Member: I M
Location:
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 00:36:19

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Hello, is anybody out there?


Member: keith.c
Location: Castro Valley Calif
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 01:31:57

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hello all im back!!!!!!! well im writing you just to say hi. and also to ask how sober life treaten everyone. well thats all i half to. ill leave with this= i dont know any of you but i love you all bye.


Member: Diane T.
Location: Long Island, New York
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 01:58:50

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Hello, I am grateful to know that there is a place I can go to stay in touch with another alcoholic. I've been attending college and working on 2 paid Internships... I don't really have the luxury of going to a meeting daily, so going online has been a God-send for me, and so for me I am extremely grateful to you all. ;)


Member: Amy G.C.
Location: Switzerland
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 03:12:12

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Good Morning AA friends across the world. I hope spring time is coming to your part of the world too. Easy does it, Amy


Member: Harmoni
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 04:14:30

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Good Morning! I'm sleepless in Las Vegas!


Member: Randy S.
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 07:21:11

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Good Morning everyone out there, Iam Randy and Iam an alcohlic. This is a great Sunday morning, for one thing I DO NOT have a hangover this morning and have not had one in over 8 yrs. That only happen because of a Power Greater than i and the love of the people in A.A., who cared enough for this "one-legged fat man" who's life was very near it's end on Sept. 8,1989. To the Lady in Switzerland, Amy g.c.,: I have been there, in a drinking household trying to stay sober;"NOT EASY", but it can be done.The first 6 mos.of my recovery I spent at my parents house. I was too sick to work,I had no other place to go;I thought Iwas dying!They (my family)are heavy drinkers,alcohlics everyone and not in recovery and still are! But through prayer and constant contact with my sponsor and the fellowship(A.A.) I know the that all this stuff I was given, the tools of A.A. and the Love of GOD and the Love of the people in the program;all togather has made it possible for me to WITHOUT a drink or a drug for 3124 days and for that I'am grateful. Hang in there, Amy g. c. from Switzerland it takes awhile,but the rewards are out of this world!!! To Joshua B. in Mo.,you hang in there also. Today,I know your life looks like it is falling apart. It seems like the end is near;it is not the end it,is the beginning! The beginning of a life beyond your wildest dreams. Stick around till the miracle happens.Free your mind and your ass will follow.Thanks for letting me share Soberity and Peace to all Randy S.


Member: Judyrose M.
Location: Boston, Ma
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 07:25:32

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Hi My name is Judyrose. I am an alcoholic. I am looking for advice and fellowship with respect to anger.....any takers....just let me know what you do with it ....I been living sober with it .....I want to change...and am afraid it will little by little drive me to drink...please help me .


Member: Bob B.
Location: Jersey
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 08:05:55

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Hey Tim, Made 2 this week Im aiming for 3 this week!!! Beautiful day today... C YA, Bob


Member: Randy S.
Location: Baton Rouge,La.
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 08:18:28

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To Judyrose from Boston:I know very little about handleing anger,not that I don't have anger, I just don't how to handle it!The book(THE BIG BOOK )tells me that as an alcohlic, anger is for normal people and I'am a long way from normal!!!My sponsor tells me that anger is a GOD-GIVEN emotion,so since I can't handle that emotion very well I'd better give it to somebody who can handle it better than I.When theses fellings damn near chock me to death and the thought of alcohol or "The animal" inside me is clawing to get out to do harm to me and anyone in arms length of me,I have to ask GOD, please let me breathe.Please let the "animal" die down.Anger is part of my illness and the answer is GOD! The answer for me lies in the last three lines of How it Works: It says:"That we where alcohlics and could not manage our own lives.(B) That probly no human power could relieve our alcoholism.(C)That GOD could and would IF He were sought. When times of anger hit me,I have to do some soughting Soberity and Peace to all Sober Southern Boy


Member: Suzanne H.
Location: Ontario Canada
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 10:25:05

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Good Morning! Suzanne, alcoholic here.

Well, to think a week ago I was shovelling out from over a foot of snow and now scrambling to squeeze into last years shorts.

It sounds as if everyone is experiencing a little bit of "spring" in the air this morning.

I had a great evening last night. We had my sister and her husband over for a barbecue. We played cards and some darts. We all had fun. They drank, and I accepted that I could not. I did laugh and smoke to much though (a bit of a sore throat this morning) Oh and I didn't miss the dartboard once!

A wonderful sober day to all!


Member: Doris B H
Location: Oregon
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 10:34:34

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Hi you all, I'm on my way to Germany nd France and Switerland. I want to raise my hand when they "is there anyone here from out of town" I hope I can understand them when they say it. Gotta go, please pray for my safe trip. This is very exciting for me. I hope to see ssome great horses. That is my first love. DBH


Member: Josh J.
Location: Portland, OR
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 12:47:27

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Hi everyone. I've been trying to take my leap into sobriety for quite an while now. My miracle happened about 40 hours ago. Thank you God.


Member: Amy G.C.
Location: Switzerland
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 14:03:16

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Doris, it is springtime here in Switzerland, Welcome. Randy thanks for the insight and concern. Peace, Amy


Member: Kate T.
Location: Columbus, WI
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 14:10:48

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In response to your solicitation regarding anger, Judyrose: Anger is the dubious luxery of saner persons than I, just acknowledging anger is a beginning for me to look more deeply at how I've operated all of my life. What I really needed to acknowledge was the fact that I was one angry woman. I think the temptation to believe that I'm really a "nice" person had to be smashed in order for me to acknowledge that anger was survival. The BB tells us that this kind of anger blocks us from the sunlight of the spirit. When I accept myself AS I AM I find that it is much easier for me to accept that restoration to sanity is necessary. Anger is a defense mechanism, that's all. What are you defending? Love and peace. Kate.


Member: Barbara B
Location: PA
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 15:46:25

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Hi, Me too, an angry person, 6 years sober though, I've been working on it. Actually, God's been doing the work, and I've been asking him for the willingnesss to Love. Acceptance, page 449 in Big Book, really helped me. There was something I read about perfect joy that helped me. Seems St Francis, (before he became St.) was living in a Monestary with other monks, he and another brother were going 20 miles to a different monestary on foot. On the way the brohter kept asking him what would give perfect joy, giving all your goods to the poor, knowing all the secrets of the universe, or all the languages on earth, Francis told him nay none of the above. In the process of their journey, they came upon a huge monstrous storm, which made them lost, and they lost all their provisions for the journey, and cold wet dirty finally a week later ended up at the monestary and knocked at the door, to their disappointment, the brothers there asked who they were, tis we from the other monestary they replied, they were then rejected, and told they did not recognize them as their brothers, well Francis and his Brother kept knocking and these brothers from this monestary came and beat them up, threw rotten fruit and veggies at them, stoned them and Brother Francis finally said, this is perfect joy, knowing, this is GOD'S WILL FOR ME TODAY. Thanks for your patience in letting me share.


Member: Diane  T.
Location: Long Island, New York
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 18:40:34

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Hi everyone...I just wanted to say that Randy S. from Baton Rouge, sounds like he has built himself a very strong and solid foundation, and also has a powerful message to share... Congradulations Josh! Keep up the good work! One-day at a time! To Barbara B. of PA, Great advice on pg. 449 of the BB. And a great story about St. Francis, but what does it have to do with anger? Well, maybe I just didn't get it...but thanks for sharing anyway... And to JudyRose of Boston; Pg. 67 of the BB, deals with anger. So does pg. 552 based on an Angry- mans prayer & more about anger... I know for myself that resentment which is a form of anger is the #1 offender. the BB says it destroys more alcoholics than anything else. My suggestion is to share your anger in meetings and with your sponsor, and then put it on the shelf, pray about it and let your Higher Power take care of it! Good Luck to you...Kepp sharing it until your able to let it go (Acceptance)...


Member: Milas E.
Location: Calif.
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 20:31:24

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Hello,page 449 in the B.B. has meant so much to me that I made a poster of it. Also pages 38 -40 in Living Sober contain some helpful thoughts. Well it seems to be springtime everywhere, regardless of snow or rain.Thank you, God. Barbara,the story of Francis St. or otherwise is a great example of acceptance. Thank you all, Milas E.


Member: mary w.
Location: KISS in Ks
Date: 29 Mar 1998
Time: 22:52:28

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hello y'all, First, i want to say to the techies and trusted servants who keep this site up and running, THANK YOU...with out this site my life would be the poorer. as to anger that is an emotion i can't indulge in very often any more. anger has a way of getting my program off track. usually though, there are hidden feelings pretending to be anger... such as fear and insecurity.don't get me wrong, i aint a saint. i flip off people who cut me off in traffic ( but with the crazies out there these days) i hid it under my steering wheel. just being honest.....but where it counts, i try to find out whats really eating my lunch. i hope my ESH has helped...

hugs,

mary w.


Member: steve c.
Location: michigan
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 05:11:30

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I have been struggling with sponsorship lately, and was wondering if anyone could offer me some advice? I am a college student. I go to a meeting a day, and even though I have met a lot of wonderful people, I am still having a hard time with trust. Also, I have been looking for some people in recovery to talk to. I have an icq account, and my # is 3425794. I do not know how long it may be before I get a chance to come back to this wonderful site, so if you have icq, and would like to talk with someone else in recovery, please let me know.

JOSH J, --When I first came into the AA program, I became overwhelmed with the people who had lengthy sobriety, but don't despair because really, we only have today. and that is all that counts.

I love all of you, and remember--Keep it simple bye, steve


Member:   Chuck  S.
Location:   Cntrl   WV.
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 06:58:12

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"Good Morning Everyone"!Chuck S. in recovery here.Hope you all are doing well this AM. As for myself-thins are good,other then problems w/L.back. I should know what's up with that later this week,hopefully. I've put-off going to MD for fear of my other addiction,however after talking(listening) to my sponsor and other recovering persons I going today to have some tests done. Any and all prayers will be appreciated!!

The weather is wonderful here in the hills,although the temp is supposed to drop some this week,I believe winter is about over. Thank HP!!

On Anger - As others have posted,page 449(BB) seems to help me focus on what/who needs to change in order to work through anger. The longer I stay "ANGRY" the longer I "SUFFER"!!As well as the people who mean the most to me. I find it's best that I talk to my sponsor or at least to someone in recovery about being angry,then follow positive suggestions given.Anger for this alkie/addict has, did,can and will get me drunk/high if I don't handle it ,with help from HP and you all!!

To Randy S. in BR La.-I lived in Addis `89&`90 and in Franklin (St Mary Parish) 9yrs prior to that. Club12 off Airline hgwy was my noon hangout,the thursday nite "VETS" Grp was my homegroup.Are you familiar with them??Do you know a Jack and/or Jesse B.?? At the time I was there Jack was a therapist at BRGMC..Anyway,I really miss La. and would love to have some crawfish from the basin..If you'd like to talk more my email address is- sloan@iolinc.net -ANYONE may email me,so as not to start all the crap we had here last week!! HaHa! "I'm outa here" for now and will drop in again later this AM.I hope you all have a good day and sober week!! "Later Gang"!

"TFTS"!!cs

P>S>: "Hi Amy G.C."!!


Member: Chris
Location: south GA.
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 08:31:36

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I feel fortunate not to be angry today (yet). First time on this site and I think it is really great!

I'm still too foggy to be angry. Sorry I coudn't help.


Member: Tony G.
Location: Peq. N. J.
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 10:54:21

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Hi gang, Tony G. and I am an alcoholic. How easy it is to fall back on routine. I started a new job last week and today is my first day off. I started doing things that I used to do when I did not have a job and found myself getting antsy. I realized I don't like just sitting around doing nothing. I felt more alive working than i do now. If someone told me three weeks ago that I would have a job and that I'd be happy I wouldn't believe them. My job is food preparation for a Restaraunt in my town. So when I figured I was falling into my same pattern I realized I had to do something to get out of my head so here I am sharing.

Anger is an emotion it is alright to feel angry we would not be human if we did not feel it. The only thing bad about it is when we let anger rule our common sense and make us turn on others or our selves destructively. Even Jesus was angry once. He was in a temple and he saw people selling things instead of worshipping his Father so He became angry and destroyed the stalls the sellers set up. I HAVE anger but I never released it and it developed into resentments. Now I try to tell people 'Hey that hurt and I think we need to talk' this releive anger in me and get to what really bugs me.

Well it's nice to get that off my chest so now I can go on living. Now if I could only get mt cat off me I can continue, he is twenty- five pounds of fir and muscle and loves my lap. Bye for now.


Member: Josh J.
Location: Portland, OR
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 11:31:14

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What a wonderful 24 hours I just had. That's 3 days. Thank you God. Steve C., thank you. It was (still is sometimes) overwhelming. My Grandfather (Bill H.) had been in the program before I was born, and was still sober when he passed away a year ago January. It makes me sad that I can't talk with him about it, (well, I actually do sometimes), but I'm sure he's dancing a jig with all the other members up there. I am grateful for his life and example. It gives me hope, like all of you. And you're right Steve, today is all I have and it's going to be a billion times better than the last Monday I had.


Member: John C.
Location: Ohio
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 11:42:00

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Good morning , I'm in central Ohio and its sunny and headed into the 80's. Love this site. For me, anger isn't an emotion, its a response to other emotions, usually hurt or frustration that somebody won't do what I want them to do, like get out of my way on the highway, or behave like I think they should. As if my opinion mattered above all else! Many of my resentments could be avoided if I would just focus on the fact that based on past history, someone or something is behaving in the same way they allways have. Screw me once shame on you, screw me twice , and I need to work Step 2. A good definition of insanity is diong the same things over and over, expecting different results. That accounts for a large chunk of my resentments. making decisions based on self that put me in a position to get hurt later accounts for most of the rest. Now if I could just trade all this 20/20 hindsight in on some foresight . Oh well, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly...


Member: Chris N.
Location: Valdosta Ga.
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 15:20:55

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Hey Coffee Drinkers!

I called in sick to work yesterday so I could shack up in a cheap motel with my girlfriend. After we had sex all day we both fell asleep. She woke me up, and after looking at the clock I realized I was 2 hrs late, and my wife was going to be pissed cause I missed taking the boys to little league practice. Well I figured since I was already late, I might as well have another go at it, so we did. I decided to take a shower before I went back home, so when I was getting ready I told my girlfriend to go down to the Minute Market and buy a wine cooler, then come back and pour it on my suit. She thought I was goofy, but she did it anyway. So when I got home 3 hrs late my wife was totally pissed, "where in the @#$% have you been you #$%@#$ SOB!" When she stopped yelling long enough for me to get a word in, I said "honey, I cant lie to you anymore, I called in sick and took my girlfriend to a motel and had sex all day, then overslept and that is why I am late". As I was explaning this she walked up to me and started to smell my jacket. then she interupted me to say "You lying sack of $#%@ You've been out drinking havent you, you $#% %#$#% %^@*&!!!!!!!!"


Member: Marge B
Location: Tucson
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 16:22:51

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Hi Everyone, I'M Marge, an alcoholic. Wow ! I've heard some great stuff. Loved that "Anger is a defense mechanizm....What am I defending?" and what John said about "anger is a response to other emotions" was something to ponder too. Both of those coments ask me to look at myself instead of the object of my anger. Isn't that what the inventory steps are about? All I really know is that, for me, I found that since I had been stuffing anger for years before God dropped me into an AA meeting, ( nice girls don't get angry) What a bunch of bull.... But for me I had to learn how to get honest with myself. It's not ok to be a doormat but it's not ok to try to impose my will on to others either. And since I sometimes can't see what's right in front of my nose, I have to rely on a sponsor, and check my motives. After many soul searching inventories I find that anger is sometimes my friend (it's a great motivator for change) BUT I can't live there. If I live there, it turns into a resentment and page 66 in the big book tells me what happens to a life which includes deep resentments. page 60 tells me that "any life fun on self-will can hardly be a success. On that basis we are almost always in collision with something or somebody" THAT was me, and sometimes it still can be. Thank God for ALL the steps. and Thank God that they are in the order that they are. I wouldn't have freedom from my self destructive ways any other way. Thanks for being here.


Member: Libby W.
Location: Glenside Pa
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 17:27:43

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Hi everyone Little nervous here. I get like this any time I'm putting my opinion out there. Great info on the anger situation, I for one had to find that place of forgiveness in order to be RELIEVED from the mushroomed demon. My anger at one time had a heartbeat of it's own. I got drunk'not once but twice.Just went through being angry with my sponsor and handled it much differently than before.First I sat quiet and got with my part then took a few days off from the situation. Actually I went to a retreat in the Pocono's 2 wks ago.Forgave myself then her.(Matt Talbot retreat)Like someone else said, He who makes you angry owns you.I was owned many years by alcohol, enough of being a slave to any one thing for this sober woman. Can't say the willingness was present right away I had to pray.ASalways it came. Be free and enjoy these beautiful days to come and the one in front of you. This was a great place to visit.


Member: Nick B
Location: West Sussex, UK
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 18:17:13

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Hi everyone! my name is Nick, and I'm an alcoholic.

First posting to this meeting, but "ODAAT" I'm a while away from my last drink. "It gets better"! They kept telling me in the early days, and they were right..in ways I never imagined!

I live in Burgess Hill, West Sussex, UK, but tomorrow I go on holiday to Baltimore, with my family, for three weeks.

Just got home from my Home Group (WWW is great, but it's still no substitute for a home group, a sponsor, and the Twelve Steps).

Love in Fellowship

Nick


Member: Jim Q
Location: Chicago
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 18:29:51

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Josh J. congratulations on three days. You are three days into the greatest adventure of your life. This is my first visit to an AA net-meeting and I noticed how much the basics of our fellowship is everywhere. I'm thinking of the slogans and of course the Big Book. Those slogans are important Josh. Get a sponsor is the best thing you can do for yourself.

It's been a long time since I heard the old saying sucker me once shame on you; sucker me twice shame on me.

If nothing changes, nothing changes.

Keep coming back!


Member: Kerry B.
Location: Idaho
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 21:55:11

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Why are we all talking about anger??? Just another one of those "coincidents" (where god chooses to remain anonymous) I suppose. When I was new, it didn't take too much to make me angry. Now I see that as the years have gone by, the quality of my anger has too. I've been trying to fight off this anger at my CPA for trying to charge me $600.00 to do my taxes. She only charged me $210.00 last year, the only difference between the two is that our business did better this year, and she knows it. Get what I mean. My mind tells me that this is a different kind of anger than what the big book addresses, but in my heart I know that it is not. Financial insecurity is what I'm dealing with here. No matter what I do to curb my anger (like looking at me), that dang bill from her will still be there. Oh yes, I will definately pray for her, and for me to release this anger. It may take awhile, it is always in God's time, not mine. I know it will be taken care of, of that I have lots of evidence over the years. Thanks for all your sharing, I love you all, even that dang CPA ( I just don't like her), she's one of God's kids too.


Member:   Chuck  S.
Location:   Cntrl   WV>
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 22:11:19

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"Hey Glen H. in Denton Tx." Where ya at dude?? Miss seeing you post!

"TFTS"!!cs


Member: Billy C.
Location: Illinois
Date: 30 Mar 1998
Time: 23:09:16

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Hello, I have been a recovering alcoholic for almost 1 1/2 years now. Thanks to AA I have become a new man. Friends and family have noted a major change in my attitude towards them and in life. Withour AA and the hel of friends and family I never could have come to where I am today.


Member: Martina G
Location: New England
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 07:24:17

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Barbara B -- I love your story about St. Francis. Imagine that kind of acceptance and serenity no matter what happens to you! I guess he really knew the secret of Letting Go and Letting God. Very humbling.

thanks


Member: Glen H
Location: Denton, TX
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 08:55:55

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The St. Francis story reminded me of the monk in the little town who, at sunrise each AM, walked across the town square to ring the bells on the tower. The local constable had had a fight with wife the night before, and was determined to hassle the first person that he met. As the monk crossed the square, the constable asked him where he was going. The monk replied, "I don't know"." "What do you mean, you don't know!", the constable demanded, "Every morning you cross this square to ring that bell, and this morning you don't know where you're going? Now tell me where you're going or you can go to jail." The monk answered again that he did not know where he was going, and the cop took him off to jail. As he slammed the cell door shut, the constable told the monk, "Staying in here a while will teach you to get smart with me. What have you got to say now?" to which the monk replied "I TOLD you I didn't know where I was going."

Sometimes, like St. Frances and the monk, we just go wherever God leads us.


Member: Josh J.
Location: Portland, OR
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 10:58:35

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Hi Everyone. Josh the alcoholic here. Let's here it for four days. YAY God! (and PHEW!) I'm still trying to find a sponsor, actually, I'm trying to let God find one for me....Obvioulsy He makes better choices than I do. I am confident, though. I am going to try to go to 2 meetings today, double my chances, right? As far as anger goes....I'm trying to keep it simple. I always try to remember that when I am confronted with a situation, I simply have 2 choices. I can do something to make it better, or do something to make it worse. Of course a lot of times I thought the thing that would make it better would be to get loaded, but that's a different story. Don't forget to take the blessings God's trying to give you. It makes things a lot easier sometimes.


Member: David B
Location: NM
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 16:17:45

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Hello all I just came accross your site because I have realized that I have a serious problem with alcohol. I attended AA meetings about 9 years ago and blew them off. But at a certain point in ones life you have to face reality and I believe I have arrived there.


Member: Ray C.
Location: Minn
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 16:37:19

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I hope all of you will take time to write to PBS at Viewer@PBS.ORG and tell them that we as a group, do not appreciate Bill Moyers trashing our tradtions of anonymity in front of 20 million viewers every night this week. That's right. He even showed the full names and faces of some people in treatment and then at the end of the =segment told the viewers which ones had "Failed". I find this a TRAVESTY to trash Traditions 4,6,10,11 and 12 repeatedly night after night. Please join me in sending PBS some mail and telling them we cannot stand for this!!!!!!!!! Thanks


Member: Jack O.
Location: SF
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 17:23:39

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You bunch of coffee-drinking alcoholic saps. Stop drinking and just get your lives together. You're just a bunch of cry babies with no will power of your own. I'm sick of you!!!!!


Member: Libby W.
Location: Glenside Pa
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 18:12:46

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Hi Libby alcholic and confused? Read some stuff on here that makes no sense-If that man thinks we are a bunch of cry babies get off the line!Soounds to me like he litens to Dr. Laura too much and has taken her view that this disease can be taken care of by will power. That is B.S. Try will power after a botttle of castor oil!!! Dave stick with the winners. I was told that and did not pay attention and paid a price emotionally.Having a round peg square hole day.Was is more like it.After reading these messages I know I belong.Need to get back to :"Wear the world like a loose garment".You all have a good night and thanks for being here Lib


Member: Randy S.
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 18:52:26

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Peace Everyone, I don't know too much about the power of the will. What I do know is that my "WILL POWER" danm near killed me!!!!! If it wasn't for the people in the program(A.A.)I would haved died.You hang in there David B. from N. M. who knows; You maybe ready for the most enjoyable time of your life; "Living Sober" A.A. and the people in it saved my life and GOD directs it, One day at a time Soberity and Peace Randy S.


Member: RecoverED alcoholic
Location: OHIO
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 19:15:50

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To RAY C From Minnesota In reference to your comment on about PBS. Those shown in "Treatment" on the program do not "represent" AA. "Treatment" as shown and described in that segment has _nothing_ to do with AA.


Member: RecoverED
Location: OHIO
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 19:20:46

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When we are wronged we do not retaliate. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Just because their opinion speaks "against" AA or our program doesn't mean they are "wrong." Retaliation may spoil a later opportunity to help an individual.


Member: Ray
Location: Minn
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 19:37:35

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Ah, Ed, there were at least 5 people who identified themselves as mebers of AA, like the British Guy at the Picnic Table, Like Bill's own Son, Like the Counselor named Maya H. from Illinois who said she was a memeber of AA... It isn't retaliation to ask these people to pratice the Traditions of AA. Please do not attempt to judge my motives. I am a GSR and I am only trying to support our program. I invite you to count for yourself tonight, how many peoplke "Out" themselves as members of the program. Bill W. said himself that NO member has a right to do that at the level of press, radio and film. Thanks For your Input though...........


Member: Glen H
Location: Denton, TX
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 20:00:49

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Before we go too crazy, don't we have some kind of tradition about who the ultimate authority is ? What would he have us do ?


Member: Ray
Location: Minn
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 21:10:27

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Geez Glen, I guess he would have us express ourselves in a loving and kind way through our groups... Like this one...Like I tried to do. Excuse me for telling a truth that some find obnoxious. I have no problem with my relationship with God tonight, and I feel good about my program as well. Thanks Though.......


Member: Mark S.
Location: Ohio
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 22:00:52

Comments

As I understand the guidelines, participation should be limited to AA members. I have read some comments from those who are obviously not members.

I can't imagine anyone saying those things at a closed meeting and I resent them being printed here. Could they be purged. (The comments, not the people) . Am I not understanding something?


Member: Robb W.
Location: Mississauga,Ontario,Canada
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 22:28:01

Comments

Hi gang! Robb, alcoholic. Ray in Minn, I too am a GSR and I just returned from our Area 83 Assembly up here in Kingston. If you are worried that the person on PBS won't here from GSO, don't. I'm sure that they are aware and will take the appropriate steps. Remember that in AA we can disagree without being disagreable. My sponsor told me a story once that really helped me understand. He said that if somebody called him an a-----le, he could do one of two things... Think about it and if he was one he should thank that person for pointing it out for him and then work on the problem, or if he wasn't one that was just that person's opinion and he should respect that. Thanks for letting me have my two cents worth. Robb W.


Member: Glen H
Location: Denton, TX
Date: 31 Mar 1998
Time: 22:45:29

Comments

Sure we can disagree cordially - I couldn't agree with that statement more. However, the behest was to e-mail a Public Corporation, and I disagree with doing that. I think we have something else regarding public controversy.


Member: Josh J.
Location: Portland, OR
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 01:28:09

Comments

Hi, Josh the drunk again. I know I'm only 4 days, but can't we keep it simple? Two choices. Make the situation better or worse. What's the right thing to do? Let go and let God. Right?


Member: Debbie K.
Location: South Dakota
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 03:26:38

Comments

Hi, I'm Debbie and I'm an alcholic. Read some very interesting comments. My so called ''will power'' is what got me drunk and kept me drunk!!! Nine years ago I started to turn my will and my like over to the care of GOD as I understand him on a daily baises. I'm still sober today. I still turn my will and my life over to the care of GOD every day. Now if you ask me thats the power of AA and GOD as we understand him. It works!!! Keep comming back. Thanks for being here, Debbie


Member: Aubrey T.
Location: Singapore
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 03:29:10

Comments

Hi everybody, I'm Aubrey I'm alcoholic. Been off the bottle for slightly a week now. Life feels better now. I hope everyone is feeling the same. To Josh, remember, Don't touch that first drink. Love you all


Member: steve c.
Location: michigan
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 05:11:06

Comments

Hello everyone, I'm steve-alcoholic, I need to remember that I am powerless over people,places, and things, and that when I dwell on them I only hurt myself. My sobriety today is more important than anything going on around me, and if I can keep it simple for myself today, I stand a much better chance at continued recovery.

It is nice to see the many newcomers, stick with it-it gets better. I didn't believe that at first, but when I look at my life now in sobriety, I can't believe that one person can have so much fun.

Glad to hear from you Josh-keep up the good attitude.

Love to you all, steve


Member: Sandy A.
Location: Black Hills, SD
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 07:49:06

Comments

Whew, gotta (GOD A) love em - Sandy A. Alcoholic, newcomers keep haning in there - take what you need from here and leave the rest. There is bunches here I don't need, but it still keeps me sober and grateful that I am sane today.

I like what Josh said, what would make it better, what would make it worse. I look at things differently today - everything I do has either a negative effect or a positive effect and how will that infect other people?

And what does anything really matter? How important is it? Would I rather be right or happy?

Thanks for letting me share, Sandy, celebrating sobriety ODAAT!


Member: Sandy A.
Location: The Heads, SD
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 07:53:53

Comments

Happy April's Fool's Day - isn't there a saying that says "God takes care of Fools and Babies." I am in Good (GOD's) hands today. Sandy A.


Member: J.L.
Location: Massachusetts
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 08:00:06

Comments

To: Ray C. I understand your being upset with the people who chose to break their anonymity at the level of television, however, I feel we should let our opinions be known through our GSO's and eventually to World Service in New York. Not directly to PBS which may be the beginning of some "political" lobbying. We should continue to "neither endorse nor oppose any causes" . This incident effects A.A. as a whole and should be dealt with on that level. I am saying a prayer for Mr. Moyers, I think his heart is in the right place but like so many of our well meaning friends who are not themselves he doesn't get it. Hang in there! Thanks for speaking up.


Member: J.L.
Location: Massachusetts
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 08:21:00

Comments

Kelley C. in Chicago:

Check your e-mail, I've had my last two posts returned. Hope everything is alright with you.

Your Friend,

J.L.


Member: Joanne L.
Location: NE PA
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 08:46:29

Comments

Hi everyone, Joanne, alcoholic. I loved what John C. from Ohio had to say the other day. I haven't checked in for a while. For me, anger and resentments, particularly anger is a responce to my feelings toward someone else. Just like John said, the person is not doing what I want, or the situation isn't going my way, and I'm hurt or frustrated. It's hard for me to express my anger in a healthy way without taking it out on those around me. But, I'm learning. My sponser also told me that what I do with the anger is the important thing. If I hang on to it and feed it, I have resentments. I don't feel very angry lately, thank God, but I have certainly been there. Thanks for letting me share, I love this site.

Also, to Josh J. congratulations on your newfound sobreity. One day at a time.


Member: John C.
Location: Ohio
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 11:10:33

Comments

Good morning. Thanks Joanne, I wish I could take the credit, but everything I know about recovery I heard in these rooms . Way to go Josh! Keep coming back and stay here while you're here. On a more somber note, I need some ESH. One of the guys I sponsor tried to kill himself sat. nite. Came to in the hospital and didn't know how he got there. I told him God did for him what he couldn't do for himself and he better take the F ing hint! While I realize that alot of drunks had to die to pay for my seat, it's not my will that he be one of them. hopefully, it's not God's will either. Anyway, it's back to step 1 and hopefully he'll be totally thorough when we get to his next 4th and 5th. I'd appriciate some E,S,and H on this and let's remember not to get bogged down in resentments (even the justifiable ones) I have faith that anyone driven off by the publicity will be driven back by the disease. As John G. said "let's pray with each other and not on each other"


Member: Patti A.
Location: Santa Rosa, CA
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 12:38:51

Comments

Hi everyone

To Judyrose: Anger is big for many of us. Keep working the steps. They will lead you to the discovery of what fears, expectations, boundary issues, self-abandonment, self-loathing, lack of trust, etc. types of things are underlying the anger. Anger is a response, not a cause. Thanks to the steps and outside help like learning better communication skills, anger management workshops, stress reduction, and assertiveness training, this hot Irish temper has cooled considerably. It still flairs up, but is I don't harm myself or others any longer. It is a god-given emotion. It is the extremes of keeping it locked inside or bludgeoning others with it that causes the harm. A great tool has helped me for a long time. When I catch myself in any stage of anger, I walk myself backwards through the situation. What was I thinking, saying, hearing, seeing just before my feelings shifted. Write it down (even if it seems stupid or irrelevant) and keep track of it. Within a very short period of time you will see a pattern develop that identifies the underlying cause.

To the newcomers: Keep coming back. A life beyond your wildest imaginings is possible. It is worth it!

Now for me - I haven't checked in for a while. My back got alot worse again and I haven't been able to sit at the computer. I am going to another doctor on Thursday to see if I can find out what is wrong. I am in so much fear. And the pain is really wearing on me. My sobriety birthday is just around the corner. I have been reviewing my recovery. I am having a very difficult time with where I am and wrestling out any amount of a good attitude is a great struggle right now, however, I wouldn't trade this for how I felt at this time of year in 1982 for anything. Thanks to all of you and the others like you, I am here to celebrate another day of recovery.

Yours in recovery, Patti


Member: Josh J.
Location: Portland, OR
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 13:04:42

Comments

Hi again. I thank God for all of your encouragement and sharing. It's given me strength and inspiration these last 5 days, more than you'll know. I hit 2 meetings yesterday and I'm shootin' for 2 again today. Thank God I don't have to drink today.


Member:    Chuck   S.
Location: Cntrl   WV.
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 13:14:45

Comments

"Good Morning Everyone"! Chuck S. recovering alkie/addict here. Hope you all are doing well this AM? The temp dropped,it's raining,however it's a wonderful morning just the same.Soberiety has given me the gift of a positive outlook on any given situation,if I choose.It's up to me! For example the stuff about the tv program on addiction the other night-"For Myself!-I don't believe for a min that Mr Moyer's intention was to trash AA,NA or any other recovery program or their traditions.My perception is that he is attempting to educate the public about a problem that effects millions of people,their families and friends as well as employers, education systems and the list goes on and on...As for the people that "Choose" to break "Their" anonymity.-I did NOT see anyone coaxing them or twisting their arms.These people made a CHOICE to appear and make comments about their addictions and their opinion of AA/NA. In the BB as well as 12x12 refers to this as SELF-SEEKING.To me-Everyone has an opinion based on THEIR perception.It's the individuals responsibility to uphold the traditions for themselves as well as for others.Again.. They made the choice to go on camera and speak their opinion!!If Mr Moyer took advantage of these peoples self-seeking to educate the public so be it.Not that I agree, however who's to say that the program didn't help, at least,one drunk find a better way of living.?In my case,when my boss fired me for drinking on the job,he suggested an AA mtg and TX program he read about in the local newspaper. I will always be grateful to him and that paper for pushing me in the doors of this program.Granted I was highly pissed at the time,however my preception is different today.My comment here,on site, is MY OPINION BASED ON MY PERCEPTION of what I Choose to view. I don't have a problem with Mr Moyer or the People who spoke out on his program, however, I don't appriciate someone coming to this site, "SOLICITING" me and/or others to email anyone!!I would,however,refer this person to page 449 of the BB,and posibily look at self and what's going on inside that makes him/her lash out at someone who,in MY OPINION,is trying to HELP NOT HURT the alcholic/addict community.Apparently, this illness has effected Mr Moyer and his family,as a journalist he CHOOSE to speak out in the way he did.I don't recall him sayiny anything to the effect that AA/NA doesn't work.That's just MY OPINION!!!The most important thing in my life today is not to take that first drink/drug and to live a program of recovery.From that comes a positive attitude and outlook onlife. Whatever positive step it takes for an alcoholic/addict to stop using and make positive changes in their/my life, I say "GO FOR IT"!!

TO Randy S. in Baton Rouge La.-check my posting (this site) on 3/30 @ 6:58AM then get back with me at this site ot the address given. THANKS!!

"Hope You All Have A Good Day"!!

"TFTS"!cs


Member: mary w.
Location: KISS in Ks
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 13:25:49

Comments

hello all, thanks for coming here and leaving something for me to take or not.......JOSH- i loved your last comment. you reminded me that it's not the years a person has in the program but, that all we have is today. truth well spoken - you have a great start in here. i hope to hear more from you.

john c. - my ESH - i learned that i couldn't even save my own a**, hp did that for me. and when i sponsor someone - i leave that to hps hands too. i've lost people to this aweful disease. both in and out of the program. had a good friend kill himself. it hurts. i go on working the program. can't change the past, can't change others, but i can change me and my acceptance. i have to turn all over to my hp. but if he wants to know what my opinion is ....... hp knows all, i don't know nuttin.

hugs,

mary w.


Member: mary w.
Location: KISS in Ks
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 13:27:37

Comments

hello all, thanks for coming here and leaving something for me to take or not.......JOSH- i loved your last comment. you reminded me that it's not the years a person has in the program but, that all we have is today. truth well spoken - you have a great start in here. i hope to hear more from you.

john c. - my ESH - i learned that i couldn't even save my own a**, hp did that for me. and when i sponsor someone - i leave that to hps hands too. i've lost people to this aweful disease. both in and out of the program. had a good friend kill himself. it hurts. i go on working the program. can't change the past, can't change others, but i can change me and my acceptance. i have to turn all over to my hp. but if he wants to know what my opinion is ....... hp knows all, i don't know nuttin.

hugs,

mary w.


Member:          anonymous
Location:
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 16:34:47

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Member: Keith C.
Location: Castro Valley, CA
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 18:18:53

Comments

Hello to all you sober people out there. God i love my sober life its alot better than where i was. Maybe some of you will relate to what im about to say. when i was out there all i wanted was to have friends but most of the time the people i was hanging around with were wanting only for me to buy or share drugs and alchole with them it sucked not haveing any true friends i was always sad. I tried and i tried to get people to love me for who i am but the insited on wanting me only for my bags or bottles. when i came to the program (bye the grace of GOD of cource) i new that it would be the same as when i was out there but guess what i was wrong i have so many friends now and im happy im not sad. well thats all i half to say im happly sober with 7 months this is keith singing off. i love you all good bye................................. ........................................................


Member: Keith C.
Location: Castro Valley, CA
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 18:21:11

Comments

Hello to all you sober people out there. God i love my sober life its alot better than where i was. Maybe some of you will relate to what im about to say. when i was out there all i wanted was to have friends but most of the time the people i was hanging around with were wanting only for me to buy or share drugs and alchole with them it sucked not haveing any true friends i was always sad. I tried and i tried to get people to love me for who i am but the insited on wanting me only for my bags or bottles. when i came to the program (bye the grace of GOD of cource) i new that it would be the same as when i was out there but guess what i was wrong i have so many friends now and im happy im not sad. well thats all i half to say im happly sober with 7 months this is keith singing off. i love you all good bye................................. ........................................................


Member: Libby W.
Location: Glenside Pa
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 18:30:42

Comments

Hi everyone.Libby and I am an alcoholic. Geese,just read all scripts from today .I am not in a place to agree or disagree about that addiction show.I am so self absorbed. I'm sick husband is sick dog is ok though.We both were dx. with this f----- hep c I'm trying to get to a place of acceptance.And isn't funny went to my am mtg. it was a BB mtg.Page 449 get what you need and need what you get.Although,can't say I am on the positive up swing just yet.I enjoy coming to this site Iget something each visit. Thank you everyone. Oh ya thanks Monica in Calif.Josh, love your simplicity Libby


Member: Suzanne H.
Location: Ontario Canada
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 20:20:02

Comments

Hi everyone, Suzanne and I am an alcoholic.

When I talk of my health problems here at the coffeepot, I hope I don't get on your nerves.

Many of you know I have been seeing the doctors for about the last 4 months. Well about 5 weeks ago the neurologist ran some blood tests and one result he was unsure about and made an appointment for me with a gastroenterologist. I checked with my family doctor and the result in the test was the presence of antimitochondrial antibodies, which is present in Primary Biliary Cirrhosis (not alcohol related) and also the same disease my mother had. Diagnosed in 1983, she had a liver transplant in 1986 and the disease recurred in 1994 and she died in 1996.

Tomorrow I see the specialist and will learn more about what is going on. I would be lying if I told you I wasn't afraid. I could use some prayers.

I didn't say anything before because I have been trying my best to live one day at a time, I haven't been doing to bad until now, but now I feel as if I could burst.

luv to you all Suzanne


Member: Doreen M
Location: NJ
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 21:17:53

Comments

Hi all - Great to have heard of this site. My first time. To John C. - I recently experienced a similar awakening. A gal I was sponsoring called me - unfortunately after she started drinking (after 6 years of sobriety) to tell me that she was going to take a bottle of pills. Over 100 miles away from her - what could I do. I prayed. Fortunately, she lived and can now share about this when she goes to meetings. It's not been easy for her however. I believe still what they told me 17 years ago when I came in that this program is a gift. I can return it at any time and my misery will be refunded. She's battling hard now, but maybe she found a bottom that she could call her own. For me, I cannot lose sight of what got me to where I was when I walked through the doors. A mess. I never want to go back to that life and I thank God every day for being given another shot at life, a day at a time. Josh - you are going to meet someone so very special. You sound like you are on a really good path making several meetings a day at times. Good for you. I'm going to look for your notes because reading them have helped me so much tonite, you'll never know.

Anger - too too much to share. I've learned after getting myself in pretty bad shape at times that I was probably responding to some "fear". Afraid of losing something. Try to connect with that and see where it takes you. Keep praying about it, but I've also learned to accept my feelings and emotions as part of who I am. I just don't have to trash the place because I'm having a bad day. I'm so grateful to have all of you. Nice, what a small world this really is. Thanks to my buddy, who survived - as she led me to this meeting place.


Member: Randy S.
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 21:32:13

Comments

To Suzanne H. our prayers are with you from the heart of the Bayou land in south Louisiana.Keep on trusting in that POWER Greater than you and you will be O.K.,TODAY.Leave tommrow to it becomes tommrow and then give to GOD. "Nothing happens in GOD's world by mistake"!! Soberity and Peace within. Sober Southern Boy---Randy S.


Member: Libby W.
Location: Glenside Pa.
Date: 01 Apr 1998
Time: 23:23:59

Comments

To Suzanne You have my prayers and my support.Health issues are hard to deal with>Remember you are not alone!When I am away from a mtg. my head can run about what is upcoming,It feels good to come to a keyboard and pound and know someone is reading what I've typed.I don't like to whine but I do have fears.People tell me the antidote to fear is faith.I am learning to listen and listening to learn.(heard that one tonight)God Speed Libby


Member: Chuck M
Location: U.S.A.
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 01:00:22

Comments

Hello my name is Chuck and I am an alcoholic, addict and many other things. The 12&12 p.49 states, "...to become angry when our instinctive demans are threaten..." Any time when I am angry the tenth step (having done the fourth step) comes in handy because when I quit blaming others and look at myself I usally can see what instinct is being threaten. It is usally one of three. A threat to my self presavation, sexaual instinct or a relationship.When I came back to this program 2yrs. ago I was a very angry young man. Case in point was 7 months earlier I had started to put together a shotgun to intimidate my wife who was devorceing me. I had gone to the titie bar and got trashed and when I got home I fiqured I would get a piece, the only thing I got was a lesson in humilalation from the local cops. When I first started to attend meetings, of cource she was to blame and I was a saint but the program got the better of me and I stated getting more honest and admitt to my self (and my sponcer)the exact nature of my wrong and that is my desire for sex had caused harm to a human being and so I apologized as best as possible and after some time she has forgiven me.Do I get angry today? Of cource, but thank God not to that level. I belive today that to pick up again I would be back in the same old squriel cage again.It is because of God, this program and you people that change has been possible in my life.


Member: Josh J.
Location: Portland, OR
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 04:48:50

Comments

Hi Everyone...Josh here...I'm up late, have a very dear friend visiting from Seatle, we've been dicussing my great new life.

Suzanne, I prayed for you as soon as I read your note. I asked God to take your fear from you and surround you in His peace. As hard as it is, try to remember that worrying does nothing but make you feel worse. It also keeps you from remembering that your HP is there waiting to take all of those things you are powerless over...all of them! Promise.

By the grace of God and the love of all of you, I made it to 2 meetings again. Now if I can drag my butt to bed, I can wake up to day 6. Peace to all, and Suzanne, I'll keep praying. Josh


Member: Dave L
Location: NEPA
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 07:44:34

Comments

After a long wait and many resentment today I'm headed to the state capital to get my drivers license back thank god Ilost it on a relaspe in 89 and have been struggling in AA since. My life has changed very much since my first meeting in Jan. of 85 after being sober for five years and getting drunk time and again. I became what I despised a big drunk the you read about in the big book and say I'm grateful my life isn't that bad. Well have not stopped going to meetings and have pull together a few years, a few months, a few days, and a few hours. I love my life today and it will be able to drive again. I learned that I had to get honest in every part of my life. This is part of making admends and pay my debts. It was a hard lesson to learn, I had a chance to grow and reach out to others. To all the people that might read this today wish me luck. thanks for listening this morning. It is so nice to read good things a that people have about you in the morning see thing do chance and life gets better all the time


Member: J.L.
Location: Massachusetts
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 08:02:48

Comments

Suzanne:

You never need to apologize for speaking about your medical problems. The fellowship part of this program, as far as I can figure out, is that we share what is going on in our life good or bad. The fact that you are going through what you are, waiting for test results and diagnosis can be horrendous, and staying sober is being a power of example and an inspiration to us all. I am in the process of working my way through some medical problems. My higher power, my sponser, my group, and this site (as well as the people who both listen to me, and share their own E,S & H) have all been instrumental in my recovery.

Be assured that our prayers are with you.


Member: Eileen
Location: Pa.
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 08:09:44

Comments

Suzanne, you could not have come to a better place for prayers. I believe most of us have become closer to God through our disease. We have learned how to talk to God. You will be in our prayers. Peace of Christ be with you. God love you.


Member: Eileen
Location: Pa.
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 08:21:18

Comments

Suzanne, you could not have come to a better place for prayers. I think most of us have become closer to God through our disease. We have learned how to talk to God. You will not be forgotten. Peace of Christ be with you. God love you.


Member: Pimp Golfer
Location: Compton
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 09:32:54

Comments

I am an acoholoic and i need help


Member: John C
Location: Ohio
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 09:41:28

Comments

Good morning all, how about some jokes. First, a prayer; Dear Lord, so far today I've done all right. I haven't gossiped, lost my temper, been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish, or overindulgent. I'm really glad about that.

But in a few minutes, God, I'm going to get out of bed, and from then on I'm probably going to need a lot more help. Liguori Publications A guy gets diagnosed with brain cancer and the only option is a brain transplant. He goes to the surgeon's office and sees a wall of brains in jars with price tags on them. Most were about $5,000, but on the top shelf, there were two brains that were $50,000 and one that was $100,000. Where did those two $50,000 brains come from?, asked the patient. "Well, the first belonged to a great engineer"the doctor replied. "He built very tall buildings and very long bridges. He was an asset to his community" "The second belonged to a brilliant surgeon. He performed many new procedures and saved many lives. He too, was an asset to society". "And the $100,000 one?" "That is the brain of an alcohic. It's like new , hardly been used".


Member: Kelly J.
Location: Baton Rouge
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 09:49:25

Comments

RANDY S. in Baton Rouge; Remember me, Kelly from the club??


Member: John C
Location: Ohio
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 09:54:31

Comments

sorry about the typo's "forgive me my tresspasses" Liguori published the prayer and Ican't remember where I heard the joke. Yeah I know "keep coming back" I will.


Member: J.L.
Location: Massachusetts
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 10:55:26

Comments

To: "Pimp Golpher" in Compton

If you Look up Alcoholics Anonymous in any phone book you should find a number for the Central Service Office nearest you.

Central Service people will speak with you, and at the least be able to direct you to an A.A. meeting in or near your community that you can get to. They may even be able to provide someone to take you to the meeting (I'M not sure if all CSoffices have this capacity).

Your best bet is to get to a meeting and tell someone face to face that you are new and need help, your higher power will take it from there.

Good Luck!


Member: Suzanne H.
Location: Ontario Canada
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 13:25:40

Comments

Hi everyone, Suzanne, alcoholic.

Well it has been a long morning. All this waiting around before I go to the doctor. In the drinking days it would have surely been disasterous.

Thanks so much for all the prayers.

I would never have got this far without AA, God and everyone here.

I will check in later. Luv Suzanne


Member: libby
Location:
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 15:34:28

Comments

Hi everyone. Libby alcoholic.I first want to say :Suzanne I hope all went well today.Thought about u while at the store and shot one up. In my head need a mtng. I went off on a girl who yeah,. I know she is sick with this disease, but was sick of being mrs. nice ..I paid aprice and left an apology on her machien Sometimes I get sick and tired of being used. This seems to be an uplifting channel sorry to be a downer< this living the right way gets to me! Such an alkie I suppose.


Member: dan
Location: kelso, washington
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 17:26:00

Comments

Hi, I am Dan, and I am an alcoholic. Boy, it is sure difficult to stay sober with baseball and summer around the corner. Mowing the lawn and drinking a beer went hand-in-hand for several years for me. This is will my first, hopefully, sober summer. Need to take one day at a time.


Member: Suzanne H.
Location: Ontario Canada
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 21:50:47

Comments

Suzanne, alcoholic.

Primary Biliary Cirrhosis-first signs of a liver problem, abnormally high blood tests. The diagnosis of PBC is then made by a positive antimitochondrial antibody (AMA) blood test. This antibody is very specific to PBC with over 99% of patients showing a positive AMA. PBC is not due to use of alcohol or chemicals the cause is unknown. Doctors agree it is an abnormal reaction of the immune system that attacks the liver as if it were a foreign body. Prognosis-Many enjoy active lives from 10 to 20 years with little or no symptoms, however in others the disease progresses rapidly and liver failure may occur in just a few years.

MY CASE- test results- all liver functions are normal. I have a positive antimitochondrial (AMA). Because all routine test were normal, the doctor could not figure out "who" ordered the AMA test to begin with. I just looked at him and said "I guess it was God" The doctor justed looked at me. That was ok, I was cool. He is going to run more tests and I have to see him in 4 weeks, but the way I look at it, if it hasn't damaged the liver yet, my chances look better than ever. He figures the liver tests will eventually show some damage. He wants to see me every 6 months to keep an eye on things.

So this is how I see it, 10 to 20 years...that is...alot.. of DAYS...which I choose to LIVE, ONE AT A TIME. Sober.

Thanks for all the prayers Luv Suzanne


Member: Mark S
Location: Ohio
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 22:04:05

Comments

Dan, I've been sober 17 months. I was blessed no to have cravings except once. It was at a ball game on a hot sunny afternoon. I remember how I felt. I chose not to drink that day and each day since then. My sobriety is too precious and the blessings in my life are too profound to risk it.

I still get those occasional thoughts: "Hey, maybe you're not an alcoholic" Then I remember where I was as opposed to where I am today and I accept my alcoholism.

I'm still learning how sick I was when I was out there. You know what to do. You said it in your last sentence. Keep coming back.


Member: fayla
Location:   gleana  ks
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 23:34:24

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hi my name is fayla ive been sober 17 months i have only been going to one maybe 2 meetings r a week i am trying hard to find a sponser in the meetings igo to every time i see someone i think about asking ,they have less time than me or have just relasped. i know ill find one in time . i love my new life and every one always talking about how much a sponser has kept them from relasping.i find myself getting scared ,so far parying and i talk to my brother who has 13 years in recovery so far its worked i am still sober god bless you all and thank you for being there,love and hugs fayla


Member: Ali
Location: California
Date: 02 Apr 1998
Time: 23:59:01

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Ali, I'm an alcholic Josh your willingness is wonderful... Just wanted to check in for a minute. It's been a tough couple of days dealing with the wreckage of my past and yes, there is wreckage in sobriety. When I was drinking and something went wrong it was always "poor me", look at how hard my life is..yada yada yada. Today, wreckage is another opportunity to change things in my life. Do I like it? Not all the time. Do I recognize wreckage when I'm making it? Sometimes. Today, I wanted to be six months down the road. That thought hasn't worked in years, what works is staying in today and realizing God's journey for me is far more important because the destination is always the same.. I end up with God. And Patti, I'm still making a list of questions for God when I finally do see him. I feel better all ready. Suzanne...my prayers are with you...take care.


Member: Glen H
Location: Denton,TX
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 09:01:56

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Ali, that's an interesting thought. When you finally do meet your Maker, who gets to ask the questions? On another thought, two alcoholics were wondering if there were AA meetings in heaven. They agreed that whoever died first would return in a dream and let the other know. After some years, one of them passed on, and shortly thereafter returned in the other's dream.

"I have good news and bad news," he said."the good news is that here in heaven we have an AA meeting every night."

"The bad news is that tomorrow night, you're chairing."


Member: Perry H
Location: Killington , Vermont
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 13:37:49

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Just a note to all my friends back home at the Main Street Morning Group. I really miss the meeting but have to struggle by up here at the Killington Ski Area. This on line meeting has really helped me keep in the right space as I am chaperone of 23 teenage kids ... They really are great. The snow is a bit soggy and I came in to take a well deserved nap, but had to check in first and mention to One of our members not to make a big deal of it if their boss asks them to fold the towels! I just identify with the nerve of those people!

Thanks to all the people that keep this site up, its helping me stay sober another day.


Member: Perry H
Location: Killington, Vermont
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 13:41:41

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Hi , to the Main Street Morning Group

Kepp folding those towels, you know who...

All is well in Vermont.

Love this Site. Thanx


Member: Perry H
Location: Killington, Vermont
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 14:05:31

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Just wanted to say hello to my home group in Stroudsburg , Pa : The fabulous Main Street Morning Group! Everything is cool in Vermont.

(Note to a friend)Don't forget to "Fold the Towels" and not gripe about it....

Thanks to the soldiers that keep this site going, it has really helped me with being more spirtiually centered...

Love from the Green Mountains...


Member: Perry H
Location: Killington, Vermont
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 15:25:26

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Just wanted to say hello to my home group in Stroudsburg , Pa : The fabulous Main Street Morning Group! Everything is cool in Vermont.

(Note to a friend)Don't forget to "Fold the Towels" and not gripe about it....

Thanks to the soldiers that keep this site going, it has really helped me with being more spirtiually centered...

Love from the Green Mountains...


Member: Perry H
Location: Killington, Vermont
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 15:30:53

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Just wanted to say hello to my home group in Stroudsburg , Pa : The fabulous Main Street Morning Group! Everything is cool in Vermont.

(Note to a friend)Don't forget to "Fold the Towels" and not gripe about it....

Thanks to the soldiers that keep this site going, it has really helped me with being more spirtiually centered...

Love from the Green Mountains...


Member: anonymous
Location:
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 17:13:59

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Hey Perr5y, Click the Damn thing one time and one time ONLY!!


Member: still anonymous
Location:
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 17:16:24

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Excuse me, --PERRY!


Member: Perry H
Location: Killington, Vermont
Date: 03 Apr 1998
Time: 20:54:36

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Just a note to all of my friends at the "Main Street Morning Group" in Stroudsburg, Penna. I miss you and all is OK in Vermont.

Special note to my friend: Please "fold the towels without griping" I miss your comments..

There is a little bit of snow left up here.

Love: Perry H


Member: Thomas L.
Location: Warsaw, Poland
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 00:21:10

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Hey Perry does your mouse stick or what? Thomas from Poland. Is this meetins inccredable or what.


Member: Mark W.
Location: Virginia
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 01:56:25

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I've been without a drink for seven days. I hesitate to say I've been sober because emotionally and spiritually I am just as screwed up as I was when drinking. I know, I know, this too shall pass. It gets better, just keep coming back. Take it one day at a time. Let go and let god. I am in psychic turmoil. I believe it will get better. But right now it hurts and I just wanted to let that out. Thanks.


Member: fayla
Location:
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 02:27:07

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hi fayla agian i wont pick on perry iknow how us drunks are sometimes we dont let go soon enough but it seems to get better as we go along my prayers to all of you sometimes i half to take it one hour at atime one thing i keep in mind is something i heard aspeaker say keep doing what your doing what your doing and youii keep getting what your getting god grant us srenity love fayla fayla


Member: Leslie W
Location: NY
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 12:57:33

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Hi - my name is Leslie and I'm an alcholic. I have just returned from 6 months in Australia, where I went to meetings. My friend told me about this online place. Cool. I'm suffereing sever culture shock. A little worried, but reading all your comments gets the head back in the right space. I have just been traveling and not working and am a little afraid of being thrown back into to the fast lane - too fast. Life in NY as a cater. Aughh. Well, I will let you know how it goes - one day at a time. Thanks.


Member: Dave C.
Location: Falls Church, Va.
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 15:38:55

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Hey y'all, Dave the alcoholic. I'm heading for St. Croix, V.I. in late April And would love a meeting list if anyone has one. Peace, love and the blessings of H.P. on you all.


Member: Larry C
Location: Mass
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 18:40:52

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Hello People My name is Larry and I am an alcoholic who spells terrible so please forgive any errors.Its 6:30 pm sat. night and by 7:30 I will be on my way to a meeting,a meeting that I havent been to in 10 years,so I cant wait to see familar faces again.Ive been in and around aa for quite some time now,and one day at a time I have put together a number of years.However because of my do it alone approach,I went out again after 11 years.I thought I could drink again in relative safety,well nothing terrible happened luckily. Point is I forgot to remember when,its very easy to do when your as self centered as I am.So im back where I should be to get help and guidence,strength and understanding,and better yet maybe I can share with other people my relucktance to seek help when we most need it.As a foot note I spend alot of time farting around with my computer and this page was an unexpected delight.Thankyou AA for being here as well as in the real world.LC


Member: Sober Southern Boy
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 19:15:52

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Life without alcohol is sometimes unbearable! But life with alcohol is 10 times worst!! Soberity and Peace within!!!! S.S.B.


Member: Sober Southern Boy
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Date: 04 Apr 1998
Time: 19:16:45

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Life without alcohol is sometimes unbearable! But life with alcohol is 10 times worst!! Soberity and Peace within!!!! S.S.B.