Member: Eloi K.
Location: NE Mn
Date: April 05, 2003
Time: 12:42 PM

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Hi everyone, just found this site after a long search through some really complicated ones. I feel for Robin because I too live in a small town, only I havn't made the newspaper, don't need to. I have a "good friend" to do the local reporting. Sober for over a month then a couple of slips. Sober again, hopefully with the help of God, still havn't figured out what caused the slips. I can relate to Robin because I too have a "perfect" husband who has put up with alot but is being supportive in my search for sobriety.


Member: PETE L
Location: BONDI AUSTRALIA
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 06:03 AM

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Pete,7 weeks sober after 20 years of seeing life through the haze. Life scare's me. I don't cope well with close people. It's funny, I have just spent six weeks in rehab (that i thought i didn't need), I seem to get along with most of the people there, I have been attending AA every day for the past seven weeks (missed one day)and have made conversation and relation easily with all the people I have meet. But(yes the but) when i returned home to my wife and two girls 4&6, everything turned to poo. I somehow interpreted my wifes anger, into allowing me to feel guitly ay myself for wanting to attend AA. This flipped my logic button, and ended up back in hospital (nut case stamp), now my wife say's she doesn't know if she wants me back??? I tell myself and others that its because she hasn't had any counselling and she is still angry, confused and dosn't understand alcoholism. But boy its pissing me off, resentment yep I GOT IT!! I am so damn proud that I didn't bust, but I'm so scared to even talk to her now as she continually is pushing my buttons, and to top it of I rang my Mum, and she's the same. Is it just me doing a poor me? Probably, but its better than doing a poor me another drink. Anyway the doc's have locked me up, my misses is maybe going to get some counselling. What worries me is I don't seem to care. I trust my higher power, but its hard to say that I don't need so much support from those I used to depend on. I relate so much to other people in AA thats its a stark contrast when it come to talking to my wife and close family, do I trust them? NO? Do I trust other AA's not to judge me YES. Do I trust myself NO. HELP PLEASE


Member: Ken L
Location: RI
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 09:12 AM

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Ken, alcoholic. Di B, AZbill, Robin 3 days and feeling good this morning. Thank you. I went to a menís Christian breakfast yesterday morning. They had a group praying for people. I went up for prayer and easily for the first time in my life, (after 38 years of on and off drinking) said to that I was an alcoholic. I canít ever remember saying it with so much ease. It was like I was almost proud to say it. Scary. Iíd been to an AA meeting years ago but never went back because I didnít think my problem was as bad as the ones who spoke. Itís like having cancer and thinking it wonít kill you. Iíve been sitting here at my computer trying to write more but since I read Peteís comment I have been in kind of real quit and sad. I adjusted my thinking to him instead of me. All of us (Robin, Eloi, Bill, Jason, Kelly, Robert and Marsha) are on your side Pete. After 29 years of marriage, itís not that she doesnít stand alcoholism. In my case, I wanted to go to church for help rather than meeting. She was more afraid of me becoming a fanatical Christian than she was of me drinking. I could never figure that out. When I thought I was getting closer to my higher power to get help she didnít like it. She didnít like me going to AA or church. Where the H*** do I go?? I really think that my wife was using this like a loaded shot gun to get back at me for all the bad times I caused by my drinking. By the way she had plenty of ammo because my father and mother were both alcoholics. I donít think she meant it either. Pete, if there is a higher power, then there is a lower one who is trying to ruin everything you are doing. Please hang in there. Believe it or not, you have taken my problem and helped. Thanks everone. Ken


Member: Kelly M
Location: NH
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 10:05 AM

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Hi, Kelly an alcoholic. Wow, pete and Ken very powerful stuff. I'm glad your both sober and probably only so because you are putting your sobriety first. It has to come first above your wives and children. I am not married but have talked to my son about the amount of time I need to devote to recovery and at 18 he understands and is happy for me. He likes having a sober Mother. I have seen a lot of spouses do everything possible to undermine an alcoholics recovery. Codependency and control issues, jealousy come to the surface. They talk about it in the Big Book, The Wives, and The Family Afterward. If you could get your wife to an Alanon meeting she may begin to understand the disease and her (role) in it and recovery for her. I have a friend in the program that was married 30 years and his wife divorced him when he got sober. He explained that she said she only stayed around so long because he was so sick she would not leave him. Once he got sober she lost her (job) so to speak as nurse and caretaker. Whatever the dynamics are they probably as sick as we were. Bottom line is we have to do what we need to stay sober. Sobriety has to come first because it is a disease that wants to kill us. If we had a heart condition or cancer our spouses would put that first but for some reason alcohol is looked at different. My meetings are my medicine. I want to get better. Hang in there and try Alanon. Best of Luck! Kelly


Member: tracy
Location: Essex England
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 10:43 AM

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Good one, quite appropriate for me, last wk was a real downer for me after being sober for 80 days, longest in 26 yrs of binge drinking, well i have finished a 6wk treatment prog, 2wks ago and returned to part-time job straight away, plus have 3kids husband and dog to take care of, before i have always beaten myself up and thuoght this non stop work is my punishment for what ever, the committe makes all kinds of guildlines up for me, well i spoke to my councillor and he said that he would be exhausted doing what i do, and not taking a rest after treatment, at first i thought don't be silly other people do much more than me, but than other people are not mentally ill alcoholics, so if i rest i hope to get the strengh to fight this disease because without the energy it will beat me! tracy.v@ntlworld.com


Member: tracy
Location: Essex England
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 10:43 AM

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Good one, quite appropriate for me, last wk was a real downer for me after being sober for 80 days, longest in 26 yrs of binge drinking, well i have finished a 6wk treatment prog, 2wks ago and returned to part-time job straight away, plus have 3kids husband and dog to take care of, before i have always beaten myself up and thuoght this non stop work is my punishment for what ever, the committe makes all kinds of guildlines up for me, well i spoke to my councillor and he said that he would be exhausted doing what i do, and not taking a rest after treatment, at first i thought don't be silly other people do much more than me, but than other people are not mentally ill alcoholics, so if i rest i hope to get the strengh to fight this disease because without the energy it will beat me! tracy.v@ntlworld.com


Member: KimV
Location: kvaughn@madison.main.nc.us
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 11:41 AM

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Kim V here lacoholic. I hear what a lot of you are saying and it really ties in with this weeks topic Halt. When our spouses get angry (HALT)( A=angry)that we are getting sober it is because the dynamics of the relatiosnhip is changed and they are off balance. We then get angry because how dare they not support us when we are doing this great thing, getting sober that is so hard for us. So we have to make sure we eat and don't get to hungry, we need to talk to AA members who have been sober awhile to help us not keep our anger lit. We can't over do it and get to tired. We have to share and socialize with the AA fellowship so we don't get loney and therefore we get the suport we need. All these things can lead to a bad day, to being overwhelmed and to a slip. I really admire you Pete that when your wife was angry and unable to be supportive and you knew you were not able to deal with it right then, that you put yourself somewhere safe. Good decision and you can now say you didn't drink over it. Way to go. Thanks for letting me share everyone.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 12:05 PM

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hi Diane here again and day 12 sober hey Ken L way to go you can go to Church that is great, I wish my Husband wanted Church he is a Christian but with his Job he acts like anything new is away from his relaxing time. He is still drinking, I'm not sure if he has a problem because he can just have a little but with me once I started drinking I just drank till I got that big buzz lol then went to sleep. I am glad I am sober today


Member: Just passing it on
Location:
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 04:55 PM

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I remember being amazed at the huge difference eating a very large meat and cheese sandwich on whole wheat bread made to my feelings when I was brand-new sober. Food saved my sobriety on more than one occasion. I was lucky to have a sponsor that passed on that B vitamins and foods high in B vitamins also help a lot, in between the advice to go to meetings and read the Big Book. She also "gave me permission" to have a nap when I was tired. I couldn't do that on my own. I know, nuts. Early sobriety is exhausting. Eat and then go lie down. You'll be amazed.


Member: Tami E
Location: Texas
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 07:47 PM

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Wow. Thanks to everyone for their comments. I want, truly want to stop drinking.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 08:01 PM

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L-Glutamine I take that it helps blood sugar to stabilize I read they give that to Alcoholic's so I take it all the time Still sober and just had a nice steak Today is a good day Try it Tami I bought it at wall Mart or any health food store and it's really cheap, I take a lot of B's and also take Flax Oil it is good for the liver oh also Milk Thistle-also good for the liver anyway I'm trying to eat healthy now I figure I'm off this booze I might as well be healthy thanks Di


Member: still passing it on
Location:
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 09:13 PM

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Thanks, Di, I didn't want to seem like a know-it- all type, so didn't mention the things you did. I think they all help to stabilize my moods, which do so many of us in, in the first days and weeks of sobriety. Something I didn't know is that all alcoholics are malnourished to some degree, even the people that are eating somewhat regularly and well. Eating well, and often, made sobriety a lot easier. It also staved off the craving for sweets which comes fairly quickly after putting down the drink (I didn't know that alcohol, all alcohol, even vodka, my personal favourite is loaded with sugar and my body was hollering for sugar.) I don't think a day went by without an Oh Henry chocolate bar for a few months but feeding myself probably cut down on the sugar craving. I still don't want to seem like a know-it-all, this is only what I experienced, but I did get a lot of helpful info out of a book called "Under The Influence" by Katherine Ketchum. Although alcoholism is a disease of the mind, body and spirit, so often it's the bodily symptoms that sabotage us in early sobriety. Food and rest are important beyond important.


Member: Monica
Location: Richmont
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 09:20 PM

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also if you are well-fed and well-rested it will be easier to pick up the phone and go to meetings and get help with the also deadly feelings of anger and isolation (lonlieless). this is a good topic the life you save will be your own. when i didn't pay attention to H. A. L. T. i wasn't ever able to stay sober. god bless us all.


Member: Anna R.
Location:
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 10:15 PM

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Hello everyone, Anna-alcoholic, 9 days sober this time. I think HALT is a great topic, especially since I seem to feel one or more of all of those things at any given time. I've spent the last 6 months trying to get sober and have managed a record of seventeen days. That was was ten days ago, and I must say something is changing because instead of going off on a binge- this time I jumped right back into recovery. I'm happy about that, but I am soooo tired all the time. I started a new job last week, so I not only have to adjust to full-time work again, but I'm beginning to think that over 15 years of alcoholic drinking (I'm only 32)is taking it's toll. Why did I not feel so physically poor when I was drinking? Any other comments on help with energy (I'll try the vitamins)would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.


Member: AZbill
Location: From AZbill
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 10:31 PM

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HI All, Bill here alcoholic from Arizona. I feel that this HALT thing took care of itself once I was detoxed. My appetite improved. I started working on anger. I was feeling the need to rest. Lonely took the longest to correct. I was called back to work and was given a one man shift. Now all there was at first was me and the God of my understanding. I came into a small AA group. That put me in with people who had a similar problem. That was good, but not enough. After a year I went to college and sat in a 15 seat major. Now I am mixing with folks other than alcoholics. On Graduation, I entered my field of study and worked in large hospitals. Now I am dealing with people from all walks of life. This was a slow and progressive process. But the longer I stay sober the more I believe that AA is not so much a stop drinking program as it is a start living program. Thanks for being here. Bill, az-bill@mindspring.com


Member: Victor P
Location: NYC
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 11:03 PM

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Victor, alcoholic. Regarding significant others in early sobriety; I think they were always really angery with us but were too crazed from living with a hurricane to ever get to it. Or maybe we just couldn't see it or just didn't care. And once you sober up, they're expecting a miraclous transformation to the life they always knew you could have and have been waiting for IMMEDIATELY. H.A.L.T. is a great tool. My ability to deal with adversity and annoyance is directly related to how hungry I am. And when I get angry, I know I need to get to the other side of it in a healthy way fast or I am going to be a lonely man. But 1st I need to count to 10 to take some steam out of it, maybe hit a pillow a couple of times, run a few miles, whatever it takes to get past it, because stored up anger is a drink waiting to happen. Lonely I can deal with at meetings, including this one, or call a friend or alcoholic. And naps are the best invention ever-don't feel guilty! Thanks for listening, great meeting-


Member: Robin
Location: Midwest
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 11:23 PM

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Robin the alcoholic with 9 days soberity here. Thanks for the topic. I have been very tired lately. I feel my husband has been extra trying and I am trying to focus on my sobriety. This week I started taking a multivitamin and I got on my tread mill 4 days out of the 9. That's the best since I have owned the thing. It is not easy. Tonight while I was driving home and hearing about our winter storm I thought I needed to purchase some beer in case I get snowed in. My mind was also thinking that I could drink indoors and not be in public and that would be ok. No more embarrasing incidents (which Eloi K., I lived through with laughter but never admitted to anyone I was an alcoholic, that is where this forum is for and meetings). I chose to stay sober tonight because deep down inside I knew it did not matter whether I stayed home or went to the bar I would just over do it. When I stopped at that gas station I bought some chocolate and a pop. It helped me through those minutes and until I could get home and on the computer. I do feel better now that I have had a meal. I am going to go take care of the tired part now. Ya'll take care and keep coming back. Robin


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 06, 2003
Time: 11:29 PM

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thanks for the information on the Book (still Passing) I always love to learn and lately been concentrating on healing the liver I read that our liver is a very important it burns the fat and does so much more and even Coffee I read is very harmful so I stopped coffee, I watch what I eat and I sure don't eat lots of carbs or sugar that makes me crave alcohol anyway that is me and what I'm doing and I feel good and walk at least 2 miles a day and sometimes my butt is dragging the whole way but I do it and it helps. I'm finally sleeping at night now with out any sleeping over the counter pills which is a large step for me Hey I was tempted tonight in my mind so I went on line and started reading the big book and boy did they take me past the cravings to drink so I can safely say I got 12 days in now for sure


Member: Karen P.
Location: Wrightsville & Atlanta, GA
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 06:08 AM

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Good morning. Karen, alcoholic. On Friday I sat in a meeting next to a woman on her ninth day of sobriety. She asked, "What do you do if you don't drink?" I found her more straighforward and courageous than I was at that point, and a stunning reminder of how desperate things feel that early on. With 13 months sobriety now, I know two things. I have a choice not to take that first drink, and one does fine things to do instead. I am thankful for the fellowship of AA and grateful to the woman with 9 days for reminding me of that awful time. I gave her my phone number, and I offer you my address, in the event that my meager accomplishment and wisdom can be of use to you. Poelman@msn.com


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 08:50 AM

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Hi everyone--Marsha an alcoholic here. I feel that this topic is just what I needed. ((Robin)) You and I think alike. I would be riding along thinking about drinking beer and snowstorms. We got alot of ice here. I had 9 days under my belt and I lost my grip but decided today my goal will be to locate a meeting. I went to counseling last year and my therapist had a hard time directing me to an AA meeting. She thought that I had codependent issues instead. That is because all I did was to lie about my drinking. Where this is leading is that when I woke up with a hangover, and finished beating myself up, I realized that LONELY is what keeps me hung up. I am not lonely for people but for personal attention. My husband has taken me for granted it seems forever and I grew up as a middle child and always felt lost in the shuffle. I feel embarrased telling you all this. I sound like I am feeling sorry for myself.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 10:50 AM

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hi Diane here again day 13 sober of course my real test is always after 7 at night I would always hold off till then because I knew I would drink till I slept so that kept me from really blowing it anyway Marsha I'm also a middle child so I do understand where you are coming from and we all have to share even if we sound dumb, not that you sound dumb by no means I am talking of me. I know I come up with some crazy thoughts but I'm just sharing anyway happy to be sober Thank God and this group


Member: John H
Location: Manchester UK
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 11:36 AM

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I want to talk about Tired. When I was drinking -all 35 years of it!- I was often tired. Particularly after a few scoops of ale and a big meal! But I never slept properly - just sort of passed out. When I stopped drinking - 8 months ago - I started to sleep well and now I sleep like a baby for 8 hours a night. But the best bit is that during my waking hours I have lots of energy to do the things I want to do and that's great.Also I wake up without a trace of that guilt that I always had, remembering the wreckage of the previous day. It was explained to me that I had never slept properly during my drinking days - because I always fell into unconsciousness rather than into a natural, proper sleep. It took me about a month to lose all the physical side effects of the booze but boy was it worth it! I now do most of the right things that I was told to do, like go to meetings, live one day at a time and don't pick up the first drink. The Big Book is also a great help when I get a bit down. I also now have a sponsor who kicks me when I deserve it and supports me when I'm struggling. Life is great now and it wouldn't have been possible without AA. Thanks for reading my share. John H


Member: Eloi K.
Location: NE Mn
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 11:56 AM

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Hi everyone, I realize that my posting sounded really angry and stupid. I wasn't making fun of anyone, just very depressed and hurt by a friend. Robin I just felt aconnection to you because I'm in a like situation ( small town, great husband that I don't want to embarrass, and a desire to stay sober). I have been going to meetings and admitting i"m an alcoholic and only there. My friend found out by seeing my car at a meeting site. When asked I admitted I was at a meeting. I absouletly know that no one in the meetings would ever spread my name around and that is how I know who did. I had oral surgery 2 weeks ago and have been imbedded at home. That is why I was looking for some help online. I really like this site and it has helped through some tough craving times.after over 30 days I slipped but am back on track with the grace of God. I too am tired, but feel better every day with waking up sober. I have used my imbedded time to read the big book, nap, and concentrate on my liquid diet. I am going to get over the anger in time. As soon as I am able I will return to my meeting ( hopefully this week) but am happy to have this forum for the times in between. I joined a health club and had been going for workouts which I am also looking foward to returning to.


Member: Trey M
Location: TX
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 12:46 PM

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Trey here, alcoholic. Sober for three weeks. I have found from personal experience that HALT puts me at greater risk of drinking because I'm not thinking straight. My thinking is screwed up enough when I'm happy, rested, around people, and well fed. I start a pity party when the HALT conditions exist, and this pity party urges me to make snap decisions. It also tells me that drinking is OK, because why not? Aren't things terrible at that moment? That's the problem for me - I don't take time to think "this, too, will pass". I have to feed and rest my body, stay in contact with other recovering people (even though I don't want to at the time), and talk about my anger. These "have-to's" go against every fiber in my body, but it's a suggestion I've been given to start changing my habits. I really appreciate everything everyone shares on this site - it always makes me feel less alone.


Member: Karen P.
Location: Wrightsville & Atlanta, GA
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 12:55 PM

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((Marsha)) May your insights help you in your sobriety. AA is a journey of getting honest, first of all with yourself. I think it was brave of you to share yourself.


Member: Chris
Location: Lorain County Ohio
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 02:07 PM

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ME as person today. I'm better off . I under stand people today. Before I did not care. Now I help look itup. God bless all


Member: Chris
Location: Lorain County Ohio
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 02:09 PM

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ME as person today. I'm better off . I under stand people today. Before I did not care. Now I help look itup. God bless all


Member: chris K
Location: NC
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 02:26 PM

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18 days sober after 18 years drunk, been craving lots of chocolate, cookies chips you name it. after several failed attempts I asked my doctor for antabuse which for me so far is the deal, I don't think I could have gone this far w/o it. I know It's not a permanent fix. It feels GREAT to be sober. I never craved sweets before but sure have lately, some of your comments opened my eyes as to maybe why? It's better than being drunk so I've just been going with it, also been very tired & lazy where as normally you couldn't keep me still untill I passed out anyways. So far haven't had a problem with angry or lonely. One day @ a time. Thank you all.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 03:31 PM

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Hi Diane here again, and (Trey) you hit the nail on the head the lonely part, I like this group it helps me so much to read how everyone does, I've tried many times and stop many months at a time but this time I am going to succed with a little help from my friends (AA) friends that is


Member: Lu J.
Location:
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 05:43 PM

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Hi. Lu alcoholic here. Starting from scratch again today. I am having a rough time of it. I allow the lonliness to overcome me. I am very afraid of falling into that black pit of alcoholism again. I haven't had a nightmarish relapse yet, but I know if I continue to slip, something terrible is going to happen. I don't want to drink. I pray to God, but my strength is not there. I feel like I need some words of wisdom. PLEASE. Thanks and God bless.


Member: JASON L.
Location: PENNSYLVANIA
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 07:33 PM

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Hello everyone!Jason L. here,addict/alcoholic.sorry to be so late on this weeks topic,pretty hectic week.I think that this week,it is safe to say that for me,its halt,dont get too angry.Earlier this week,i went to pick up my daughter at daycare,and they wouldnt let me have her.Already i can feel the anger begin!So i went to the ex-wife's place of employment,and it seems as though she got into one of her many moods,and decided that i wasnt going to see her,for whatever reason.One of many times she decided on this!i never even knew that my daughter was born,my girlfriend read it to me from the local newspaper!Now,I am downright pissed.so while in the store,I proceeded to argue with her,and when it seemed as though i had got the best of her,in the middle of the store,in front of customers,she calls me a dopehead!O.K.now she crossed the line,and i exploded with all kinds of obsceneties that would make the devil himself blush!now I got slapped with summary harassment charges,and i have to go to court,an addicts nightmare,to fight for the right to see my daughter.When all was said and done,i sat back thinking,and all of a sudden,i had the urge to use!why does this woman,who hold no significance in my life,other than the fact that she is my babys mama,have so much power over me?Then it hit me.That is what she wants!She wants me to get angry,and loose it and use,and have my girlfriend and I fighting!That way she has someting on me.She figures that if I use,then she has a reason to not let me see my daughter!And she hates the fact that my girlfriend and I have been happily together for going on five years,and she couldnt even make it a year.She is jealous of the life I have without her,and the relationship I hold with my daughter.So now,from this day foreword,i refuse to get angry at the things i cannot change.I keep telling myself that if i pick up a beer,or if I rool up a fat one,I would be doing it for her,and there is no way that is going to happen!!!Thanks for letting me share....


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 09:29 PM

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Diane 13 days sober and I believe I have to take responsiblility for my actions even though I had good reason in my head to drink ( my Son) I now know I can not help him stay off drugs I need to fix me first then let God do the rest


Member: Marsha R.
Location: CT
Date: April 07, 2003
Time: 11:58 PM

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Hi Marsha R... and an alcoholic. You all are doing great! My sponsor early on told me to add an "O" to HALT for overwhelmed. Sometimes the crud can get too high, and it seems like too much is going on and nothing is going the way it should and everything is against me. When I stop to think that maybe I'm a little overwhelmed, and then check the hungry, angry, lonely, tired parts of me.. I find that I have some concrete steps that I can take to help ensure I stay sober. Eating is good, and chocolate is just fine in a pinch (way better than a drink), anger.. still work on that one myself... but know that walking away, taking deep breaths and counting to 10 help. Lonely... pick up the phone and go to a meeting... and PRAY (to whomever)... Tired... that nap suggestion is just the best. Halt is a reminder to take care of ourselves now that we are able to (and conscious). OH! and for the women... I also add PMS to the HALT-O... because that can sure throw me for a loop. Have a great and sober week everyone!


Member: Robin
Location: Midwest
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 01:02 AM

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Robin, alcoholic sober for 10 days. Today another trying day but I did not drink. Yeah!!! Thank you all for being here to listen, understand and give some advice. ((Eloi K.)) I would be very upset with my friend too, but maybe she/he is not going to help you or want to help you. Maybe their actions are out of jealousy or when people have their own issues they make other people look or seem awful to bring theirselves up. ((Marsha L)) since we think alike you can rest assure that you aren't alone. I get lonely alot. That is why I have been coming here now so often. Thanks everyone.


Member: Taylor B
Location: WA
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 01:21 AM

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Taylor sober for awhile now and plan on never drinking again, i dont need it in my life and dont need to get in anymore trouble for it, so its out. I feel like this is a big step for me because ive never just stopped something that I was doing so abruptly. I drank and smoked cigarettes and i quit both of them cold turkey before I went into my court-ordered treatment, and boy is it hard especially the cigarettes, but i beleive if I want it bad enough I can do it. So for anybody who is just starting to realize they need to quit, I just want to say GOOD LUCK and you can do anything you set your mind to.


Member: Judi-NC
Location: NC
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 03:53 AM

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Judi here. Alcoholic. Wow,so many of you going thru just what I am going thru! Sure is scary.When I'm alone with "me" is when I get in trouble. "Me" sure can put crazy thoughts in my head. I too am doing this AGAIN! I might not get another chance to enter these sober doors and that is scary. I have to remember the truth behind that first drink.Where it took me and where I might end up this time. I don't just put afew bucks up on the counter for that one drink,I put up my life. Its a crap shoot everytime. I guess that makes me addicted to gambling too!! I have hit my emotional/spiritual bottom and these last 5 days are the foundation to my recovery. It will only get worse if I keep playing this bouncing game, in and out of insanity. At this point Ihave some sanity left. Enough to know I CAN NOT DRINK! Not one,not just a 6 pack,one bottle or just at night. I CAN NOT DRINK.I lose control,I am an alcoholic. I can remember where I've been,where I am heading,where I want to be. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 12:02 PM

Comments

Diane here Alcoholic, 14 Days sober I really enjoy reading all the suggestions and life experiences here that others write about I am taking one day at a time and enjoying my waistline going down because don't know if anyone knows it but Alcohol puts a layer of fat around our middle. Sleeping great now and taking Herbs and cranberry water to clean my liver out that much faster. Reading the AA book each night to keep me sober. just don't take that first drink and I can make it of course my higher power is first place I go for my daily guide it's easy now but the test will be in a week when my Son is released from rehab he pushes all my bad buttons thanks for being here (squeeze half a Lemon and hot water each morning with my Stevia plus to wake me up and also helps the liver) Sorry if I sound like a know it all but have been researching and just want to share what I've learned


Member: Ken L
Location: RI
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 12:38 PM

Comments

Ken here Alcoholic. Just checking in with everybody. Made the weekend, which puts the tally at 5 days. Got tired Sunday, probably because I took a four-mile walk. Took a nap but it was to rest not to sober up. Now I feel better. Better is not a reason to think that I am not an alcoholic. Good to hear from all of you.


Member: Tami E.
Location: Texas
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 01:27 PM

Comments

Thanks Di. I called the AA listing in the phone book and got a recorded message. Do I just show up, or do I have to talk to someone or something first? Thank you for your help. This is the scariest thing I have done in my entire 39 years.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 02:49 PM

Comments

Diane here Alcoholic hey Lu my prayers are with you cause all things are possible through Christ who strengthens us. I know they say higher power which he is for me. I am new to AA and not went to any meetings yet except for this board, what I read from a lot of folks is don't take that first drink no matter what and you can do it also read the AA book here is a link to it just in case you don't have the book http://www.recovery.org/aa/bigbook/ww/index.html Day 14 sober


Member: Rich P
Location: Colorado
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 03:31 PM

Comments

Tami, just show up. Get there 5-10 minutes early and tell someone that you are new. They will get you a meeting list, phone list, literature, etc. Look for someone you relate to that can answer your questions. In my case that person later became my sponsor. Know that these people are there FOR YOU. You are not interupting them or bothering them. They are grateful you are there! I am proud of you for the courage you demonstrated by making that call today. Peace


Member: Kay M.
Location: MA
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 04:44 PM

Comments

Di B in OK, being new you may not know that religion is an outside issue in AA. This is the AA preamble, read at the start of many (though not all) meetings: Alcoholics Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism. * The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for AA membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions. * AA is NOT allied with any sect, denomination, politics organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy; neither endorses nor opposes any causes. * Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety. (copyrighted material)


Member: Tom M
Location: Phila., PA
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 05:37 PM

Comments

Tom here. 183 days sober. Imagine, ME, with six months. Surely a miracle that my higher power has bestowed on me. For all who are new. Sitck with it. It gets better. Not great, just better. Suppose greatness will come over more time. Prayer helps a lot.


Member: Tom M
Location: Phila., PA
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 05:37 PM

Comments

Tom here. 183 days sober. Imagine, ME, with six months. Surely a miracle that my higher power has bestowed on me. For all who are new. Sitck with it. It gets better. Not great, just better. Suppose greatness will come over more time. Prayer helps a lot.


Member: chris
Location: Lorain Ohio
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 07:15 PM

Comments

Today I was watching the news and state highway tickit . I know my self I"m still learning. Thanks to man above I"M still here.I had friends with no hair. That went threw car window. One friend under car the only thing was his legs were left. MY high school sweety took her life with baby and her life. TODAY I"LL PRAY Thanks for today . I"m getting older so I pray . LIFE is today I love , prity , honesty and unselfishness . So I pray about it my higher power will help me amen .


Member: chris
Location: Lorain Ohio
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 07:16 PM

Comments

Today I was watching the news and state highway tickit . I know my self I"m still learning. Thanks to man above I"M still here.I had friends with no hair. That went threw car window. One friend under car the only thing was his legs were left. MY high school sweety took her life with baby and her life. TODAY I"LL PRAY Thanks for today . I"m getting older so I pray . LIFE is today I love , prity , honesty and unselfishness . So I pray about it my higher power will help me amen .


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 08:28 PM

Comments

sorry Kay if I offended you buy speaking of my God if you don't want me here I'll leave that really hurt my feeling


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 08, 2003
Time: 08:45 PM

Comments

ok Kay won't let my hurt feeling get me drunk lol but I've read many boards which (to say God) which is my higher power is all I was saying anyway no big deal I'll be fine. It's funny how when I start to get upset I know I need to work more on myself to stay sober cause I think anger is not good, love is better I've been reading the AA book and read a lot of our HP which was how it got started in the first place God Bless you


Member: John S
Location: NE Pa.
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 01:58 AM

Comments

Hi, folks. John, alcoholic here. I have 25 days of sobriety (this time). I have been to Rehab twice and one institutional detox in the last two years. I'm tired of being a perennial newcomer and have finally decided to work the program the way everyone has always told me to. I finally have a sponsor, a suuport group that I talk things out with on a regular basis, and I go to a lot of meetings (this is my first visit to this site but I hope to become a regular here too). I've never made it to 60 days, and after 25 years of drinking, I don't have any more chances left. My higher power has seen fit to truly humble me this time- no job, no bank account, no money, no car, no credit rating, etc., etc... My way of dealing with HALT is to say the serenity prayer whenever I'm feeling those things. Some days it seems that I am chanting it like a mantra, my head is so screwed up, but it does help. My powerlessness over alcohol is one of those things I must accept because it is a condition of my life that I cannot change. However, with the help of my higher power, I can muster the courage to change my behavior- leave that first drink in the bottle. As for wisdom, when it comes to alcohol, I have the "wisdom born of pain" as Helen Reddy once sang. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 08:06 AM

Comments

Hi Everyone, Marsha from Michigan here and I am an alcoholic. I had nine days of sobriety and I slipped. I stayed with the websight even though I felt so discouraged. I know that I need a sponsor or a face to face meeting but I am still afraid to take the step. Today is day one of my sobriety. Thanks for being here for me. I know that God is here because if He wasn't, I would have not made it through those nine days.


Member: Maggie
Location: IL
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 08:32 AM

Comments

Hi all, Maggie here. Alcoholic. ((DI. B.)) So you used the word "Christ". Don't worry, it's perfectly ok to say what is on your mind, or in your thoughts. People will give you advice in A.A., not trying to hurt you but to direct you. TAKE WHAT YOU WANT AND LEAVE THE REST! The program is your own. It will show you the way. The B.B. says it all, listen to it, it will not hurt your feelings. All the guidance you need is right there, (a great sponsor is a must also.) ((Marsha, I'm glad your back!)) The fellowship will ALWAYS we waiting. Love to all, Maggie P.S. ONE DAY AT A TIME!


Member: tracy
Location: England
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 09:43 AM

Comments

Sorry is not alright to use the word Christ? I don't use personally but didn't understand the not mentioning it bit, anyone explain? I do have a HP that i call God cause anything else sounds sillyLOL like fish sticks or what ever. tracy.v@ntlworld.com


Member: Kelly M
Location: NH
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 10:28 AM

Comments

Hi ((Tracy and Di B)). Jesus Christ is my savior too, I'm Catholic. I refer to him as God or my HP in AA because it is politically correct and according to the Big Book. Politics and religion are notorious for starting controversy in the bar or in AA. In AA in the beginning The Oxford Group based AA on the Bible but they had the foresight to see and change it to a format acceptable to any person. ((AZbill))or does anyone else know about the Oxford Group? I'm not sure when the change took place etc.? I would like to read about it. (Marsha L) Begin again and keep coming back. (Tom M) congrats on 60 days and (John S). on 25 days! I made 7 months yesterday and that is a miracle for this drunk!!! (Chris) you have seen a lot and still have a good message, keep coming. Tami E. you are doing the most important thing, taking the first step and going to a meeting! WTG. Just for today lets just not drink. Kelly


Member: Judi
Location: NC
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 10:41 AM

Comments

Welcome John. I do know how you feel. I was in and out so many times I just knew I was one of the hopeless. I tried to end the pain for myself and everyone else but that was not "The plan." Time heals. You are doing GREAT! Keep doing what you are doing and "Easy Does It". I have to keep reining myself in, wanting all the peace and joy NOW! Hugs to all.


Member: chris
Location: Lorain Ohio
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 12:39 PM

Comments

TOday I'm working on easy does it. To sweet people . I can say it is candy thing is overwhelming .I as higher power .I love to eat. I been clean for nine months. There are label in harming things . I been reading Bigbook.I been praying you to just one day time.Still soder & crazy that all are I can say it the program works . But I'm working on my pig self . Hay !! I no people that got suger. Sometimes IT is spider . TOday I'm getting help buy you as a person To help me . IN my higher power god bless all aman


Member: chris
Location: Lorain Ohio
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 12:44 PM

Comments

TOday I'm working on easy does it. To sweet people . I can say it is candy thing is overwhelming .I as higher power .I love to eat. I been clean for nine months. There are label in harming things . I been reading Bigbook.I been praying you to just one day time.Still soder & crazy that all are I can say it the program works . But I'm working on my pig self . Hay !! I no people that got suger. Sometimes IT is spider . TOday I'm getting help buy you as a person To help me . IN my higher power god bless all aman


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 02:32 PM

Comments

thank you for all the kind advice on HP I'll be sure not to say the name of my HP, last night was a weak time I read the message when I was feeling kind of down about my Son coming home from rehab, he likes to try and control me and my husband so it was a rough night but I made it without drinking so now I can say day 15 YES! Today is a good day without a head full of fog from booze Sorry if I sounded hurt that is one of my personality problems I am trying to deal with and yes your right I need to take what helps me I believe Maggie said that anyway when I read all these post I forget who said what, still working on healing my brain cells hehe God Bless you all good luck to you Marsha at least you won't take a drink today! One Day at a Time is what we have to take


Member: chris
Location: lorain ohio
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 03:46 PM

Comments

"HAY" KAY M LIVE & let live keep it simple stupit .Turn it over . ONE day at a time If it works don't fix IT I pray for you kay. Whats one thing in present in your life is desire in to stop !!!!


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 04:03 PM

Comments

John S you can make it you have went further then me I'm only 15 days sober, I've went other times up to 6 months and once a year but always if ever I take that first drink I am back on the road to drink every night I've never been to a rehab but my Son is in one right now he has a drug problem I'm going to try and find a AA group near by so I can have friends with the same goal that I do and that is to stop drinking for Life thanks Di


Member: Stacy S.
Location: Los Angeles
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 06:34 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Stacy. I was an Alateen, then and Al-Anon and I've just realized that I may be an AA! Lost my Mom to the disease almost 4 years ago, that's when my problem excellerated. I still have a hard time believing that I have it; hoping that maybe I've just been abusing alcohol....maybe I'm not an alcoholic. I fought for years to save my Mom. I swore I'd never be one. I had 2 kids, lost my Mom and wound up coping with sadness and Stay At Home Mom Blues by drinking. Nearly daily. Sometimes a lot, sometimes a litte. Today is day 4 and although I'm not freaking out, I miss my "friend" and am having to keep very busy so as not to have a drink. 2 small kids and a difficult time with my husband, sometimes I want to escape. I answered the 12 questions on the AA site and learned that I need to investigate myself. I'm very sad about this. I will go to a meeting tomorrow when I have a babysitter. Any advice or encouragement or experience sharing would be appreciated. Thank you.


Member: MartyG
Location: Cowtown
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 06:51 PM

Comments

hello everybody, marty here a true alcoholic. i have read the post and i feel that i could have written them myself. we all share in this terrible disease, and by sharing we can learn how to stay or get sober. this never ending process is made easier by your post. HALT, a good self check to recognize triggers to relapse. i know because i've been there, done that. when i did relapse, i was at least feeling twelve of them. anyway you got the idea. so pay attention to them and take steps to counter them to keep from picking up. nobody said it would be easy but little tips like this go a long way. (DiB) don't worry about how you refer to your HP,God, Christ, Alla, Buddah, Dog, Cat, Goldfish, whatever just remember that YOUR sobriety is the most important thing. screw being politically correct right now, just try to not drink. an old timer shared that he went to Alanon meetings you might want to give it a try. (Tami) i hope you made your meeting, that takes real courage, more than i had in early sobriety. Love one another. meg


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 09, 2003
Time: 10:49 PM

Comments

Thanks Marty yeah I was looking for a alanon meeting when I found this site and I know I will need for for when my Son gets out next week, he is talking positive now he is clean now 24 days but was clean before when he went to Jail for 22 days and stayed cleaned till we went on vacation then I think he slipped or the signs all pointed to it. I do think I could get help for me too in a meeting like that so will try and find one. I did find a few in Shawnee but like I said that is 40 miles one way anyway still sober and it's 15 days and past 9 pm here so I can say I will stay sober tonight God bless Di


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 06:00 AM

Comments

Good morning everybody, Marsha L Alcoholic here. HALT! I had the the most severe bout with anger yesterday. This is my second day of sobriety and counting. I have education in some alternative medicine and during my studies I learned that your liver is your anger center. That is, when your liver is being assalted, it cannot handle the normal processes and certain wastes cannot be eliminated. Drinking does this to me. I know that if the drinking stops, the anger stops. I know that when a person drinks, B and C vitamins are destroyed and those are your main stress buster vitamins. Alcoholism creates such a destructive cycle. As angry and hateful as I felt yesterday, I stayed sober for just one day and the effects are good. Thanks for listening and being here for me.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 03:11 PM

Comments

hi Diane here 16 days today hey Marsha L thanks for you post I always like learning and that is a good thing to know the destruction that alcohol does to us so again thank you God Bless


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 06:48 PM

Comments

Thanks Diane. God bless you too.


Member: Judi
Location: NC
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 07:24 PM

Comments

Hey Stacey, I have one small child at home and 3 grown ones away. Those stay a home blues got my goat and I went off the wagon. Sucks! I hate to leave my little one,(almost a year old.) But have to now for night meetings. Hubby watches her for me. I have even thought of a part time job just to get bach in the world alittle. Hang in there! If you want to write off the list here please do. boxermomagain@webtv.net It gets real lonely.


Member: Tami E
Location: NE Texas
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 08:28 PM

Comments

I want everyone to know that I truly appreciate your sharing. A special thanks to Marty and Rich for the personal acknowledgement. Wow. I have not made a meeting yet, as they are in another town and too late for my schedule. Saturday, I am going, no matter what. I have wonderful children and a terrific grandchild. This has to stop. I am not sure even how it started, but for the last 3 years, at least, I have drank myself to sleep. 5 to 7 gin and tonics a night. There is no way I can stop on my own. In fact, I may have to go to rehab which would cause me to lose my job. Anyway, thanks for the opportunity to speak. Peace. Tami


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 10:23 PM

Comments

hi there Tami you sound like me I drank my self to sleep every night also but I had to stop so I did and now I am 16 days sober, This time I've started keeping track of the time that passes each day that I can stay sober and it seems to be helping me. This board also helps a lot cause so many people here have such good advice and reading there problems helps me to know that I can do it also God Bless Diane


Member: MartyG
Location: Cowtown
Date: April 10, 2003
Time: 10:54 PM

Comments

hi folks Marty here an alcoholic. (TamiE) i hope that you can get to that meeting, i am praying that all works out for you. read the big book, which you can do online by using the link above in (DiB's) post. pray a little bit and keep posting here as often as needed. when you go, go a little early. ask around to some folks and tell them a little about your situation, hell ask them for a big book and a meeting directory. it' going to take a lot of courage (not the liquid kind that i was so fond of) but it will pay huge dividends. it's a big step you are about to take, just remember that we are behind you all the way. peace in your life. love one another. meg


Member: Robin
Location: Midwest
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 01:23 AM

Comments

Robin alcoholic here. It has been 13 days yeah!! Right now I feel wonderful. (need to be careful, right?). Been doing exercise, reading, taking vitamins and keeping busy. I know as I look back at how my life has been it was out of control. I thought that going to the bar was a way to connect with people and socialize. I have moved so much that the bar is the best place to meet new people in the community that I am in at the time so that I don't feel lonely. But I know that I cannot control alcohol and it has been controlling me for 20 years. I am too young for this type of control (35 yrs). I need others and thank goodness I found you all. This site is keeping in check and not so lonely. ((Marsha keep coming back and take it one day at a time)). Stacy as the booze slowly leaves your body your mind gradually starts thinking without the haze. Then you can cope with problems instead of masking them. Am I sounding too philisophical (sp?)? Everyone take care. Robin


Member:
Location:
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 06:15 AM

Comments

Ken here alcoholic. 7 days. Don't have much to say. Put on more pounds. Don't care. Feel somewhat different. Can't describe it. Even though I don't have anything to say, I read all of your comments and it helps me, helps me helps me. Get the point? Thanks Ken


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 06:25 AM

Comments

Hi Robin, Tami E., Di B., and MartyG and everyone. I too would drink myself to sleep and when I didn't drink, I couldn't sleep. I have heard that this will pass and some days spent napping will help. This is day three of sobriety for me and I am greatful. It is an odd feeling at first (Di B) when it is 7 or eight at night and you know actually what is going on around you and you can have a normal conversation and have a decaf and watch a movie and not feel so restless. Yesterday I went for a walk with my boxer dog and my husband and breathed in the fresh air and thanked God for another sober day. I also am downloading the BB and reading it really gives me the desire to join in and be sober for life. Thanks for hearing me.


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 10:49 AM

Comments

yeah Marsha I love being able now to actually read a book and understand what I'm reading cause I'm not too drunk to read it and even to go to a chat room on pal talk and not be a crazy stupid drunk that says things I wish I had not said. Walking is great! I do that each day but sometimes I am dragging my butt but I still try to get that workout for my health. Hey guys I found the Big Book on this site http://www.sobercity.com/resources.cfm it is in Acrobat reader but I like it cause it lets me highlight things and if I come across a word I don't understand it also lets you look the word up very cool little BB program and of course it's free


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 12:33 PM

Comments

oh forgot to say day 17 YES! Sober, I sure do like this little group we had can pull together with our knowledge and keep going and counting each day together that we are sober. I've put me and my husband on the Fat Flush Plan it's a Diet that is very good for your Liver and also drops weight, I've lost 18 pounds in my 17 days of sobriety and my cloths are really loose now hehe God Bless


Member: Kim D.
Location: Bridgewater
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 02:54 PM

Comments

((Everyone)) new and working on getting and staying sober, congratulations. You'll NEVER be sorry for joining AA, working the Steps and becoming part of the fellowship. Never. Now~H.A.L.T.~ is an acronym I pay attention to, even after a few years sober. When I am over tired, hungry, upset by something or feeling really alone, I am MORE prone to negative thinking that could lead to a relapse. Why? Because alcoholism is a disease of based on feelings and I don't "feel good" emotionally when H.A.L.T. What DID this good alkie do when bummed out- stressed out - aggrivated? Drank. That's why it's suggested to get a sponsor and hit meetings (beat the lonely), eat well-balanced meals (beat the hungry), get regular rest/sleep (beat the lonely) and work the program of AA (12 steps) (beat the anger). Recovery from alcoholism is not only physical, but spiritual and emotional. First the body gets well, then the mind begins to heal, then the spirit. At least that is how I found the process to occur within me. Lastly - this is a process not a destination. Good luck and best wishes to you all. Thanks for being a part of my sobriety today.


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 03:13 PM

Comments

Hi DiB and KimD Marsha from Michigan an alcoholic. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I am on the road to recovery but I know that in my heart that the only way that this is going to last is if I finally give in and go to an AA meeting in my area. I am finding that I am beginning to get envious of your positive experiences. To me that is a good thing.


Member: CJ
Location: Bora Bora
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 03:36 PM

Comments

Hi all....lots of good sharing from the heart today...and as you all are my extended family I would like to share my 40yrs of sobriety today with you all....in forums like this one..in rooms like the one you are in now..WE stay sober one day at a time..that is all I ask of myself today...just for today I will not drink and I will go to a meeting...no matter in what form that meeting looks like I will do something AA oriented. When anyone anywhere reaches out for help, I want the hand of AA to always be there, and for that I am responsible. Once again to all of you, thankyou for sharing part of your life with me and I will do the same. I wish you all peace, balance and serenity. CJ


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 11, 2003
Time: 08:49 PM

Comments

Diane here again and it's that time that I like to drink but will not for today hey Marsha L I know what your saying I also need a meeting I've still not done it but I kind feel like this is my daily meeting and this is my time at night when I need a meeting so I open this room up off and on during the Day when I have time I feel also like I'm becoming friends with the group and I look for each of you each day to see if you made it one more day sober I'll keep coming back Di


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 05:48 AM

Comments

Marsha from Michigan here an alcoholic. Hi Everybody. (Diane) Yes I feel a bond more than just cyber. I am going to stay with this sight because this is where I have found a starting place to get better. I have a feeling that this is a preview to face to face meetings. (CJ) 40 years. OH MY GOSH! Thanks for that encouraging share of that wonderful landmark in your life. I can do that too and this is only day number four for me. In forty years I will be ninety. That is conceivable. My dad is still going strong at 84. I guess that will depend on how much damage has been done physically. I am really concentrating on HALT because every time I consider drinking it connects back to one of those letters. Thanks.


Member: mike H.
Location: michigan
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 09:22 AM

Comments

Mike an alcoholic here. Have not visited this site for awhile - but enjoying reading all of your sharing this morning. Have been drinking on and off for 32 years and never made it more than 40 days clean with willpower, exercise, isolation, etc. Tried controlled drinking, scheduled vacations to drink, none of it worked. Had a pending hearing with the State and knew attendance @ AA was a requirement to get my license back. It was the only reason i went to a meeting. Was tired of suffering from my drinking. Now i understand all i need to do is not pick up that first drink. What a relief! the meetings have helped me do, what i could not do on my own. Today is day 143 clean. Thank you all for your sharing and thank you for letting me share.


Member: Marsha L
Location: Michigan
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 10:38 AM

Comments

Hi Everyone, (Mike) Congratulations and thanks for the encouragement. Keep sharing because we need you.


Member: Tracy V
Location: Essex England
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 11:14 AM

Comments

Hi Tracy Alcoholic here, well i am still quite early in my sobriety, but apart from the ups and downs of mood which is expected, I am begining to grasp the feeling that i am at the begining of a new and exciting time in my life, to see the same world i have been apart of for 40yrs, from a different set of eyes is truely amazing, if someone had shown me how i would eventually feel i would have called them a liar,its like i have been living in a room without windows and now i have windows and a beautiful meadow to walk in. I would not swop this feeling for all the money in the world, i use to think if i was rich i would be well, how sick was i. I hope others have the joy of this feeling to. tracy.v@ntlworld.com


Member: Stacy S.
Location: West Coast
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 11:33 AM

Comments

Stacy, Alcoholic. 6 days sober. Going to my second meeting today. Thank you Judi and Robin for your encouragement. Each day sober is uncovering so much emotion. Anger is one. Sadness. Guilt. But I have also begun to see that my head is functioning better, than I am a better wife and mother when I'm not drinking. I am grateful for that. Thank God. ~~Stacy


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 12:10 PM

Comments

Wow Mike 140 clean, good for you, and CJ wow again 40 years is great and we need a AA guy who has made it that long to encourage us and tell us some good tips. Today is a beautiful Spring Oklahoma Day (suppose to get up to 80) Marsha L yes I am starting to feel so comfortable with this site I think the real deal won't be bad at all. Tracy I agree the World is looking so much more clear to me now this is great. Oh day 18 sober had to look at my Daily planner to be sure, Today is a good day to be Sober Diane


Member: Tami E
Location: NE Texas
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 02:29 PM

Comments

What a day. I went to where the meeting was supposed to be and nobody was there. I cried all the way home. Well, tomorrow is another day, I will try again. Everyone here is truly an inspiration for me. Thank you.


Member: Jan BB
Location: Paris, France
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 03:31 PM

Comments

((Tami E.)) I see that you have been here-good. You know, I have had that same thing happen to me and felt just as you do. Don't give up, can you not drink, just until the next meeting tommrow. It is great that you feel inspired by what you have read here, can you hold that inspiration and hang on? That is how this thing works along with meetings and well, your gonna know. Please email me, love to chat with you or anyone reading this. I do care. Faith and Hope ((Everyone)) janbbparis@yahoo.com


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 06:16 PM

Comments

hi Tami E my Heart goes out to you and hey we are neibors well I'm Oklahoma but my Daughter lives in Texas, I would think there would be many meetings in Texas it is so large, it scares this Okie to drive in Texas, I'm use to the slow okie drivers haha well we go 70 but not as many cares on the roads take care Diane


Member: Di B
Location: Ok
Date: April 12, 2003
Time: 06:39 PM

Comments

correction neighbors