I am also a human being. Humaness was always difficult for me to manage when I drank and often still is today. Sometimes it is ok to feel anger and be assertive, often it is not. My concsious contact with God (Joy) is my measure for how well I'm doing with step 10. Being human, with all my failings, I will do and say things which do not reflect God in my life. When I am not joyful, then action is required as plainly laid out in our steps. As an alcoholic I can never be happy without God as my life.


Member: Leah P.
Location: Minnesota
Date: 25 Apr 2003
Time: 12:06:48

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Leah here, alcoholic. I think the best part of Step 10 is I am able to scan through my day, and put it on paper (my step 10 diary) how my day went. and if I did something wrong, how could I have done it differently. Also, the 10th step has given me the freedom to be wrong now and then. WHen I was still drinking, I was never wrong (or so I thought) and I always placed the blame on someone else. Now, I know when I am wrong, I can admidt it, and apologize thats all I have to say about that God Bless, Leah leahped@hotmail.com


Member: Cec H
Location: Cowtown
Date: 26 Apr 2003
Time: 02:15:53

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Hi all Cec H alkie here. The best thing about step Ten for me is, if I do it right, I never have to do a step Four again.


Member: John K
Location: Philadelphia PA
Date: 26 Apr 2003
Time: 11:56:12

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Hi all, John, alcoholic. To me, the 10th Step is about self-awareness as opposed to self-consciousness. The more I grow in AA, the more aware I get of just how constantly I need conscious contact with God. Alcoholism is a mental illness based on fear, and the longer I stay sober, the more aware I become of my fear and my insanity. Fear and insanity have caused me to do plenty of weird, stupid, or just plain silly things, and the only solution I have found is understanding spirituality and practicing it--helping the next alcoholic. My life is ~not~ about "responsibility" or "social acceptance" today; it is about finding and doing the will of my HP, and letting the chips fall where they may. The only thing I am really responsible for is helping another alkie; while I am busy doing this, my HP is busy fixing my perceptions and my life. I am living proof that God exists; I am living proof of a loving God.


Member: penny
Location:
Date: 26 Apr 2003
Time: 22:12:45

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Sober for years: but only just clueing in to just what kind of abuse and damages i had encurred; i figured "well: this is nice! i am beyond the kind of repair it would take to make me the happy preppy i was always meant to be", guess i'll be sober, but now i'm to old, to messed up, no prospect of marriage and children left for me this messed up and all,, ((thanx for the life god! ((thanx mom and dad for the alcoholic upbringing)) i'll just accept that the rest of my days will be going from councillor to therapist, to phyciatrist.. and maybe volunteering at the sally ann, and a Mic Job somewhere for $8 bucks an hour, and hang with the cheap seaters in aa for the rest of my life! (and aa will probably have to be the highlight of my life, cause i'm not gettin any smarter or weller to quick here god"(( THIS IS NOT THE WAY I WOULD HAVE PLANNED IT!! ITS NOT GOING MY WAY! ITS NOT FAIR! BOO HOO, I HATE THE WORLD AND I WISH I WAS DEAD!!)) and then one day the miracle happened. and anyone can have it.


Member: Vee
Location: Midwest
Date: 27 Apr 2003
Time: 05:20:06

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Step 4 was like pulling teeth- impacted wisdom teeth. I don't want to go through that again TO THAT EXTENT ever again, so do my daily maintenence work with Step 10. When I am fairly content, not fighting life tooth and nail, and open to a new idea or two, then I feel that God is with me. When I was in treatment I was taught to make a gratitude list every night. On it I always need to add how grateful I am that I didn't screw up any more than I did that day. And as I do my inventory I am trying to practice NOT rationalizing my behavior, such an easy trap to fall into. Thanks for this meeting. I am a bit cut off and this means so much to me at 3:30 am, to be able to shuffle into a meeting of AA in my jammies and get this kind of guidance and wisdom. I'll keep coming back for the experience, strength and hope.