Member: Kathy D
Location: AM, OH
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 10:47 AM

Comments

Hi! I'm Kathy and I am an alcoholic. Getting Active has a lot of meaning for me today...it can mean get into AA service work OR get off my butt and take a walk OR look through the job ads and apply for a job I never thought I might like, etc. Bottom line...do something to get out of myself. If i sit around and think "woe is me" then "woe I'll be".


Member: Amanda H
Location: NW Montana
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 12:32 PM

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Hi! Amanda and an alcoholic. It is a beautiful but very cold –5 degree Sunday morning. Getting active to me means participating in my own sobriety. It means taking action such as working my program every day, going to meetings, putting “first things first” and using my developing “tool kit” that I have built with my sponsor to stay sober. And for me the very definition of "first things first” MEANS being active in the 12 steps everyday. The steps are not a one time thing. They are a way of life, one step at a time, and one day at a time. Being active also means to me cultivating daily relationship with my HP and staying in touch with my spirituality. Spirituality like all things must be nurtured, developed so it grows and then this growth in-turn strengthens my sobriety. Then I agree, part of working the program is being physically active. I have observed that it is much harder to fixate on alcohol or be depressed when you have just exercised. Being active also means giving back to someone else that is struggling with their own sobriety. When I am helping others I have less time to wallow in my own alcoholic disease "pity party". Helping others gives me perspective on my own alcoholism and healing process. But today I am very sure that being active does not mean I can work anyone else’s program for them. As a sponsor, I can guide but ultimately they must make their own choices about their sobriety. Being active to me also means thanking God for every sober day I have been blessed with and asking for daily guidance so that I may enjoy more sober days in the future. Thanks for letting me share and for being a part of my sobriety today. Blessings!


Member: annie p
Location: South Yorkshire, U.K
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 12:52 PM

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For me "getting active" means NOT sitting at home saying .."Oh! Woe is me!!" BUT it does mean volunteering for washing-up, bringing the milk and making the tea and coffee and clearing away after the meeting. It DOES mean talking to other alkies, going to meetings and sharing because this is what keeps us sober. When I did the washing-up on a regular basis I would find several old-timers in the kitchen clearing away and I would overhear their conversations and occassionally pluck up the courage to ask a question.


Member: Mika Boy
Location: Finland
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 02:15 PM

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...AND NOT GETTING ACTIVE THE WRONG WAY!!! A couple of people give me a hard time. I need to not to hit back. For me, the best excercise in addition to Aa and the chruch is physical excercise.


Member: Bob P.
Location: Wild Trout, WI
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 06:06 PM

Comments

I think for some of us, one of the biggest barriers to sobriety is how "unique" we think we are. A lot of these feelings of uniqueness come from too much time spent alone, either actuall physicall alone or alone in our heads (you can be by yourself with 50 other people in the room). Getting active right away in service work can punch a hole in this shield of alleged "uniqueness" and let us see how much common cause we have with other alcoholics. And this can help keep us sober, IMO..


Member: Bob P.
Location: Wild Trout, WI
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 06:06 PM

Comments

I think for some of us, one of the biggest barriers to sobriety is how "unique" we think we are. A lot of these feelings of uniqueness come from too much time spent alone, either actuall physicall alone or alone in our heads (you can be by yourself with 50 other people in the room). Getting active right away in service work can punch a hole in this shield of alleged "uniqueness" and let us see how much common cause we have with other alcoholics. And this can help keep us sober, IMO..


Member: Marty G.
Location: cowtown
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 07:04 PM

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Bob P. Marty a recovering alcoholic. Bob I needed to hear that for the last two weeks. Thanks


Member: Farris C.
Location: Little Rock, Arkansas
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 11:35 PM

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Hi everyone! Farris here, alcoholic and pill head. You can believe that! This is my day number 56 since my last slip. I have a problem to ask about. There is a twenty-five dollar bottle of Scotch in the rear of my car and I can't bring myself to throw it out. It's been there since Christmas and I've been ignoring it but its getting harder to do. Now I'm afraid to touch it even to pour it out!! Is this something any of you can identify with? Experiences?


Member: Kim V
Location: kvaughn@madison.main.nc.us
Date: February 23, 2003
Time: 11:45 PM

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Kim V here alcoholic. I found that being active is like everything else and requires balance. I am one who is known to take on too much and then gets overwhelmed. I feel my best when stay actively involved in my on line meetings and daily mediations, and take some time for myself in the morning before work. When I find myself struggling over a personal problem I look to help others to get outside myself,and get outside my problems and it works. I do not allow myself to wallow in self pity, however my passion is carrying the message to the alcoholic who still suffers. I try to the best of my ability to work the 12 steps in my life on a daily baisis and some days I do better than other days. The more serene I feel has to do with how closely I am connecting to my higher power at the time and if my higher power has me on a "new learning experience". I feel content and fairly safe in my recovery as long as I stay in the action part of my program, and keep doing the next right thing. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Big Bad Biker Babe
Location: Hellishelping
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 01:43 AM

Comments

Bob p. i think you should go somewhere and stay by yourself for at least 7 days.. by yourself, without anyone else, and stay in your head. Maybe you'll even find out how to get the brown ring off of Marty G's lips and put it back on your ass! Face it Bob, you don't have any answers.. Maybe you should start doin the exact opposite of whatever occurs to your pee brain.. more often.. maybe you'll even find the courage not to get all resentful at someone tellin you a thing or two.. i'de be willing to bet your a pistol in service work.. aren't you bob. Come back and let us know what ya learned,,happy trails now. lol and just a little hate..


Member: Big Bad Biker Babe
Location: Hellishelping
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 01:44 AM

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Bob p. i think you should go somewhere and stay by yourself for at least 7 days.. by yourself, without anyone else, and stay in your head. Maybe you'll even find out how to get the brown ring off of Marty G's lips and put it back on your ass! Face it Bob, you don't have any answers.. Maybe you should start doin the exact opposite of whatever occurs to your pee brain.. more often.. maybe you'll even find the courage not to get all resentful at someone tellin you a thing or two.. i'de be willing to bet your a pistol in service work.. aren't you bob. Come back and let us know what ya learned,,happy trails now. lol and just a little hate..


Member: Rene
Location: So. Cal.
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 01:48 AM

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Farris why don't you have a friend get rid of the scotch for you? When i first got sober I had my mom go threw our house to find if I'd hidden anything I forgot about. She didn't find any but if she did it was good that she would be there to get rid of it. IF it was me that found it I would have asked her to. I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY SOBRIETY but i'll take what help is available to me.


Member: Farris C.
Location: Little Rock, Arkansas
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 03:13 PM

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Farris here, alcoholic and drug addict. Thanks Rene. I know that is what I should do. problem is I can't stop thinking how much I paid for that bottle. Wish it was a bottle of muscatel LOL. Awright! I know what I have to do!


Member: Vicente S. - vicente@acninc.net
Location: Central Mass
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 03:28 PM

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Hi Farris, How much is a relapse worth? More than $25.00? If you have a sponsor have him do it for you. If you don't have a sponsor pray to your HP and get led to one. But in any event it sounds like you need to act fast. I would LOVE to drink a bottle of scotch or anything for that matter, but I've found that the price is too high for me. I'm a drunk in recovery. which means I'm one drink away from a drunk. that's all it takes for me is ONE DRINK cause I love to drink to get drunk. I'm a newcomer and have come to accept that. Let us know how it goes. and remember - it's just for today. Have a great day unless you've made other plans. Namaste, vicente


Member: AZbill
Location: Sierra Vista, Arizona
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 05:07 PM

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HI Bill here. Alcoholic from Arizona. AA is a program of action. We are reminded of it in our Basic Text, the big book. On completion of our Fourth Step all it tells us is that we have made a good beginning. Not an ending. There there is a whole chapter ironically entitled "Into Action". After Step 5 we get an hour break. Not 6 months...One Hour. In nine we get out and set matters straight. In Ten it tells us that we must go further and that means more action.... This is one of the reasons I am a strong advocate of the Basic test before going on to advanced reading in AA. Action for me means getting back into the mainstream of life. Practice these principle in all our affairs. This program works real well in these protected rooms but the real test of it is out there on the street. I am one of those who did not swap a bar stool for a seat in AA. We can isolate in AA just as easy as we can isolate in the bottle. I just love getting out there and mixing with them. :) Bill Email: az-bill@mindspring.com


Member: Anne Marie
Location: Oregon
Date: February 24, 2003
Time: 07:24 PM

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Getting active for me is key. I tried to get AA "through osmosis" as they say, for a few years and -- surprise -- it didn't work. I continued to drink. When I finally got active, I not only started going to meetings but started sharing in them, started to talk to people, and got a sponsor and a home group. Now I'm going through the Big Book with my sponsor and am working the steps. It makes a huge difference in how I view my disease and how I view life. Now I need to focus on service work. Getting directly involved and making a commitment are excellent ways to keep connected, to never forget that I'm an alcoholic. Anyway, action really is essential for quality sobriety. Thanks.


Member: Jan BB
Location: Paris, France
Date: February 25, 2003
Time: 04:13 AM

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I agree with everyone who encourages action, it is the cornerstone of my program as well. When I was a few months sober, and looked around the room's at the people whose sobriety I most wanted to have, I found that service, was what they all had in common. I asked some women what they did, they told me and then I asked if I could join them. Welcome aboard, was the response each timea and off I went to teleservice, planing a women's conference, Intergroup, coffee set-up, clean-up, on and on. Met so many great AA's, one's that were happy, joyous and free, really living life sober and digging it. Hey, sitting in meetings is good and part of it all, but action changes my thinking and my thinker usually needs a tweak and tune, almost on a daily basis. Also when I came into the rooms, I was single and had what seemed like alot of time on my hands, now that I was not drinking and using, getting into action channeled that time and filled me up on the fellowship. The drink always wanted me alone, AA put's me in the center of action. Faith and Hope ((Everyone)), janbbparis@yahoo.com


Member:
Location:
Date: February 25, 2003
Time: 08:08 AM

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BIG BAD BIKER BABE, It's people like you who we feel sorry for. I wouldn't trade my worst day for the hell you must be living in. POOR YOU! Come back and join us when you want to live in peace.


Member: big bad biker babe
Location: hellishelping
Date: February 25, 2003
Time: 09:07 AM

Comments

DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME HONEY! I GOT -PAID AND LAYED YESTERDAY. AND THOSE ARE ALL THE PROMISES I NEED TO STAY SOBER. I GUESS I WAS A BIT STONED LAST NIGHT,, SORRY BOB AND THE OTHER. GUESS I WAS PRETTY BLUNT, MAYBE EVEN RUDE, THAT'S JUST ME I GUESS. Out!


Member: Jason L
Location: PENNSYLVANIA
Date: February 25, 2003
Time: 09:56 AM

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hello,jason l here,addict alcoholic, for me getting active means living the life i have always dreamed of,and that means sober.for years i didnt think that is was possible until i was made to go to drug and alcohol classes.after my 9 weeks were up,i used again,and got caught,and had the option to take an unsucessfull discharge,or start over again.the old me would have just said fuck it,discharge me,but the new me wanted to do it again,even if i didnt have to!!!!wow,i thought what a notion.so now im ding it again with a whole new attitude on life,and this time,i want to be there,for me,as well as everyone around me,so that i can find myself once again!!!!


Member: Christine C
Location: Plymouth England
Date: February 25, 2003
Time: 02:21 PM

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Just found this page' thanks to every one for your shares' just for today I'm sober and free' Jason stick with it' keep going' you've nothing to loose if you go for itand life when you succeed'stay safe my friend a day at a time staying sober a day at a time Christine.


Member: Jason L
Location: PENNSYLVANIA
Date: February 25, 2003
Time: 04:51 PM

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thank you very much for your support christine!it was well needed!


Member: Farris
Location: Little Rock, Arkansas
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 12:06 AM

Comments

Big Bad Biker Babe, you can get paid and layed AND not be an asshole to people. I do it all the time.


Member: Donald G.
Location: Houston, TX
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 12:15 AM

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Hi Don G., alcoholic and addict, 2/4/03. Being active for me is working with other alcohlics and addicts. As far as other things, I'm not sure. I'm feelnig pretty unsure of my life at this time but I'm sober and clean today and that's a good thing. Everybody in the house is a great support in working my program. So, take care everybody and keep coming back. Donald G.


Member: Gerry C.
Location:
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 02:02 PM

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Hi, I am Gerry C., I am an alcoholic, and action for me is reading the big book and going to meetings. I am also praying again but for different reasons. I slipped less than a month ago after 6 months of sobriety; it is a lot easier than I thought. So this time I am keeping it simple and one day at a time. Gerry C.


Member: Gage
Location: La
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 07:29 PM

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I'm Gageg, an alcoholic. Anyone reading who is struggling or afraid, do you know how to swim? Remember the first thing you learned about swimming? I do. My brother taught me. He held me across his arms in the water. I was on my back. He told me to relax and just float, and then gradually, he moved his arms out from under me. I floated for a second or two until I realized that he had removed his arms from under me. That's when I panicked and started to thrash about in the water. He put his arms back and told me to relax again. And we continued this until I started to believe that I really would float. But even though I had begun to believe it, I still had trouble not panicking. Eventually, I was able to force myself to be still. I floated. The more I floated, the less I had to force myself. It took most of the morning, but before that day was over, I had gained confidence that if I would be still and not panic, I wouldn't sink and drown. So, don't struggle, and don't panic. (And somebody please remind me of this this the next time I'm about to panic.)


Member: lars
Location: DAKOTAS
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 09:01 PM

Comments

im sitting here drinking beer and reading these posts. i was sober for three months 2 yrs ago and want to get sober again. am i the only one drinking and reading these and wanting to get sober again?


Member: Dona G.
Location: Houston
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 09:51 PM

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I'm Don, alcoholic and addict, Can say that you are the only one drinking and wanting to get sober, lars. I know that I don't want ot use or drink today. That my life is unmanageable and I'm powerless over my addictions. When I find myself struggling with my addiction I go to a meeting.


Member: Annie K
Location: Blue Ridge Mountains
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 10:14 PM

Comments

I was really lucky to come into AA in a group full of service junkies. Was told that if I wanted to live sober the same way I did drunk, always on the outside looking in, never feeling a part of, terminally unique...I could. Thankfully it didn't appeal to me! I got active in AA from the jump, and stayed that way. Suiting up and showing up is the beginning. Giving back is the next step. I love my sober family, no matter what state I'm in...virtual or real. If you want to live a happy sober life, I believe it's imperative to become woven into the fabric of Alcoholics Anonymous. If I didn't want to live a happy life, I might as well stay drunk til I die. I've done everything from washing coffee cups, to GSR, to cleaning up after pukers in the bathroom. And every bit of it has made me grateful for the life I have today. Thanks for sharing, everyone.


Member: Mike W
Location: Hillsdale, Mi. USA
Date: February 26, 2003
Time: 11:05 PM

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I'm a common everyday alcoholic with infinite potential,if I don't drink, my name is Mike W. Thank you so much all of you ,, But especially ((( Gage from L.A. ) I really appreciated that anallogy.. I forgot that whole deal.. I've got A Big Brother in my Higher Power ready to hold me up until I can gain some confidence and realize that I can do this thing that is facing life on lifes terms and not panicing to the ends of insanity or death. But anyway, I'm Evading the real deal, Cause down deap inside ,I'm scared, and lonely and I've walked out on the only bit of integrity that I've ever known. Cause after 3 years of seing the promises of this program come true. I made the wrong choice and drank and things just haven't been the same since and I want so much to just let go of that DAMN BOTTLE and sweat it out.. feeling uncomforatable or whatever it takes to break free of the bondage that controlls my life.. Please pray for me and maybee write me on my E- mail.. I want to get sober again!! Thanks for listening.. Mike W. plumbfitter@yahoo.com


Member: Kelly M
Location: NH
Date: February 27, 2003
Time: 12:04 AM

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Hey Mike, Sorry to hear about your slip. I hope you make it back soon. You have not lost your integrity by picking back up, no one can take those 3 years from you. It just feels that way now but after your first meeting back it will be ancient history. I went to 3 meetings today and then out for coffee and felt AA'd out when I got home. I'm glad I checked in here because it made me appreciate being sober. All the 6 people I went out for coffee with had relapsed in the last year. They are all back and happy to be sober. We just had a lot of laughs and a great time together. All we have is today and I had a good day. A good day for me is a day I don't drink, anything above that is a bonus! My life is not perfect by a long shot and I have fears, doubts and insecurities but booze will not take them away. I have to "deal" as hard as that is by giving it to God and letting him help me to help myself. The only way I knew how to deal was to drink and I'm finding a better way cause my way sure didn't work! Good Luck Mike and Godspeed. (((Gage))) Great analogy. Came to believe I could overcome my fear by relaxing and gaining confidence over it. "There is nothing to fear but fear itself". Forgot who said that? I love the way you write Gage! Nite All and Godbless. Kelly


Member: Jolee
Location: canada
Date: February 27, 2003
Time: 12:35 AM

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I am trying to live one day at a time in early sobriety. I love the life I have so freely been given as a RESULT of following the program of recovery.. I love the stength and reliance on my Higher Power I have developed as a result of making a beginning on the 12 steps to recovery.I am taken aback when I read some of the comments posted here. I feel that some postings simply do not 'carry the message'. If I wanted a soap opera or 'dramatics' I'd watch Jerry Springer. Thank you for those of whom helped carry the message and likewise carry me through early sobriety. I need good folk like you to stay sober. Thank you!!


Member: Smokie
Location: East Anglia UK
Date: February 27, 2003
Time: 04:28 AM

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I think everyone who is working on getting sober/staying sober carries a message. It might not always be be a message for me or it may be a message that I am not ready to hear - but it is a message. Love and fellowship Smokie


Member: Roxanne F.
Location: rfuller2@stny.rr.com
Date: February 27, 2003
Time: 10:20 AM

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Hi, My name is Roxanne and I am an alcoholic. I have to agree with azbill! For me on this journey, I have found no greater freedom than working the twelve steps as suggested. I have always wanted to do things my way and found that, Well here i am. So we all know where that got me! Being involved in the fellowship is 12 step work-working with others- no matter how you do it. I have found through experience that I do this in all aspects of my life and promises come true for me! I had to take on a whole new set of concepts, ideas, and definately and attitude if I want what Bill H. so freely gave to us. I guess I just wanted to let the newcomer know that no matter how you feel (because thats what got us here), that if we put into action a few simple principles life gets better eventually and the obsession, once recognized, is lifted. Being free of that mental insanity, and chaos is the best gift I could have ever received. Being involved is a very important part of my sobriety today, but workin the twelve steps is what keeps me sober. God bless. Roxanne


Member: Bob P.
Location: wild trout, WI
Date: February 27, 2003
Time: 06:57 PM

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>>I GUESS I WAS A BIT STONED LAST NIGHT,, SORRY BOB AND THE OTHER. GUESS I WAS PRETTY BLUNT, MAYBE EVEN RUDE, THAT'S JUST ME I GUESS>> No skin off me, bro. Keep coming back..


Member: Jackie
Location: England
Date: February 28, 2003
Time: 05:54 AM

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Gage, thats a great help. I was 4 months sober yesterday and I love it but I do feel panic setting in sometimes. It's hard sorting out the mess I created when drinking, like living with huge debts. I know that this too shall pass. I've been back at work for two weeks and I'm overwhelmed by the caring and support I've had, sometimes I feel like screaming "Just treat me normally" then I think when I was always off sick or too hungover to do the job properly I wasn't thinking of any of them having to cover for me and if they can show me so much forgiveness and love I need to stop beating myself up and appreciate it. I love my new life, someone asked me the other day if I miss drinking and if my weekends are dull and lonely now, I answered " I haven't lost anything but I've gained so much. I love weekend meetings then sitting in Coffee Shops with my AA friends and I love knowing what I did, weekends were never fun, I always lost them in Blackout!" I was 37 last week but I feel like my life is just beginning, thanks to meetings and people like you all, thanks for being there for me.


Member: Jackie
Location: England
Date: February 28, 2003
Time: 09:56 AM

Comments

Sorry I'm rambling a lot today but I've just had another development. Since becoming sober I've tried to stay in my relationship with an alcoholic in denial. I've just found the strength to end it! I feel relieved as I've been finding it difficult as he always puts me down and is resistant to me changing, but I also feel scared and sad as I really loved him. Please mention me in your prayers as I need to stay strong and not end up going back to him, he's the biggest obstacle to my sobriety.


Member: Josie B
Location: Rochester
Date: February 28, 2003
Time: 10:58 AM

Comments

I having a problem with tryiny my will over to my higher power can someone please give me some feedback


Member: Stuart M
Location: England
Date: February 28, 2003
Time: 07:00 PM

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I was told thet my will is the way I think and my life is the way I act. Josie the action for me is to hit meetings and keep in regular contact with my sponsor Even though I can take my will back any time I like (Its mine) I feel in better shape when I am doing the right things like I said meetings,sponsor,calling a newcomer,reading the big book and trying to practice the principles I have learned God Bless (oh yeah I pray regularly too Thy will not mine be done)


Member: Helena M
Location: Australia
Date: February 28, 2003
Time: 08:33 PM

Comments

Hi Helena here, Alcoholic. I had to smile when I saw the topic was getting active as I have struggled with finding a balance in my recovery and in my life for a while now - being an alcoholic I have that all or nothing mentality that so many of us have and for the first few months of recovery I got active to the point where I felt like a wrung out wet rag and had nothing to give to AA, Myself, Work, Friends and Family - nowadays I strive for balance in all things and i fight that perfectionist tendency in myself - I always used to compartmentalise my life and find that if one area was going great the rest were not so hot....so in the earliest days of my recovery everything else suffered - now i find that i can give a little to each area of my life because my recovery is part of a greater whole - that is my life. I also found that i wasn't doing service work for the right reasons - if I was just doing it to be seen to be doing it it wasn't benefitting anyone, myself included. Same went for meetings. I realised the day i was sitting in a meeting feeling resentful of the time i was giving to that meeting when i had neglected normal everyday stuff that i needed to do to keep living, that i needed to take a look at my attitude and my reasons for being there. My sponsor said to me once, you do the meetings that you need to do - but i had a problem working out what was enough, and who decided what was enough- it was a real revelation to me when she pointed out that I was the person who had to decide what was enough - i kept waiting for some sort of external evaluation that i was doing enough, and surprise, surprise, it never came. After doing Steps 2 & 3 i now know it is between me and my HP - and that has freed me to trust myself to make the decisons i need to make to keep my recovery and my life on track. The other thing I have found is that getting active can encompass many things other than the traditional concept of service work. For instance, I have a group of AA friends who come over for dinner once a week and we have a great time together - eating, talking, laughing and just enjoying being together - doesn't sound like service work does it ? However, Fellowship is one of the fundamental parts of this program and that is what we are doing every Sunday night in my lounge room - creating and maintaining fellowship. I love this program and the people in it and hopefully I will get to do more once I have been around a little longer - a lot of service wwork is only open to those who have been sober for 12 months or more in this country and I used to resent that but now I am grateful that I have been given this time to incorporate my recovery into the new life I am building. Thanks for listening, I hope I made sense.


Member: Melanie
Location: Akron, Ohio, USA
Date: March 01, 2003
Time: 01:23 AM

Comments

Hi Friends, I'm Melanie, an alcoholic. HELENA, thank you for your post. My life has been unbalanced for years (always!) I haven't been as active in my local AA as I used to and I was feeling guilty. Now, I know I was worried about what others might be thinking having not seen me lately. I know that I can re-evaluate my life without letting that bother me since I read your post. I can strive for the balance that I've never had. Getting active in early sobriety is VERY important to me. There is no such thing as overly active in the beginning. Eventually balance will be possible if we invest the time needed to get well before trying to tackle every other aspect of our lives. JOSIE, I use the Serenity prayer. I decide what I CAN do TODAY and do it and trust that God will take care of what I CAN'T do. Worry and trying to impose your will on others will only waste good energy. Use that energy for positive change in yourself and God WILL take care of the rest of the world. Thank you for being here.


Member: Smokie
Location: East Anglia UK
Date: March 01, 2003
Time: 01:59 AM

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JOSIE This thing about turning over life and will is something I found hard to understand and even harder to practise. If I feel uncomfortable about something I'm doing or planning to do there is a good chance that it is my conscience telling me that I am acting on self will. What I need to do is to share about this with my sponsor and other friends whose opinions I trust in the fellowship - if you like, I expose my will to the influence of others who are more experienced in the programme of recovery and let my higher power work through other people. There have been occasions when I have known that I did not wish to share about a particular plan or course of action because I didn't want to be "talked out of" doing what I WANTED TO DO ! Once I can recognise this in me I see that I am intending to act on self will run riot. So I suppose for me it has been a matter of developing my conscience, listening to it and when neccessary being guided by the conscience of others more experienced in our programme. Love and fellowship Smokie PS I am not "a saint" - the above is what I try to practise - progress not perfection!


Member: Dennis K
Location: PA
Date: March 01, 2003
Time: 02:58 PM

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Dennis K, here, alcoholic. Josie, I struggled with turning my will and life over to a Higher Power, too. I said the words in prayer for several weeks, but didn't FEEL anything. Then 8 days ago I had a slip. I was miserable and felt like the worst kind of failure the next day. The following morning, I told myself I've got to do something about this. I prayed in the morning, and throughout the day. Still didn't FEEL anything. Then that night when I went to bed, I got down on my knees, prayed again for God to take over my life and my will and take away my difficulties so I could do His will. I felt a whiteness and calm come over me, and finally FELT something. This has been a wonderful week. I've started each day thanking God for this wonderful, sober day (even if its gray and cloudy like today)and all the blessings in my life, and I've felt terrific every day. I think I've finally turned my life over to a Higher Power, and it feels great. So, my advice, just keep trying and it will happen for you. It might not be easy and take several trys, but when it happens it wil be worth the hard work and the wait. Hope this helps. Keep us posted on your progress. God Bless everyone. Here's to another sober 24 hours!


Member: Mike H
Location: Houston, TX
Date: March 01, 2003
Time: 03:48 PM

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Hi guys, I'm Mike and I'm an alcoholic/addict. I'm only a month into the program, and I want to start by thanking everyone of you for caring and sharing. I think I have step 2 down because I know my Higher Power, which I choose to call God, is my only saving grace. My problem comes in on step 3. I can't seem to just "Let Go and Let God." I have it in my head and in my prayers to put things in God's hands but I still seem to run on this self-will which obviously gets me nowhere. Anyways, I'm not going to ramble on, just wanted to let y'all know where I'm at and I'm open for suggestions, thanks.


Member: Ed Z.
Location: Ohio
Date: March 01, 2003
Time: 08:51 PM

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Hello,Ed Z. alcoholic, I turn my will and my life over to the care of a HP in regards to alcoholism and the rest of my life when possible. Explaining my higher power, imagine a car run on a remote control steering and acceleration. I place the keys out of the ignition and into the perfectly controlled remote ignition. This remote ignition I choose to call HP or God. Not the identical God I learned in an organized religion I grew up with. One who I can understand only when I am not perfect, most to all of the time. HP you handle it, there goes remote control driving. A test where a perfect score is reached my HP. The way I see the HP is with my drinking first and foremost. Afterwards and on some other behavior I need to allow my HP to handle everything I take his or her driving ability back and say I can handle it. Usually I doubt my abilities and screw up or don't feel so good. My grammar,spelling ,feelings and my relations with alcoholics and humanity are always flawed but with HP I don't drink and humbly ask God or HP to get better. Most of the time sooner or later I do.


Member: Farris C.
Location: Little Rock, Arkansas
Date: March 02, 2003
Time: 02:29 AM

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Good morning people. Thank you for the good stuff here. A friend in the program came over yesterday and I told him about the bottle rolling round in my trunk and he offered to get rid of it so I said yes. I almost cried watching him pour it out on my lawn. Its good not to have it tempting me anymore. I know it was foolish to hold on to it for so long and I'm glad its gone. Bless you all, Farris


Member: mo
Location: uk
Date: March 02, 2003
Time: 03:55 AM

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Hi Lars I am in the same mess as you,i am hung over after last nights drinking and i want so much to get sober. I have been in and out of AA since 1996 and still hav'nt got it right,i hav'nt been to a meeting in months and quickly fell into my old habits since i stopped going,my problem is i wake up every morning feeling s**t and promising "never again" , i tell my wife i'm going to AA , i throw any drink left down the sink but by lunch time i feel a bit better and by teatime i'm out buying more drink and telling my self i don't really have a problem. I know getting back to AA is my only answer but i have ,like a block in my head that helps me make excuses not to go,anyway ,no point in saying anymore it's up to me to make the decision,at the minute i am hungover and at the pouring it down the sink stage and promising to go to a meeting again!!!see what happens


Member: T-Bone
Location: S. Fla
Date: March 02, 2003
Time: 06:07 AM

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Thomas (T-bone) here, greatful by the grace of God to be sober and clean this day. Farris, I was reading your posts and thought, what a great way to eliminate some of the junk that can accumulate in a drunks life. Put em in the trunk, let them stay there out of sight until I can get someone (sponsor) or (Higher Power) to remove them and flush em. Some things are harder to let go of than others, but through the grace of God and the program it happens and you feel free. The greatest freedom I have felt in my 9 months of sobriety has been my freedom of fear. Nothing incapacitated me more than the fear of being exposed as the liar, cheat, thief and immoral charactor I had become, but, I was a great actor and had most people fooled. But, the relief from those fears after working the steps was the most liberating thing of all. So if you can't lick them right away. "Lock em in your trunk until you can throw them away". Thanks T


Member: Dennis K
Location: PA
Date: March 02, 2003
Time: 08:18 AM

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Dennis K here, alcholic. Hey Mo, have you really tried hard to give your will and your life over to a Higher Power? I had tried for months, and had a slip 9 days ago. 2 days after that I prayed really hard for God to take over my will and my life, and asked Him to take away my difficulties so I could do His will. It finally "clicked" and worked for me. I was even able to go to a Pub with my wife and friends last night and didn't take a drink. Had a good time, too! And I feel great today! I really think I have a Higher Power co-pilot now. Try it, it might work for you. Like I said, it took a few tries, but finally worked. Good luck to you. When you're done pouring the stuff out, get down on your knees and ask for help from your HP.