Member: crazed
Location:
Date: 10/22/00
Time: 9:19:27 PM

Comments

empty bottle collection!!!!!!!!!

crazed


Member: mw
Location:
Date: 10/22/00
Time: 9:42:52 PM

Comments

the weekend is over...............what a bummer i dread going back to work tommorow.

how 'bout you?


Member: Joseph E.
Location:
Date: 10/22/00
Time: 9:52:08 PM

Comments

Hi.Try gratitude---it works


Member: Lee P.
Location: Texas
Date: 10/22/00
Time: 10:33:24 PM

Comments

There were many times that I wasn't even able to go to work on Monday!Some of my weekends weren't over until Tue. or Wed.I am very grateful to be able to go to work on Mondays and not have the shakes and to know that I don't have to panic and fear the worst if the boss calls me to his office for something.Thank you,God!!


Member: wick b
Location:
Date: 10/22/00
Time: 11:39:47 PM

Comments

i hate mondays also, but thanks to aa i have a good job today. especially considering 5 years i was unemployable. this i can be grateful for.

aloha


Member: David
Location: kc mo
Date: 10/22/00
Time: 11:48:52 PM

Comments

I am an Alcoholic my name is David My Job before i got sober was working as a electricians helper. Made 25o dol a week payed on fri and for about 2or 3 months i worked there i was broke on saturday Had to pan handle bus money for work had no lunch money after work would pan handle more for another drink fri get payed sat or sun broke again My last fri i went in at noon and told the boss i am quiting he said i am not firing you i said no i am here to pick up my check he gave it to me but went with me becaus i owed him 20 dol that was about 2 months before my last drunk in 1994 so if your like me then you have to be grateful to be able to work. I am ecspecially grateful to be sober


Member: KM
Location: A>Z>
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 12:17:22 AM

Comments

hey I just got fired from a job after 21 years of staying sober this is the first time in my life Ive ever been fired not even when I was drinking! I know this happened for a reason God dosnt make mistakes he must have something better in mind for me he has not let me down yet thanks for letting me share.


Member: Janelle Y.
Location: Jersey
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 1:25:31 AM

Comments

Hi. I don't especially like my job or Mondays but I'm glad to have somewhere to go. It gives me a sense of purpose. Which I think is important for the human spirit. I just ask God at bedtime every night to give me the patience and tolerance to be good to all my co-workers and do a good job. It helps. Although life still happens and sometimes it doesn't work out just right, I feel better after talking with my higher power. Thanks for listening!


Member: IAN M
Location: UK
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 6:48:16 AM

Comments

Hi my name is ian and i am an alcholic,anybody out there know the number for drinkline or anything similar in the u.k. I can't always make it to meetings owing to my job,having someone to call would be good when i feel like taking a drink


Member: Charlie Darling
Location: Key West Fl
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 7:39:07 AM

Comments

Hi Family Charlie Darling a very grateful recovering alcholic, Yes going to work without the shakes and smelling of the booze coming through the pores, I don't miss that at all. it is good to feel that way, as I know I have people at work who are like I used to be, and I can only show them by examble that there is a better way of life, and you don't have to have the shakes, and can do a job without being scared of making mistakes or worse. I Love to feel the day arrive and be sober and to be able to handel things as they come up, and not be afraid I would screw up. Today I am grateful to work to the best of my ability and to relize I have done well, and not be afraid of screw ups, as I know now that my mistakes can be corrected that is why there are erasers on the end of our pencils to erase the mistakes and correct them and to feel good about yourself. Love you all thank you for letting me share. kwduke@keysdigital.com


Member: tony g
Location: ma
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 8:51:36 AM

Comments

long ago i used to go out drinking on thursday nights(payday)it was the in thing.of course you drank on friday and sat. nights (sometimes days) because it was the weekend.then i heard that wednesday was the night to go out,because it wasn't so much "the amiture" crowd.as time went on i added sunday to my list because of football.this gave me mondays and tuesdays off(from drinking).that soon changed,because tough guys drank on those nights too.so in 20 plus years time i drank everynight of the week.i was one soul sick guy.i always maintained work,only because i needed money to drink.lots of stuff passed me by...at the falling off point i coudn't do it anymore,i started getting arrested and relationships ended,i was really going down fast......enter,AA,...work the steps,i can very gratefully say i havn't had a drink(not even a sip) in 2 years 8 months,the promises and miricles happen in my life over and over.sober is the way to go...today i'm the foreman on my job and i see guy's struggle with booze...but for the grace of God there go i....i'm tony an alcoholic


Member: Bert.K.
Location: Victoria   Australia
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 9:07:28 AM

Comments

Hi Bert.K.Alkie from australia, Put the booze down in 1981 in 1983 had an accident,and after a operation could not work again,although I keep trying to work it is only for a short time and break down again,only last week I had another go and after 5 and 1/2 hours had to go home in a lot of pain. So yes I would love to be able to go to work on Monday's or any day for that mater,however I am and always will be eterally grateful that I dont drink because that would treble my problems I love being Sober and life and I can function as long as I take it easy on my self and today I have that choice through A.A. and for that I thank you. God bless you all Bert.K.


Member: Mike c
Location: Louisiana
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 9:57:00 AM

Comments

I need help!


Member: richard m
Location: sarasota, fla
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 9:59:01 AM

Comments

empty bottle collections? myname is richard , i am an alcoholic. today my empty bottles....are only soda bottles and milk bottles and juice bottles..sber 5413 days tday ..still unemployable an on total disability .......however satying sober has helped me cope with life on lifes terms! one day at a time.and it isn't how manydays i have ...however may all the days i have left be sober one s.alcohol free !may god bless and love you all !


Member: Tom A. 7/25/60
Location: Carlisle, AR
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 10:14:59 AM

Comments

Good Morning to all who read and share on Staying Cyber's Discussion Meeting. My name is Tom A., a grateful sober alcoholic today by the grace of a wonderful Higher Power and this fellowship we call A.A.

Thank you MW for the topic! How well I remember the feeling of dreading to go to work, not only on Mondays, but everyday. Being a daily drinker made it that way. But through the tools of the wonderful program I've learned how to deal with those dreaded days, by living just one-day-at-time. The Twenty-Four Hour Day book helped me a lot during my first year in A.A. and even today I revisit it from time to time. I can honestly say that today I only have good days, some are just better than others because any day this alky stays away from the first drink is a good day. I love all of you very much and thanks for letting me share.

Enjoy your Sobriety Today!

God Bless - Tom A. ate@gte.net


Member: LU-LU
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 11:04:15 AM

Comments

lu-lu- alcoholic, whats the topic? work? whatever... , i'm not real excited about mine. but i "suit up,n' show up anyway" something i noticed recently,if i get up at 7 a.m. and get MY SLOTH RIDDEN A*S to work early , i can make alot more $, whats that got to do with sobriety? well b'fore i got sober i usually went to bed just b'fore 7 a.m. and COME TO THINK OF IT,i did'nt really work much at ,all..thanks to a.a. the STEPS & TRADITIONS,SPONSORSHIP,AND OF COURSE MY HIGHER POWER, A WHOLE LOT OF (FACE TO FACE) MEETINGS, SERVICE WORK, DOLLARS IN THE BASKET,LOTS OF LAUGHS, LOTS OF TEARS, I'M GROW-ING UP, BECOMING ACCOUNTABLE, MY ACTIONS ACTUALLY MATCH MY INTENTIONS THESE DAYS,(Newcomer: this means saying i'll do something and then really follow through and actually DO JUST THAT..with no excuses for not doing it,) AND THATS THANKS TO A.A. AND LEARNING TO SHOW UP , THEY TAUGHT ME THAT BY GIVING ME COMMITMENTS, COOKIE-GIRL COFFEE,LITERATURE, CHIP-GIRL, SECRETARY,CAN'T DO SECRETARY ANY MORE ,I GET OFF TOO MUCH RUNNING THE SHOW, SO I DO THINGS THAT ARE MORE ANONYMOUS NOW.." SMALL HEAD SMALL TARGET.".. THATS WHAT ONE OF MY A.A. HEROES SAYS, TOOK 'BOUT 5 YEARS BUT FINALLY I GET IT..."SMALL HEAD SMALL TARGET"... GROWING UP IN PUBLIC AT TIMES CAN BE QUITE HUMILIATING BUT THE CHANGES ARE SO WORTH THE EXPERIENCE. LOVE A.A.LOVE MY LIFE LL-LU


Member: Dr.D
Location: NH
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 11:37:54 AM

Comments

I feel for you KM in AZ. A week ago today I was told by my boss that if I show up to work again drunk I'm gone. I've been employed here for 19 years. The owner of the company, my boss's dad, sat me down and talked with me. He had me talk to a business associate of his, who also happened to be his brother's sponsor in AA. He was a great guy. I'm grateful to have a job right now and to have people who are positive and helpful. Hang in there.


Member: Bob S.
Location: Salt Lake City, UT
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 12:37:44 PM

Comments

Hi all, I'm Bob and I'm an alcoholic. Good topic. I drank away a very good job of 18+ years. Now in a new career for 15 and going strong. I have, what I would call normal 'I don't want to go to work' feelings sometimes on Monday's. Most of the people I work with also have them from time to time.

I have great gratitude for the great new career and job I have, by the grace of God and this fellowship. I'm learning to relate some of these impulsive feelings of dread I have sometimes, to more normal life and human feelings. Giving God credit daily, sometimes several times daily, helps keep me in a more reasonable place to deal with them. I'd rather have a little "normal dread" than a hangover any day. I've found that "no matter what, just don't drink" works very well. I can think and feel a lot of things that bother me, but they are only temporary...maybe little tests to see if I'm really serious about my sobriety. So far, so good. Thanks for letting me share. Love to all, Bob


Member: lost
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 1:40:08 PM

Comments

im unemployed,its depressing too.i have no car.

life?


Member: AZbill
Location: Sierra Vista, AZ
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 1:53:48 PM

Comments

Monday, Monday

When I was drinking, it mattered not what day it was. It mattered not what holiday it was. It mattered not whose birthday it was. I drank on a daily basis. I didn't work.. I drank. I didn't send greeting cards..I drank. I didn't celebrate holidays...I drank.

When my old boss heard I had sobered up He sent for me to return to work. I was grateful. Just after my first AA birthday I entered college. I graduated at age 55 and went into the field of my major in 1985. I am a little behind in life at this point. :). But I was armed with the priciples of Alcoholics Anonymous.

I quit a hospital in Colorado on principle and with a hand shake and an apology from the Chief of Radiology for not being able to provide me with a better working environment. I quit a hospital in Maryland on principle with an apology from that Chief of Radiology for not doing what they said they would do. I was also relieved of having to pay back the head hunter's fee for quitting before my contract expired. I got fired from the third hospital in Maryland. And a cancer research facility in West Virginia ran out of money and I had to leave. I finally got the best job of my life just 12 miles from my starting point. LMAO.

The point I am trying to make here is that if I am not happy with what I am doing then I change what I am doing. If I am not happy in my sobriety then chances are I will drink again. I have ceased fighting everything and everyone.

I also learned in AA that I should say what I can do. What I can't do. And what I won't do. Then do it or don't do it as it applies. I was never one minute late nor did I miss a day at work until I developed cancer on 25 May 1994.

Now God kept me well for all that time. But the principles I learned in AA caused me to set my alarm, drive to work. Be where I am supposed to be when I am supposed to be there. Good things will happen if you do the right things.

Love in service and the fellowship

Bill az-bill@primenet.com


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 2:10:26 PM

Comments

Hello, I'm John and I've been sober since 7/20/99. In the last year I have went through a bankruptcy, a layoff and a repoed truck, but I didn't take a drink and things worked out, everyday is not gonna be all rosy but don't take that first drink and it will be a good day.


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 2:28:52 PM

Comments

Hi agian, I built a new discussion board today, please stop by and say hello. http://pub30.ezboard.com/fjohndsaaboardfrm1


Member: CHERYL D.
Location: MS.
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 2:36:21 PM

Comments

I AM UNEMPLOYED AND FIND IT EASY TO ASK,...WHY// I HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF CONTANTLY THT GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME THAT HE WILL REVEAL IN HIS TIMEFRAME,NOT MINE. I TRY TO KEEP BUSY BUT IT'S SO HARD TO WAIT.MEANWHILE, I MUST KEEP THE FAITH


Member: Katie A.
Location: Atlanta, Ga
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 3:35:09 PM

Comments

I have to face a crowd of people tonight for my job and I'm dreading it. Thanks to AA and God, I have an interesting job, but it sometime requires me to have more constant contact with people than I like. I sometimes hate going out of my house. I could easily be a real hermit if I had enough money to live on without working. I've been sober over 5 years, but this desire to isolate myself and pull back from the world still comes out pretty strong some days.Also, I am overwhelmed a little bit with multiple responsibilities - full time job, raising a child alone, trying to stuff too many tasks into a day, not enough meetings. Still, everything is better. You couldn't believe what my life was like six years ago. Drinking, addiction nearly killed me. It's good to be alive, even on days like this.


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 4:02:56 PM

Comments

I don't know why my link is not working, anyone interested in my discussion board e-mail me, good luck tonight Katie A. jdismukes@excite.com


Member: Amie S
Location: Arkansas
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 4:38:22 PM

Comments

Mondays used to be alright i was sober a very grateful to be alive and sober. today i have one day sober went on one month drunk,after having 13 1/2 monthes of soberiety.


Member: Humbler than U
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 5:18:13 PM

Comments

Lu-Lu Lu-Lu Lu-Lu Lu-Lu Lu-Lu Lu-Lu ...LOSER


Member: Russ W.
Location: tampa fl.
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 5:32:18 PM

Comments

who says we have to like any day,person or situation.after 12 yrs.of sobriety i still recall being told to stop my whineing in my first year.i have a 4 foot baby bottle given to me as a reminder that today no matter what day it is im here to get out of myself and into others. my life depends on it.


Member: LU-LU
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 5:33:10 PM

Comments

lu-lu- alcoholic, whats the topic? work? whatever... , i'm not real excited about mine. but i "suit up,n' show up anyway" something i noticed recently,if i get up at 7 a.m. and get MY SLOTH RIDDEN A*S to work early , i can make alot more $, whats that got to do with sobriety? well b'fore i got sober i usually went to bed just b'fore 7 a.m. and COME TO THINK OF IT,i did'nt really work much at ,all..thanks to a.a. the STEPS & TRADITIONS,SPONSORSHIP,AND OF COURSE MY HIGHER POWER, A WHOLE LOT OF (FACE TO FACE) MEETINGS, SERVICE WORK, DOLLARS IN THE BASKET,LOTS OF LAUGHS, LOTS OF TEARS, I'M GROW-ING UP, BECOMING ACCOUNTABLE, MY ACTIONS ACTUALLY MATCH MY INTENTIONS THESE DAYS,(Newcomer: this means saying i'll do something and then really follow through and actually DO JUST THAT..with no excuses for not doing it,) AND THATS THANKS TO A.A. AND LEARNING TO SHOW UP , THEY TAUGHT ME THAT BY GIVING ME COMMITMENTS, COOKIE-GIRL COFFEE,LITERATURE, CHIP-GIRL, SECRETARY,CAN'T DO SECRETARY ANY MORE ,I GET OFF TOO MUCH RUNNING THE SHOW, SO I DO THINGS THAT ARE MORE ANONYMOUS NOW.." SMALL HEAD SMALL TARGET.".. THATS WHAT ONE OF MY A.A. HEROES SAYS, TOOK 'BOUT 5 YEARS BUT FINALLY I GET IT..."SMALL HEAD SMALL TARGET"... GROWING UP IN PUBLIC AT TIMES CAN BE QUITE HUMILIATING BUT THE CHANGES ARE SO WORTH THE EXPERIENCE. LOVE A.A.LOVE MY LIFE LL-LU


Member: JL
Location: The Beach, California
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 5:50:42 PM

Comments

I was thinking just that today at my morning meeting. Just how grateful I am to wake up sober. It used to be the week would be half over before I would sober up from the weekend that began on Thursday or Wednesday. Basically life was one endless succession of drinking and hangovers. Often times Monday morning would roll around and I would hear the alarm and say Oh no, not again. How did I do that again? I might have passed out for a few hours, and tossed and turned the rest of the night. I would force myself out of bed and make it into the kitchen, and force down a glass of water. Of course that would come right back up. Shaking uncontrollably, I would stand in the shower with the dry heaves. Happy Monday. Actually it did not matter what day it was, but it seemed to always catch up with me on Monday me after boozing all day and night Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Thinking back on it I am amazed I kept my job. I began to miss days of work, sometimes I would just leave in the middle of the day and disappear for a few hours.

I have been sober now for 175 days. So Much has changed. I got my ass to an AA meeting just less than a year ago, got some time and then couldn't hang on. I wanted it so bad that I did everything that was suggested. Simple but not easy. Now I love my job, I have greater responsibility, greater pay and have been asked to do some really challenging assignments. I am not afraid to go to work. I ask for more. No one asks me if I was out in the sun. The drinkers tan is gone. Monday morning I can wake up thrilled to be alive, I have more to look forward to than my next drink, I don't hurry home to the vodka. I feel so lucky not to be chained to the bottle, I am very grateful for the rooms of AA and the fellowship I have found. I do not know what is in store for me, but sober one day at a time is all I need to focus on and it will be fine.


Member: LU-LU
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 6:04:17 PM

Comments

hey "HUMBLER THAN YOU" DO YOU EVEN KNOW THE MEANING OF THE WORD?? F*CK OFF,if you have a problem with me, how bout you write about it , pray for me and call your sponsor... if you even have one! ,I was probably here when you got here, and i'll be here when you're gone... KEEP COMING BACK...i'll pray for you... (to get every thing you deserve!) LU-LU


Member: luckey
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 7:33:23 PM

Comments

lulu, easy does it girl,dont get your panties in a bind now because of some fool!!!

luckey


Member: Charlie Darling
Location: Key West
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 7:52:02 PM

Comments

Lu Lu, just let go and let god handel this as you are a better person for just praYING FOR HIM, AND i GUESS HE NEEDS PRAYING. jUST REMEMBER HE IS ONLY HURTING HIMSELF FOR ACTING THIS WAY. wE lOVE YOU AND LET GO.


Member: Doug K
Location: West Mi in the peak of color
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 9:41:30 PM

Comments

Hi everyone, my name is Doug and I'm an alcoholic. Although I fail now and then, I try real hard to stay out of the negative...anything. I try real hard to keep an attitude of gratitude in me at all times ( my failures at this are usually just momentary). I am truly grateful to my hp for my sobriety today, and the miracle that is. Mondays are good days, as are all others. I woke up this morning sober and breathing, god has chosen me to have a small part of this day...no one has ever lived this day before... problems, challenges, failures, fun,etc all the experiences in life are to some extent going to occur in my life today. Monday, Tuesday, any of them, they are good days and I'm grateful that through my hp and this alcoholics anonymous program, I can experience the serenity that comes at once when taking an eleventh step. Thanks


Member: artie
Location:
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 10:11:03 PM

Comments

well then,this topic is going great so now we can be grateful for tuesday,set the alarm,wake up,go to work,and do it all over again.wait a minute.......does anyone ever feel like a robot, and weve all been programed????is it just me? im grateful....but sometimes i wish god would have gave me a few more brains,then a better job might have come about. artie


Member: LU-LU
Location: NOT THE VALLEY...
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 10:39:06 PM

Comments

CHARLIE; thank you... LUCKIE; im not wearing any... I'M REMINDED TODAY OF SOMETHING MY SPONSOR TOLD ME A COUPLE YEARS AGO,REGARDING "SELF-SEEKING" (the promises,hope you're familiar DEAN good stuff) anyhow she says selfseeking ; in another scence other than "getting FOR ones self"can be be quite defeating too, then she described "self seeking" in terms of trying to find myself or define myself, through the thoughts,and/or opinions of others ,which can suck,cause although it's nice to have some person " build me up" by telling me i'm pretty, or smart or o.k. if i buy into that it also gives "them" the power to "tear me down" by saying i'm not pretty, smart, o.k. they might even say i'm a loser... so i'll admit i want to feel accepted and loved etc. but in order for it to have any depth or weight it's got to come from me, and my higher power NOT some clay footed human... cause it's an inside job


Member: ryno b
Location: utah
Date: 10/23/00
Time: 10:49:36 PM

Comments

All i remember about empty bottles is , feeling like crap & promising myself this won't happen again. It never worked that way i was always back at it as soon as i could.


Member: Kat A
Location: Boone
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 12:03:23 AM

Comments

I'm Kat and I'm an alcoholic. Thank you LU-LU for that great explaination of self-seeking, I can very clearly see myself at times in that trap. Its hard to really see myself when I'm so worried about the reflection others see, but thats just it, they can only see the image, only my HP and myself can see what is truly me.

On the topic, I have no paying job or office to go to. My work is my home and family, so everyday is a Monday for me. I have found in soberity that Susie Homemaker is not the fluff position I thought it was. I was a year sober went I decided to stay home and care for my new son and to try to bring our 100+ year old house back to livable condition, being the drunks that my husband and I were we didn't do a lot of home maintenance unless puking on the lawn counts. Each day I get up grateful to be sober and clear headed to face the day. I don't always look forward to the next task to be done, currently leave raking and putting up storm windows but I'm grateful to be able to do it. Thanks for letting me share


Member: Jack B
Location: Palo Alto, Pa
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 2:25:14 AM

Comments

Hi, I am Jack, a real alcoholic.When I was drinking, I hated any day I had to go to work.It didn't matter, it took me away from what I loved doing, getting drunk.Today I look at going to work as just that going to work and putting the twelfth step into practice.Practicing these principles in all our affairs. Because of AA, I am employed full time as a computer specialist,just as I was when I drank.The difference today is I am fully cognizant of what I am there for and for the eight hours I do the best job I possibly can.God,the Fellowship of AA and my employer expects this of me.And so do I. Thanks for allowing me to share.


Member: Randy  M
Location: Oregon
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 9:58:53 AM

Comments

Hi , Randy here, alki..work...I remember after school Id go to the community center and get someone to buy me boose for friends and me,and go off and get drunk, and then i started working when i got of age , so after work I would go and buy boose and get drunk,,,Patterns??it took AA to stop the pattern after 25 years of slowly killing me... thank god for today.. Thanks and god bless


Member: Steve M
Location: Brockton MA
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 10:04:20 AM

Comments

Hi: I'm Steve from Brockton MA. I like each day I wake up sober. Going to work now is a dream. I have changed jobs many times in soberity (12 years) and have found one where I am respected for who I am and what I bring to the company. Not all people I meet like me but that's life. I try to incorporate the steps and recovery program in my life on a daily basis and it works. The most important thing for me is ask for help followed by don't pick up the first drink. Then life is great. Have been through bad, bad times but through the fellowship, my higher Power, and my aa friends I got through them all. Like my grand- sponsor says "TODAY!!" Thanks s


Member: Kathy F.
Location: Texas
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 11:53:13 AM

Comments

hi I'm Kathy and an alcoholic. I went back to work this summer and got off welfare after five years of being on the dole. was staying sober thanks to the program. At the end of August I binged, lost my job, spent 30 days in jail, lost my 4 year relationship and had to move. Now I'm in a rural area with no car and no bus service. Now I'm 4 days clean. Working was helping me so much and I even got a bonus for being top producer for the month at my company. I must be crazy. I wish so badly I was back at work. Maybe this will make somebody grateful at least.

Thanks to God for AA and another chance.


Member: Craig L
Location: Beaverton, OR
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 12:04:39 PM

Comments

I'm Craig a grateful member of AA. Thank you all for the sincere sharing. I did another comprehensive 5th step a few weeks ago. For step 6, I became willing to recognize the relationship of my past shortcomings with my present attitudes and behavior. I absolutely know that any thought or action outside of the perspective of Love will point me away from the grace of God. This knowledge does not keep me from thinking and sometimes behaving selfishly anyway. Rather than expending my energy feeling self satisfied or self deprecating, both of which limit my usefulness, I must try and remember our prayer: My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad…..


Member: Craig L
Location: Beaverton, OR
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 12:40:41 PM

Comments

When I was using I expended every ounce of energy I had just to continue to use. Working and my associations were all just means for continuing to use. I was always exhausted. I’ll never know how I found enough energy to get to work and I frequently felt justified not to go. It didn’t help that I could also “work from home”, a lot. In the end, I could only get out of bed long enough to go to the liquor store and finally I couldn’t even do that. When my boss came looking to find out why they had lost contact with me, he found me completely debilitated with the DTs. The doctors were impressed I still had a heartbeat, considering my blood alcohol level. My company stuck with me through the hospital and detox. It was their faith and confidence, which impressed me the most to accept help and to seek out AA. By working the steps, attending daily meetings and helping others, I have an endless supply of energy. Now there are some Monday mornings I feel a little grumpy, but my morning prayers always reveal to me the miracles, which have been made available through the grace of God. Then I only I have a profound sense of gratitude. If you are new to AA, I pray you will find the peaceful energetic life this program makes available to you.


Member: Jodene Alcoholic
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 1:52:59 PM

Comments

Thank-you so much for sharing here. I definately need the reminder to get out of myself. Some old shortcomings REALLY go only after a wealth of kicking and screaming. Just so grateful right now to share your hope. Thanks


Member: Wouter
Location: Europe
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 1:56:14 PM

Comments

Wouter, Europe.

My present job is with the local government, after I won a lawsuit with the previous job, a job that really sucked. This job feels really good, it feels like a safe harbor after the wild seas. Tomorrow i'am gonna have an official functionings-talk with my boss.

A bit scared but hell, what can they say: that I missed a lot of working days being sick because I am a boozer ? No, they can't say that because I am sober for 15 months now. I am on this job for almost a year and pretty soon this job will go into a permanent status.

I want to do a lot more in the rest of my life, and I will. The daydreaming years being drunk or stoned are finally over, and it wasn't a pleasent dream oh no !! It was a continuous stupifying repeating of the same stupid "me".

Thanks to HP and AA and Wendy ( my ex- ) and, last but not least myself I quit.

No I am gonna be a writer, a good one too.

Bye for this week, eat your vitamines, be strong, do your excercise and grow...


Member: sf
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 1:59:04 PM

Comments

kathy f., jail sucks i know,and im grateful im out of there,probation also sucks.

staying free


Member: Anonymous
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 6:56:40 PM

Comments

One day at a time; "Though the outward man perishes the inward man is renewed day by day." There is a dying that takes place when we turn to God and the hope thereof. I used to sit in the restroom at work and read a passage or two, "My upmost for his highest" was one of my favorite. Yea, just to get away from the world awhile and meditate on things that seemed even then (as a babe in christ) to me to be preferred above the vanity of the daily job and the meaninglessness of what I was a part of. The bible handbook of promises had a comforting word during the day; fact is, I was burnt out as the saying goes but this time, it was of God. The very thing that I thought would save me speaking of God's word, was slaying me little and little. I had no desire to quit drinking and AA didn't come till later. I tried relocating, but like a fish that God was bringing in, he only felt the drag go out for one last struggle and I couldn't resist the fact that I must be born again whether I liked it or no. I didn't dislike it but I couldn't go on, I couldn't go on with it and I couldn't go on without it, but somewhere along the line even Jesus had to pound that last nail as a carpenter and take up the cross and so did I....


Member: dean
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 7:21:29 PM

Comments

hi lu-lu,

i cant wait a year,can i see it now??????

luv ya dean


Member: Chris P
Location: York, PA
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 7:37:32 PM

Comments

Chris P here, alcoholic from York, PA. I got sober for real three and a half years and stayed sober two and a half. I had too many "yets" to get it. I hadn't been to jail - yet, hadn't killed anyone - yet, and hadn't lost a job - yet. Then a little over a year ago I picked up again. I have had 6 jobs in the last two years. My last one was a piece of cake job as a teller in a credit union. No weekends or evenings, not hard work, but I got bored one day and bought some vodka on my lunch hour. I drank it fast and went back to work. I passed out at my station and my boss thought I had a stroke. She called my husband and he and my 21 year old son came and got me. They both knew it was no stroke. The credit union let me stay - even leave early each day to go to an out patient program. But I got bored with the outpatient program too, so I bought some vodka before going one night and ended up back in rehab for 21 days. That still didn't do it. After I got out, the credit union was willing to take me back, but I was too ashamed to face them so I quit aand went to work for my husband. I missed work once because I was drunk and came to work drunk once. That was last Thursday. So now I've had more than my share of losing a job "yet". I'm convinced that if I ever drink again, the other "yets" will come to pass, also. With my AA group and my higher power and being able to share semi-anonymously on this site, I will stay sober one day at a time.


Member: Humbler than U
Location: Akron
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 8:52:53 PM

Comments

My,my, the language some people use when their true colours are brought out!!! I have seen many people who can quote the Big Book scripture and verse; they also know how to talk the talk during a one hour meeting. Trouble is they don't walk the walk and practice the principles of AA OUTSIDE the meetings. These are the people that smile and wave at meetings and then go home and kick the dog. They have to live with the person inside of them not me. Yes I was a little mean but the mother hen attitude was making me sick over the last few weeks. Don't cure other people cure yourself.

"Humbler than U" was a joke name but being humble is not a joke. This is the last U will hear from "humbler than U" but I will continue to visit Staying Cyber under my real name which you all know as ........


Member: hee-hee
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 9:07:32 PM

Comments

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Member: woo  hoo
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 9:55:45 PM

Comments

______________________________ ______________________________) ----~~~ U


Member: Dea Hea
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 10:36:04 PM

Comments

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Member: wa ha
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 10:37:53 PM

Comments

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Member: 0b9
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 10:42:24 PM

Comments

your a sick man charlie brown


Member: DEB
Location: WINTER-WATER WONDERLAND
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 10:56:17 PM

Comments

Hi everyone-Deb here addicted to everything--compulsive in nature, i guess! Aimee, i need your help! You have been sober for 13 months, and decided to start drinking again? Could you share with me why? I am 6 months sober today, by the Grace of GOD, and each day for me still seems a miracle! I've been in and out of this program for 10 years now, but never really worked it like i am doing now. Is that what happened to you? Did you quit going to meetings, what is it that brought you over the edge? I very much would appreciate any feed back on you relapse, as i live with this fear that it would happen to me, even though i don't even think about drink--the fear remains. I congratulate you on your day of sobriety, and your willingness to share your disappointment so that maybe it won't happen to me! I'd appreciate some feedback-if you will-and will pray for your continued strength in your sobriety. HUGS DEB.


Member: yogie beare
Location:
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 11:03:23 PM

Comments

its amie s. i think


Member: MA L
Location: Indiana
Date: 10/24/00
Time: 11:23:23 PM

Comments

Hi All - I'm an alcoholic named MA - Deb in Wonderland - it would do me good to tell you about my relapse 18 yrs.ago - after 10 yrs. sobriety - I went to meetings - did everything I was supposed to almost - unlike you I didn't talk about fear or pain or a broken heart or broken spirit - in short I was not honest. Ego and lying to self will get us everytime. Odd - when I was at my worst - I looked my best. Many people go out and do not make it back - Why Me? Gods grace, not because it was deserved. So now I do talk about fear or heartbreak or pain. I talk at meetings, I talk to members and to many other anonymous people online. Isn't this great? Online meetings - to read about people getting sober or coming back and trying again. And the talk of gratitude!! Who'd a thunk it! Before I began this journey I prayed to be able to work, drive a car, act normal. Well, I did get a job and was able to drive a car. What's normal? Sometimes I have to remember those prayers when I think I don't want to work - or why do I have to work. Why am I sober? I know it's wonderful - Thanks to all.


Member: watchin
Location:
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 12:00:01 AM

Comments

john d.,

your web site dont work..........FIX IT!!!!!!

watchin


Member: Eric W
Location: Florida
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 12:17:25 AM

Comments

I'm Eric W an addict. This is my first time to this sight and I would like to let all of you that shared your thoughts, even "Humbler than U", that I think this is a wonderful forum for all of us who know there is a better way to live and just need some help finding the way. I enjoyed reading everyones comments and look forward to future postings. If you think about it that's just one other thing I gave up when I was drinking...READING! When your drinking that's all your doing so I thank God your able to read this. You must be sober. Thanks again and God bless us.


Member: LOU.H
Location: SPOKANE,WA
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 12:59:43 AM

Comments

HI, MY NAME IS LOU. H. AND IAM A ALCOHOLIC! MONDAYS!THANK MY HIGHER POWER TODAY I DON'T DO MONDAYS. IAM DISABLED, SO, IT GIVES ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO DO ALOT OF SERVICE WORK. I'VE BEEN EMOTIONAL TODAY SO HERE IAM ON LINE. BEEN TO 2 AA MGTS TODAY, FELL ASLEEP AT THE 5PM.. I AM GRATEFUL THAT IAM IN RECOVERY TODAY AND DIDN'T HAVE TO DRINK OVER ANYTHING,ANYONE, OR NOTHING.. THANK YOU ALL FOR MY RECOVERY TODAY! LOU.H.


Member: rob s.
Location: albany ore
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 1:33:57 AM

Comments

right on lou, i dont do mondays either......fact is i havnt done tuesdays through fridays for a while either is there any work up there in seattle????i need a job bad.

rob s.


Member: John L. 
Location: VA
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 4:34:14 AM

Comments

Take what you need, and leave the rest. Especially when someone posts something assinine. (Sp?) Everyone who posts here is a loser. Did you lose your keys, house, car, spouse, job, clothes, furniture, way, coordination, BALANCE? I lost some of these, especially that last one, a number of times. Never at a loss for empty bottles. Empties were so ugly, full bottles looked so good, and it always seemed the bottles at other people's houses always stayed full, but mine would go empty so fast! Well, since this loser lost alcohol, not to mention other brain-numbing intoxicants, I know where my keys, my car, my balance, and my tongue are, and I control them so much better. Thanks for being here, and there.


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 7:32:25 AM

Comments

Hey agian from John D. in Raleigh. It has been my experince that most relapes occur when the member slacks off on going to meetings. I figured out what was wrong with my link to my new discussion board. There is not much there yet but I would be greatful if you would stop by. http://pub30ezboard.com/fjohndsaadiscussionboardfrm1


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 7:35:28 AM

Comments

An alcholic will screw something up, so please bear with me. http://pub30.ezboard.com/fjohndsaadiscussionboardfrm1


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 7:36:31 AM

Comments

It works!!!!!!!!!


Member: Lynne B
Location: PA
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 10:27:48 AM

Comments

I'm hoping today is the first day of the rest of my life - a sober life. I'm so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired every morning. I hope this site and others on-line can help keep me focused on my recovery. Thanks for all the help.


Member: Ig, Kim
Location: South Korea
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 11:49:36 AM

Comments

Hi, everyone. I am Igk, a Korean. Cheer up Lynne B. it was so hard for me as you, perhaps more harder than you, when I started the sober life. I think now when I have matained 4.7 year sobriety, the difficulty have been rather useful. Otherwise, it has been difficult to elevate my endurance. Then a sponser said to me, "It must be difficult to make your life at first." When I herad it, on the one hand, I felt a little comfortable, but on the other hand, I wondered. But now it is true. I hope that my words will be helpful to you. Gook luck to you and everyone. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Leslie M.
Location: Collegeville, PA
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 2:03:58 PM

Comments

I really liked that quote, "Though the outward man perishes the inward man is renewed day by day," which was posted by "Anonymous." Does anyone know if this is from the Bible, or from the Big Book? Could have come from either one!

Saw a lot of wisdom in AZ Bill's message - thanks for sharing, Bill, and congratulations for having had the determination and fortitude to make a successful career change at mid-life. Not easy to do, and not a task for people who would rather park themselves on the pity-pot than at a desk in a college classroom. Career-wise, I've been spending a little more time on that pity-pot than I should be ... in fact, for me, ANY time spent there isn't a good thing. I lost a good job while I was an active alcoholic, and was given (yes, given, as a gift from God) a great job at three months' sobriety. Over the past few months my responsibilities have changed to the point at which I'm not feeling as satisfied or challenged in my career as I would like. But it's up to me to turn this issue over to God; do the footwork I need to do to make the change, if that's how I'm directed; and trust the outcome to God.

In the meantime, at 21 months' sober, thanks to God and AA, I'm grateful for my job and grateful for another day of sobriety, even the "bad" days, and even Mondays. Actually ... Mondays are fine, now, because I don't wake up with a wine-induced hangover.

Love and God's blessings to all,

Leslie M.


Member: Leslie M.
Location: Collegeville, PA
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 4:43:05 PM

Comments

Leslie M. here, again ... forgot to say "hi" to Lou in Spokane. I moved from Spokane to PA a little over 10 years ago.

I attended my first AA meeting in Spokane, at the Alano Club on 7th Ave (we lived on the lower South Hill, not far from Deaconess Medical Center). This 14 years ago, 1986, and I remember literally "skulking" across the parking lot to the entrance, hoping no one would see me. And once I was inside, I thought there was no way I could be part of that scruffy-looking bunch of degenerates. (Please forgive my horrible attitude of 14 years ago, I'm proud to be a scruffy-looking degenerate myself these days!) I went to one more meeting, a week later, and still figured I didn't qualify as an alkie (believe me, I sure as hell did, but was too narrow-minded, dishonest and resistant to realize it). So I stayed out for another 12 years and did a pretty good job of messing up my life and hitting bottom pretty hard.

Finally got into the program for keeps ... one day at a time ... and today, I have 21 months sobriety. Sometimes I wonder how my life would have turned out if I had "kept going back" to the Alano Club in Spokane, then continued in the fellowship after moving to Pennsylvania. But that's not a Green Card way of thinking ... the past is the past, today is great, and I look forward to a rewarding future ... IF, and only IF, I stay sober a day at a time and keep going to meetings.

Anyway, glad to see a message from the Lilac City! (Damn, wish there were Skipper's franchises and a Lake Coeur d'Alene in the Philly area, then life would be just about perfect!)

Take care!


Member: George B
Location: Valdosta  GA
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 7:07:39 PM

Comments

this is my first visit to staying cyber, looking forward to many more...got sober 2/5/87 by the Grace of a Higher Power and folks like ya'all have stayed that way since...it's only because of the fellowship that I've been able to go to work...and the only collection of bottles & cans that I leave in my wake are of the coke & pepsi nature


Member: HTU
Location:
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 7:33:58 PM

Comments

Sorry if I bruised any egos...I apologize


Member: Will C
Location: New Jersy
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 8:14:50 PM

Comments

First time here. Sober 6 months and stopped smoking today! Its so hard not to have a butt after the meetings. Anyoe else?


Member: hb
Location:
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 8:33:47 PM

Comments

htu/akron, only at the old folks home!!!!!!!!!!!

harry butts


Member: The loner
Location:
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 10:00:57 PM

Comments

For Will C:

Make sure that you have a firm acceptance of step 1 and THEN think about stopping smoking...If you start drinking again you'll only smoke anyways :)


Member: DEB
Location: WINTER-WATER-WONDERLAND
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 10:20:25 PM

Comments

Good Sober Evening Everyone, and thank-you for sharing that with me Ma from Indiana. You are so right about the honesty, it certainly has helped to clear my path for a truer commitment to myself this time. The other thing i never could grasp before was "One day at a Time, and Let Go and Let God." Two biggies, i now see. Actually now that i know i'm not in charge of my life anyway, and that God has his own special plan for mr, it's kind of a relief. It's also pretty awsome to see how he works in my life. He knows how compulsive of a human i am, so he has armoured me to the fullest extent!! My husband and i have temporary custody of our TWIN 19 month old grandaughters, and i can't imagine doing this job on the bottle. So yes, the fear of God is within, i need him more than ever, as well as i do all you wonderful people who share your experience, strength and hope with me. God Be In Your Hearts. Hugs-Deb


Member: Marsha W
Location: Northern Chile
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 10:25:31 PM

Comments

Hi, everyone! Marsha here, alcoholic. This scenario has occurred five times in the past three years. Got stinking drunk on Saturday; crawled to the store Sunday for more; needed even more Monday 'cause I still wanted to be drunk and was too much in the "f*** it mode" to call work, too hungover and shaky to go to work on Tuesday; so kept sucking back beer to be able to make it in on Wednesday; too guilty and ashamed and cowardly Wednesday to face my boss and co-workers (sometimes on Thursday too), so slunk in Thursday or Friday after a week incommunicado with tail between legs to plead for my job which, thanks only to my HP, was not taken away permanently (although I was given a few "punishment" vacations).

Have been to a second recovery group meeting(no AA here andlike the first, absolutely no spirituality, no sharing and no other women)so neither was anything like "the granddaddy of them all" (as one old-timer called AA in comparison to some of the other 12-step programs). Am so grateful for this site to be able to read the wonderful messages of ES&H and hear the familiar jargon, quotes and slogans. Thanks so much to all of you and have a wonderful 24. Hugs to everyone, as I sure could use one!!


Member: htU
Location:
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 10:44:00 PM

Comments

Went to a one year birthday tonight....awesome...I love live meetings...ain't nothing like the real thing Baby!


Member: tt
Location:
Date: 10/25/00
Time: 11:27:06 PM

Comments

yea right htu, you aint ever been to a meeting in your life.

tiny timmy


Member: Hog rider
Location: Canada
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 12:15:23 AM

Comments

One of the arguments I used to use to covince myself that I could still handle booze was"I haven't been fired"and"I never lost my drivers license"even though I knew my drinking wasn't what other people would call normal[7 days a week,totaly wasted at least a couple of them]Some old bastard at a meeting told me"it hase'nt happened to you yet,just keep on drinking"Guess what,it turned out he was right,I lost my license,I quit one job[that I had for 20 years just before they sent me packing,got another,got fired,got another,got canned again.Whats wrong with this picture?Well it took a lot more convincing to give up on my old best freind,like gagging my guts out every day,but Ive got four months in again,have a job I really like,can't believe they trust me with the responseability they do,and I know as sure as shit woulden't be able to do this job two days while drinking.The only way to keep my life together is to stay away from liqour,and its not easy,those warped thoughts that if I just drank this way,or that stuff only,I could handle it,Bullshit I know,but the old self can't change completely,soon,probaly never. Incidently,that old bastard is now my sponser.


Member: Melissa W
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 12:33:35 AM

Comments

Hate to sound like a broken record but as my sponsor says (all the time): "whether you like it or not, suit up, show up, shut up & do the next right thing."


Member: BF
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 1:01:11 AM

Comments

AMEN TO THAT MELISSA

I FEEL LIKE DANCING!!!!!!!

BARNEY FIFE


Member: BF
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 1:01:36 AM

Comments

AMEN TO THAT MELISSA

I FEEL LIKE DANCING!!!!!!!

BARNEY FIFE


Member: andy taylor aunt bee goober opie sam
Location: barney fife
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 1:32:46 AM

Comments

here on gilligans island,just sit right back and youll hear a tale a tale of a fateful trip that started from this tropic port aboard this tiny ship the mate was a mighty sailing man the sskipper brave and sure five passengers set sail that day on a three hour tour a three hour tour,the weather started getting rough the tiny ship was tossed if not for the courage of the fearless crew the minnow would be lost.

gomer


Member: AN ALCOHOLIC
Location: ANONYMOUS
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 2:19:20 AM

Comments

Hi my name is ollie I'm suppose to be cleaning the bosses office. I was dusting the keyboard and the machine clicked on. Haven't been to a meeting in years,bored so I scrolled up and found this. Don't think there is any coincidences in GODs world-think you guys may have saved my life,had stinkin thinkin for about 6 months, will call local central office and get meeting scheduale as soon as I get off work, won't blow bosses anonimity, will close file when through.I DO BELIEVE IN ANGELS AND ESKIMOS. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!


Member: John G
Location: The Big Crumpet
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 4:25:54 AM

Comments

HI, My name is John. I'm an alcoholic. I had my last drink in August 1992. My sister-in-law recently introduced me to the 12 Steps which I found very profound, very much like some of the work I have done in therapy.

My work has taken new directions since I last had a drink, but some days its just tough no matter how much I like my business. However, its not as tough as trying to get through the day in pain whether the pain comes from a hangover or guilt.

I've never been to an AA meeting, but reading the material on the website and looking at this conversation makes me wonder if I should start attending meetings. Any thoughts?


Member: Charlie Darling
Location: Key West Fl.
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 7:09:46 AM

Comments

Hi Family Charlie Darling a very greatful recovering alcholic. Just a note to John G the big crumpet I think maybe you should get to a meeting as meeting makers make it Love you all.


Member: tt
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 7:38:15 AM

Comments

---------dea---n, f--- ---


Member: dean
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 7:50:51 AM

Comments

I feel very lonely and afraid. Help me.

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Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 9:17:14 AM

Comments

Dean, the only way I can help you is if you help yourself. No matter how bad it gets remember, this too will pass, don't take a drink.


Member: Leslie M.
Location: Collegeville, PA
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 11:22:56 AM

Comments

Hi, John G. at the Big Crumpet - yes, would recommend live AA meetings. Any responsible developer of a cyber site for people in recovery will state right up front that virtual meetings should not be a replacement for live meetings. Although, for people who are unable to make live meetings, or for whom live meetings are long distances away ... whatever reason ... cyber meetings are better than nothing.

Unfortunately some garbage is posted from time to time ... there are people who lack the maturity, compassion, or both, to respect that cyber meetings are designed to help people who are serious about living sober. That's the source of stupid postings such as the lyrics to the theme from "Gilligan's Island." (Yeah, that's one of my many character defects ... I have a resentment about things like that. Trying to be better, a day at a time.)

Anyway, good luck, God bless, maybe pick up a copy of "Alcoholics Anonymous" and "Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions" -- those are the basic texts of AA, it's all there.

Love to all ... (and sorry for my resentment about "Gilligan's Island," I'm a damned far sight from perfection!)

Leslie M.


Member: Dave B
Location: Phx
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 1:20:26 PM

Comments

Hi i am Dave an alcoholic,addict.I am very thankfull to get up every day and see my beautiful children,to spend quality time with family and to be able to build a strong relationship with my mate.With alcohol and drugs in my life i would not apprieciate any of these things i would only love my next high or drunk.The reality of everyday can make us stronger or break us too the bone,but i know that with the courage and strength to stop drinkin and drugin you can acomplish anything. God Bless, thx


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 1:21:19 PM

Comments

Progress not prefection. Belive it or not I have a few flaws, one is playing on the computer when I am suppose to be working.


Member: Charles
Location: H
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 3:42:58 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm an alcoholic named Charles. I would just like to say that today is a great day to be sober. I haven't got any worries that my higher power cant fix. Coming up on 8yrs and it just keeps getting better. As long as I work the program as it was set down in the big book I'll continue to be alright. To enjoy life to the fullest I have found that I must keep in contact with my higher power on a daily basis or more often if need be. Have a great day.


Member: ameastas@glide.org
Location: san francisco
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 4:28:28 PM

Comments


Member: Lee
Location: Peterborough, Ontario (lotsa lakes)
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 5:52:02 PM

Comments

Work isn't always wonderful. It is still better than working just to buy booze or realizing that you are often too sick to go to work. :) :) :) :) :) :)


Member: tt
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 9:42:28 PM

Comments

htu,you are a homo.

htu.....F...Y..


Member: htu
Location: ========)
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 9:46:56 PM

Comments

im so scared and alone

htu


Member: Norm P
Location: Indiana
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 9:57:55 PM

Comments

John -By all means,go to some meetings(more than one) but don't stop there. Get ahold of some literature like the book "Alcoholics Anonymous". Read it. Don't stop there. Do what it says to the best of your ability and you will have a good chance of turning sober and staying that way. Meetings will only carry us so far. The AA program is like medicine;it doesn't work if we don't take it as directed. Just going to meetings won't keep us sober any more than sitting in a garage will turn us into mechanics. We have to get some tools and learn how to use them. LU-LU---I don't even know you and may not ever but I think you are pretty,smart and OK and are likely to stay that way no matter what the minority of one says.


Member: dean
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 10:14:34 PM

Comments

I am weak and wimpy. I am a worm. I am Dean.


Member: 9weeks
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 10:49:12 PM

Comments

MOM?


Member: hee hee
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 11:12:12 PM

Comments

======================0 ---- mom


Member: dean
Location:
Date: 10/26/00
Time: 11:17:48 PM

Comments

I am so heterosexual! .... I've got mom!


Member: Pierre
Location: Maine
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 7:24:42 AM

Comments

I like waking up with no hangover !!


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 9:05:29 AM

Comments

Dean, you need to put the plug in the jug! Its Friday and everyone is happy, yea!!!!!! See we have to go through mondays to get here, just like we had to hit bottom to get here, so everything works out if we put the effort in to make changes for the better. Visit my discussion board at: http://pub30.ezboard.com/fjohndsaadiscussionboardfrm1


Member: htU
Location:
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 12:34:35 PM

Comments

i take it in the butt,i am a gay boy,my name is htu from akron.

my NAME is htU


Member: htU
Location: akron
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 12:36:55 PM

Comments

mommy where are you?

my name is htU,im a transvestite.

htU


Member: John D.
Location: Raleigh
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 1:32:17 PM

Comments

htu, your karma is gonna be the thing that gets you in the ass. What goes around, comes around and you keep thinking everything is a joke.


Member: Maureen C
Location: Upstate NY
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 3:03:30 PM

Comments

My first sponsor told me I had to live the traditionas as well as the steps. The 7th tradition, being fully self-supporting, has always been tough for this alkie since I wanted someone to take care of me.

I have a good job, pays the bills. I am not happy all the time and the boss can sometimes be a real jerk. And sometimes, the boss can be great! Every job has its good and bad points. It's up to me what I choose to focus on.

I recently started my own business and am slowly getting that off the ground. Being self-supporting is part of growing up. OUCH! But, I feel better about myself and give my best each day. Thanks for keeping me sober today.


Member: DM
Location: UK
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 10:46:16 PM

Comments

i can look people in the face today and that is +*^^%^& amazing..that'll be on my gratitude list. Good luck to those who are struggling at the moment cause i know exactly how it feels, but it does get better H O W? honesty opemindedness ans willingness that HOW!! DMc


Member: bp
Location: GA
Date: 10/27/00
Time: 11:33:59 PM

Comments

Hi, I am BP and definitely an alcoholic. I don't have a license and this helps a little. I like live physical meetings better but my main goal is to not drink today and I'm glad for having the Internet available. 67 days and things are happening and they're not happening. Life continues, I just have to learn how to live it sober, in AA.


Member: D(weeb)  E(ating) A(nus) N(erd)
Location:
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 1:44:29 AM

Comments

My father is my brother and my mother is my sister.


Member: Chad  E.
Location:
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 1:49:45 AM

Comments

(((Dean)))

It's OK that you are gay and a cross-dresser. The 3rd tradtition says that the only requirement for membership in AA is a desire to quit drinking. Keep coming back. It gets better.


Member: Jeff
Location: West Michigan
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 9:20:51 AM

Comments

Hi, My name is Jeff and I am an alcoholic. Gratitude and working......hmmmn

In August of 97 all I was doing was drinking and working. My life felt empty ..my job paid well and I got some twisted sort of sense of accomplishment from it but I found myself more or less insanely drunk by accident on many occasions when all I meant to do was unwind after a long day.

I kept drinking and winding up at gogo bars (that's what they called nudy bars where I lived at the time -)...anyway I had one day when I woke up in the morning and it was almost noon and popped open a bud.. I remembered AA and how I would have never gotten my job or finished school without help from you guys and God/HP/something greater than myself. For some reason I was able to decide again not to want to drink..it took me 2 more days to actually get to a meeting, and I chose a speaker meeting so I would not have to talk. I "won" a Big Book in a raffle - Looking back the raffle was quite possibly rigged for newcommers...I have not had to drink since then and I am so grateful to AA, and God/good/Hp and you all.

I actually like what I do (same job) even though some Mondays still can kick me in the butt. I have learned to ask in the morning (Mondays too) for help to be grateful for everything (good - bad - in between).

Thanks everyone for being here.


Member: radar m
Location: a much better place
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 9:58:05 AM

Comments

I still have to live life on lifes terms. Working is just another way of being responsible.


Member: Rich R, slowly recovering compulsive person :-)
Location: Detroit
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 12:30:47 PM

Comments

I am grateful for the topic of going to work on Mondays. I am grateful that I have a job to go to. The same job I have had for 35 years! But, this year something has changed at this job. My boss (and all the bosses) are being more honest about performance appraisals. And for the first time in 35 years my performance has been rated as "low". So, going to work on Mondays is now a challenge for me. But, I am grateful that I have a program of recovery so I can work on real issues in my life and not run from them like I did before I found AA 10 years ago. Thanks for letting me share and thanks for the excelllent topic!


Member: Lynn S.
Location: Oregon
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 3:16:25 PM

Comments

I'm Lynn and alcoholic.

Some days are better than others. There's nothing I like about my job better-than when I don't have one and I'm hunting one. It's humbling and rejection is not easy. So when I'm working I try to remember that not working is a lot harder-for me, anyway-than working.

Thanks for letting me share.


Member: htU
Location: i like em long & stiff
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 4:15:48 PM

Comments

hi im htU,

im still wearing cherry lipstick and my mommas panties.

htU


Member: dean
Location: daydreaming about mom
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 5:06:42 PM

Comments

Ram it, ram it, ram it up my poop shoot. (pleez)


Member: Walt
Location: NorCal
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 6:32:40 PM

Comments

Walt, alcoholic....I never knew that my life could ever be so goooood! Just last weekend I was saying to my wife how nice it is not to be obsessing about going to work on Monday. My experince shows me and any who cares to look that this simple program will create a miracle in anyones life who wants it bad enough. Trust me when I tell you that I was as sick as anyone who has posted here this week, and I have papers to prove that. All that I did was concede to my innermost self that I was alcoholic.....the rest is history, as they say. via con dios


Member: htU
Location:
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 7:01:04 PM

Comments

hi im htU,

my momma let me wear her bra today


Member: Michael B.
Location: AZ
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 7:48:55 PM

Comments

Hi! My name is Michael, and I am a recovering alcoholic and addict, sober today only by the Grace of God and the Fellowship. Welcome newcomers! Thanks to those who genuinely shared!

I would be grateful just to be able to work regularly. Chronic health problems have prevented me from doing as much as I would like.

When I was working regularly in my sobriety, I rarely had problems associated with Monday or a particular day of the week like I did when I was drinking. Each day brought a new challenge, thanks to the promised spirtiual awakening!


Member: Larry C
Location: San Francisco,CA
Date: 10/28/00
Time: 9:09:34 PM

Comments

Hello, My name is larry, a sober drunk. I happened upon this site sorta by accident. It just breaks my heart that the greatest concern seems to be "poor me" I don't feel like going to work on Monday. When is the last time any of you had a conscious thought for someone other than yourself? If I spend too much time involved with my STUFF I loose sight of my main objective, which is to stay sober and to be of service to someone other than myself. I don't have a corner on the "I hate my job on Monday" market. KISS P.S. If you can't find someone where you live, I know where there are plenty here in the real San Francisco ( not pier 39 )