Member:
Joanie O.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
12:24:01 PM

Comments

Coping with holiday expectations is the topic for this week. Iam Joanie alcoholic and with the holidays comming on I know how insane I can become over expectations of myself, looking out for the big I am and accepting invitations without thinking about them .AA has a great letter on holiday problems and how to cope with them. You will be able to get them from your GSR at the meeting . For me holidays bring on mixed emotions  and feelings, my family is spread apart all over the country so my AA family and home group keep the holidays bright and filled with people and sobriety My dearest friend says it is just another day and that keeps the insanity in check for another year. As I go into the holiday season grattitude that I am aware and sober and able to be there for someone else the hand that was always the for me is out to another suffering  alcoholic for that I am responsible. I want to wish all of you a joyous and happy holiday season God is truly in our livesand for that I am grateful with love Joanie O


Member:
Miss Judy in Maine
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
12:42:50 PM

Comments

Thanks, Miss Joannie -- this is an important topic! Over the years my ability to HANDLE holidays has improved in directproportion to how well I listen and follow suggestions1 (Amazing, huh?)

I have to admit the holidays are bitter-sweet. I can't put on a false front when so many people who have been at the core of my life are no longer here to celebrate with -- and the older I get, the longer that list grows! Sure, I'm thankful they touched my life so deeply, but the symbols of turkey and dressing or wreaths and tree lights can bring back a flood of emotions!

So I begin by being honest -- "feeling nostalgic" -- then I say NO to the party-party stuff that I don't belong at. And I attend a few more meetings than usual, and check in with family more often, and do my shopping EARLY so I won't get anxious.

In fact, I try to pay attention to things that come under the label of "balance" -- a word clearly foreign to my vocabulary!

O yeah -- and I start a new gratitude list for the coming year. All these things make me reflective, and positive, and at peace with myself. Happy Honest Holidays, everyone!


Member:
 
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
6:15:11 PM

Comments

My name is George and I am an alcoholic. For me this is a time to be very grateful for my sobriety and my life. It is three years that I lostmy


Member:
George J
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
6:22:09 PM

Comments

My name is George and I am an alcoholic. I am very grateful this time of the year for my sobriety and for my life. It is three years that I lost my Brother to Alcohol Abbuse. On the Sunday before Christmas I go to the Re Hab to attend a meeting, it brings it all back for me. God Bless Me, You, and AA. I go to very few Christmas gatherings, arrive late and leave early,


Member:
Joe D.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
7:10:28 PM

Comments

Joe D., alcoholic. I take the holidays like I do the rest of the year--one day at a time. When I first got sober, my holidays were filled with self-pity, because others could drink and I couldn't. Now I can be around others who are drinking and be happy with my diet cola! That because I'm first of all happy with my sobriety. I never want to go back to where I was before. Holidays are just another 24 hours to get through. I'll deal with them when they get here. Hang in. Be grateful.


Member:
Gaby D. from Quťbec, Canada
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
7:55:03 PM

Comments

My name is Gaby D. and I am an alcoholic; this time of the year is very special for me cause 15 years ago was my last non sober holiday. Ever since, with the help of the program, with the help o God, I lived another 24 hours happy, sober with members of mjy family, and I even got involved in the program. God help me stay sober for this day, and may God help a NEW member to join.


Member:
Rich f.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
8:28:37 PM

Comments

My name is Rich F. I am a very greatful recovering alcoholic. The Holidays used to be just another excuse to drink. Now they are used to help other suffering people get thru them soberly. Our room stays open all day on thanksgiving, christmas and new years eve. I pray that all of you have a safe and sober holiday season. God bless all.


Member:
Nanci Mc.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
8:37:05 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Nanci, an alcoholic. Thanks for all your comments. The holiday season is a challenging time for me. I just had my sobriety birthday of 8 years and this time of year always stirs up lots of emotions. That's why I hit bottom at this time of year, right before Thanksgiving. And the holidays still stir stuff up. Thank God today I don't have to drink to try and feel better. I ask God every day to help me do the next right thing so I wont drink. My group does a Gratitude walk together in the woods on Thanksgiving morning and that really helped my holidays start out right. Then I spent the day with sober friends and topped it off with a meeting at night. It's a challenge not to get wrapped up in the "buying" thing for Christmas so I'm working on staying focused on the real reason for the holiday. To take time to share joy with others as I try to do every day. And as someone else said, to stay out of slippery places. Come late and leave early at those events, but at events with my A.A. group, come early, help as much as I can, help a newcomer feel welcome, and always stay to participate in clean up to leave the place cleaner than we found it.


Member:
Rita M
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
10:32:16 PM

Comments

Hi, Rita an alcoholic here.......

Holidays.......shudder!!!! I love the holidays but I have found that no matter how long I have been sober.....this is the time of year when "expectations" loom out at me.

When I was drinking, I was always disappointed because the other actors in my "play" did not behave as I "expected" and so nothing went according to Rita's Will!

This can still be a problem for me today.....it is no longer a drinking problem, but truly a thinking problem.! I still have to practice "letting go of old ideas".

Hope everyone has a Happy and Sane Holiday Season! Thanks for all the sharing and thanks Joannie for leading the meeting!


Member:
Tim L.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
10:52:36 PM

Comments

This is the first time I've done this on the web. I've been sober for just over 8 years now & a member of AA for about that long.It's funny that I happen to come across this topic tonight (God works in mysterious ways) since this is something that I've been struggling with for the last couple years. Christmas used to br the best time of the year for me & something I looked forward to (after I got sober), however a couple years ago I moved from my home town with my family & now although we go back for Christmas It's really not the same. Since we are only visiting, many commitments to see family & friends come up & it becomes hectic. I need to remember to stay in the day. Not to let expectations (or worries) get in the way of my sobriety, & remember that God is in control & with his help & strength I will stay emotionally balanced & sober through the holidays.


Member:
JOHN H.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
10:54:34 PM

Comments

HELLO IM JOHN H. IM ALCOHOLIC AND THIS A GOOD TOPIC AND NOW I HAVE FOUR HOLIDAY UNDER MY NEW LIFE AND DON'T HAVE LOOK AT WHICH BAR WERE HAD DINNER AND NOT GETTING HOME 3:00 AM OR OTHER OR IN THE TRUCK TODAY WHICH WAS GREAT BECAUSE I WORK THE PROGRAMS THE TURKEY DAY HAD GREAT ONE BEAUSE I GOT GO MY AUNT PLACE AND GREAT DINNER THEN AFTER THAT WENT TO MEETING AND AND THAT WAS INCREDABLE THAT THEY WAS OPEN AND KNOWING ABOUT PEACE OF MIND AND THE ACTION OF DOING IT TODAY I LOOK AT THE DAY AT 1,400 MINTINES IN DAY OR 86,400 SECONDS IN THIS DAY SO SOME TIME I LOOK SECOND OR MINTUNE THAT WE HAVE OF LIVE


Member:
JOHN H.
Date:
11/30/97
Time:
10:54:51 PM

Comments

HELLO IM JOHN H. IM ALCOHOLIC AND THIS A GOOD TOPIC AND NOW I HAVE FOUR HOLIDAY UNDER MY NEW LIFE AND DON'T HAVE LOOK AT WHICH BAR WERE HAD DINNER AND NOT GETTING HOME 3:00 AM OR OTHER OR IN THE TRUCK TODAY WHICH WAS GREAT BECAUSE I WORK THE PROGRAMS THE TURKEY DAY HAD GREAT ONE BEAUSE I GOT GO MY AUNT PLACE AND GREAT DINNER THEN AFTER THAT WENT TO MEETING AND AND THAT WAS INCREDABLE THAT THEY WAS OPEN AND KNOWING ABOUT PEACE OF MIND AND THE ACTION OF DOING IT TODAY I LOOK AT THE DAY AT 1,400 MINTINES IN DAY OR 86,400 SECONDS IN THIS DAY SO SOME TIME I LOOK SECOND OR MINTUNE THAT WE HAVE OF LIVE


Member:
Brian M-B
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
2:03:45 AM

Comments

My Name is Brian M-B and I am an alcoholic. from Coquitlam British Columbia Canada.

In 2 weeks, God willing, I will be taking my 2nd cake. I never would have believed in my wildest dreams that I would be attending a meeting on the internet. This is just one of many things that I have to be grateful for. If anyone out there is going through a rough time.......remember one thing........this too shall pass---------don't leave before the miracle happens..


Member:
Brenda A
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
12:00:41 PM

Comments

Happy Sober Holidays Everyone:

I just returned Sunday from the best Thanksgiving I have ever experienced. I spent 4 days in Swansboro, NC surrounded the wonderful fellowship of AA the entire time. Geographically the area is beautiful and also there are some beautiful recovery people in the area. As for the topic I try not to place expectations on the holidays as this only allows me to experience disappointments. I have felt like nothing was really bothering me during the holidays but I have been so "sensitive" and have tears so quickly but these tears have been for gratitude and the spirituality that is in my life today. Holidays mean to me more meetings and more time with my AA family. thanks for my message for today about this too shall pass...don't leave before the miracle happens...you helped me receive a message from my HP!

Love to All!


Member:
Jim D.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
12:21:20 PM

Comments

My name is Jim, I'm an alcoholic.

Thanks everyone for the inspiring comments. I'm 22 days sober and thanking A.A. and God for every- one of them. As for the holidays, I really have no expectations yet as I'm trying to keep my feet planted in today. I guess I'll take them a day at a time. Thanks, again for being who you all are and thank you GOD for the fellowship. Happy Holidays!


Member:
Jeff K.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
2:15:09 PM

Comments

Hi All, I'm Jeff, alcoholic, from Los Gatos, CA. My sponsor told me about this site.

On Saturday, I visited a friend in Tracy, not far from here. He is doing a nine year stretch at one of our many state prisons. My girlfriend and I were his first visitors. He has been locked up for more than two years. Words fail to describe prison, if you have never been. My friend stole a pair of Levis, and due to many prior offences, he was convicted of burglary rather than shoplifting. His release date is Dec 2003. What does all this mean? For me, I have to stop feeling sorry for myself, and realize how lucky I am. I have done the same things he has, and here I sit nearly 11 years clean and sober. Compared to my past life, things are perfect. When my mind starts to run wild during the Holidays, I need to remember that most of the crap I think about is only in my head, and that I'm not sitting in the jiont. God bless you all, and get your butt to that meeting. Love, and keep comming back.


Member:
KIM K
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
2:20:00 PM

Comments

HI EVERYONE MY NAME IS KIM AND I AM AN ALCOHOLIC.THE HOLIDAYS AND DEALING WITH THEM HAS BEEN ON MY MIND ALOT LATELY SINCE IT HAS BEEN DISCUSSED IN MEETINGS I HAVE BEEN GOING TO. I LIVE IN ARIZONA NOW AND MY FAMILY IS BACK IN N.Y. WERE I AM FROM SO THAT IS HARD AND THAT I BELIEVE IS WHY THE HOLIDAYS ARE HARD FOR ME. I LIVE WITH A FAMILY NOW WHO WHEN THEY ALL GET TOGETHER THERE IS DRINKING GOING ON. I HAVE ALMOST 18 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY AND BASICALLY HAVE BEEN O.K. AROUND PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN DRINKING, BUT THANKSGIVING THERE WERE JELLO SHOTS BEING PASSED AROUND AND BOY I JUSTED WANTED TO TASTE ONE NOT SO MUCH TO GET DRUNK OR USE BUT TO JUST HAVE ONE. WHEN THINGS LIKE THAT HAPPEN TO ME I QUESTION MY SOBRIETY AND HOW STRONG I AM IN MY PROGRAM, THANKSGIVING NIGHT I WENT TO A MEETING. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME ON THE WEB AND I AM GRATEFUL I AM PERMITTED TO RAMBLE ON. THANKS, I AM TRULY GRATEFUL FOR WHO I AM AND WHAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IN MY SOBRIETY. NOT SO MUCH MATERIAL THINGS BUT OF AN INNER PEACE.


Member:
Diane R. in MA
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
4:11:43 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Diane and very grateful to be sober. You all have said a lot of great things. The holidays can be bitter-sweet to me also. When I keep it in the day, things go alot smoother and I'm less stressed. My husband and I have planned to visit the children in Michigan, but health-wise he's not doing that great. I'm putting this in God's hands and see what he has in store for us. Whatever the outcome, I know that it is His will. My life is so much better since I stopped drinking and since I try to practice God's will for me, which at times is difficult. As I've heard many times, I Can't, He can, and I'm going to let him. Have a great sober week and let's all try to take it ONE DAY AT A TIME.


Member:
Rich L. N.E. phila.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
5:20:11 PM

Comments

Hi my name is Rich and i am an alcoholic.Holidays are rought for me too, especially Chriatmas, It's so commercial and it seems so fonny I have to take Jim D. message to heart, stay in today. Why make the holidays look rough, this just might be the best and eazyest time of my life. Only GOD knows, so I have to stop projecting. Thanks again to Jim D. and keep the faith.


Member:
Rich L. N.E. phila.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
5:20:37 PM

Comments

Hi my name is Rich and i am an alcoholic.Holidays are rought for me too, especially Chriatmas, It's so commercial and it seems so fonny I have to take Jim D. message to heart, stay in today. Why make the holidays look rough, this just might be the best and eazyest time of my life. Only GOD knows, so I have to stop projecting. Thanks again to Jim D. and keep the faith.


Member:
Rich F. Peru, In.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
6:46:24 PM

Comments

to JimD. from Rich F. in peru ,In. there was a time in my early sobriety that 22 minutes seemed like an eternity. Keep the faith brother. We all got here the same way ,one day at a time. I'l keep all of my new cyber aa's in my prayers. God bless all


Member:
frank b (portland oregon)
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
7:47:38 PM

Comments

frank b (portland oregon) hi everyone, i'm frank and i am an alcololic. holidays and how to deal with them is a great and appropriate topic...i just think about my last xmas drunk in 1979..i was on my way to a party to meet the parents of a new girlfriend and decided to stop at a bar on the way..i never left the bar that night i was passed out faced down on the floor..i'll never forget the humiliation next morning when i woke up...26 days after that i took my last drink and haven't had a drink since by the grace of God, the 12 steps and this program..today i know for me the most important focus is today... one day at time (bottom line is that is really all we have)...and today i haven't had a drink and probably won't cuz i asked God to do for me what i couldn't do for myself...read the last couple of paragraphs on page 25 in our owners manual... read it and believe it..and have a sober one day at a time..thank God for AA and AA for God..


Member:
Marainne S.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
8:23:21 PM

Comments

This holiday season has been the easiest for me in my eight years of sobriety because I'm finally learning how to be true to myself. I had Thanksgiving here at home with my daughter and some family and it was great. I'm more able to do what makes me happy and not worry about pleasing everyone and doing what looks right. This has been a diffficult year for me as far as staying sober. I've lost touch with going to regular meetings because I moved. I'm so grateful to still be sober and alive and i thank God that i have a chance today. It's the simple things that bring joy and I have to remember to let God in and let go of the outcomes. I wish you all peace and continued sobriety.


Member:
Darlene K.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
9:15:28 PM

Comments

Hi, my name's Darlene and I'm an alcoholic. I have been sitting here for quit some time trying to think of something profound to say. I am one of those people at meetings who says pretty much what's on my mind and happening to me in the moment, which I am told is where I am supposed to be at with 9 months sober, but here I felt I could be thoughtful and introspective. WRONG!!!! I guess that just is not where I am at. Sorry I didn't stick to the subject, but I at least wanted to say "hi". Thanks for being here.


Member:
Perry in PA
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
9:44:11 PM

Comments

I'm Perry from Pennsyulvania Just wanna thank Brian MB for "This too shall pass" ---Don't leave before the miracle happens!

Man, I hate to wait sometimes.Tell GOD to hurry up, I need some answers!

PS, I am also your groups treasurer... Please, all you alkies, feel free to visit " Pass the Hat" from the Home page of this web site and contribute. We need donations to run this meeting. All extra, if any, wil be sent to GSO! Thanks from the Honeymoon capitol of the East.


Member:
Barry H.
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
10:26:35 PM

Comments

Hi ! I'M an alcoholic, my name is Barry & I'm greatful to be here sober with people who understand me. I drank because of expectations that were not met of myself and others. My soberity and the steps of "recovery" have taught me to be leary of any expectations. I ask , some power that I am not , each morning to help me better understand and except his will for me for that day. Then sometimes during the day I say the short version"If it be Thy Will". If something doesn't happen the way I thought it would, it just wasn't "His Will"- it is nice to have a scape goat !


Member:
Phil R in Florida
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
10:44:09 PM

Comments

Hi everyone I'm Phil and wish you happy holidays. The holidays bring the busiest time of the year but, also the warmest. The thought of Christmass displays I expect will bring to mind all that I have to be thankfull for. Thanks to Him for all his goodness and lovingkindness.

Expectations are usually what we project outside ourselves. This year, with my first sober I expect myself to continue to grow one day at a time and enjoy the world and all in it without being smashed.

When I quit expecting the world or people to be a certain way I can start to appreciate it for the way it is, who I am and be thankfull that God can show me the world through hIs eyes.


Member:
Dan C
Date:
12/1/97
Time:
11:22:40 PM

Comments

My name is Dan and I am a very grateful alcoholic. For myself, I try not to blow the holidays out of proportion, especially with the kinds of expectations I had as a child. I am duel addicted. My other addition is that of "more." Booze, fun, sex - you name it. If it made me feel good then more was better. Today I realize that sometimes less is better and tends to make me appreciate the things God has given me; most of all sobriety "one day at a time." A sober Ground Hog Day is better than a drunken Christmas. To me Christmas is an another day, though a very special day at that as I celebrate my HP. I kind of leave it at that. As a result I always end up receiving a bonus on Christmas. It all starts out for me with a mid-night gathering with some of my fellow drunks where we talk about graditude, close with the Lord's pray and sing the most pitiful version of Silent Night you ever heard. After the meeting we I walk out into the cold night air, look up and thank God and feel the magic in the air. Merry Christmas to you all, and don't forget, HP's special gift to you this holiday season - your sobriety given to you on a daily basis. - Dan C from Oklahoma


Member:
Maureen L.
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
12:11:00 AM

Comments

Hi - I'm Maureen L. from PA and I'm an alcoholic. The holidays don't bother me anymore. I have been able to take one day at a time ever since someone told me - at a time when I didn't think I had anything to be grateful for - that I could be grateful for just not having to take a drink. That's true - I no longer have to have a drink, and that's a lot to be grateful for. If I keep that thought in my head and heart, I find that I don't have the desire to pick up a drink. I just have the desire to maintain my freedom from having to pick up a drink. At least it's worked for me for the last 18 1/2 years. I must admit, though, the last few years - since I lost my husband and my entire birth family - have been a little harder. However, being grateful for my children and grandchildren also helps. I thank God every night that my grandchildren don't ever have to see me the way my children did!

Happy Holidays to all.


Member:
Cherise D.
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
7:54:49 AM

Comments

Hi I'm Cherise and I'm a grateful Alcoholic!

Great topic Joanie and thanks everyone for sharing. Expectations is a big one for me too. All my years growing up with my mother it was always about how everything looked, how expensive the gifts were and how we could impress everyone else. I have learned through this program how none of that is of any importance. I just would like to share that this Thanksgiving I cooked a turkey (with no stress) for my 3 yr old and my sober boyfriend. We didn't even eat at the table. We ate dinner at the coffee table lit some candles and it was the most peaceful Thanksgiving I ever had. When he said grace I cried with gratefulness and happiness. It was neat. I am so unbelievably grateful for my life and my sobriety today. I am sponsoring someone at the jail, and like someone said earlier, it helps me so much because I am no different from her and it could have been me. I am really having a rough time right now with my Ex, but I am at such PEACE for some reason. I have no idea what the outcome of all this custody stuff will be, but that 3rd step and last weeks topic is in action. I know I'm going to be ok today and that in itself is a miracle! Hope everyone has a safe and sober Holiday! Thank you all for being here to help me get through yet a tough time in my recovery. The not knowing is the hardest part and I know GOD will help me One Day At A Time. Love to All!


Member:
lynne w, calif.
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
8:51:09 AM

Comments

hi Im lynne alcolholic in Ca, gratitude is such a great topic, it put me back into today,thats hard sometimes,no one said it would be easy,happy holidays everyone god bless,keep cooming back.


Member:
David C., Asheville, NC
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
9:20:36 AM

Comments

Hi, everyone. I am really glad I stumbled on to this site. My name is David and I am an alcoholic. Happy Birthday Brian. This is my 14th sober holiday season. The first one I was in treatment and "too sick to travel". I could have not stayed sober if I had gone around my family, so I did not celebrate the Christmas thing that year. Since being in the program, the holiday season does not mean as much to me. I try to follow the principles in all my days.

This year however is different because I turn 50y/o 12/25. It is the "this stuff is real birthday". I am really looking forward to the next 50. When I came into the rooms, I was dying. Now I am living.

Much love to all of you. You are new friends I have not met yet.


Member:
Catherine L. - Ann Arbor
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
9:29:37 AM

Comments

Hi everyone, I'm Catherine and I'm an alcoholic. Thanks for the topic. I too have to watch my expectations of the holidays. This is an especially difficult year for me. My son and I went to my parents house for Thanksgiving. It wasn't really what I wanted to do, but something I felt I had to do. That night my son(he's 16)and I went to an open talk. It was great to be able to share the program with him, to stand there holding hands, saying the Lord's Prayer with 100 other alcoholics. It brought tears to my eyes. It made the day ok for me, do the family thing and then be with other recovering people. That is what is important to me, especially during this time of year. I need to be with people who understand me, know where I've been and can help me on the path to a better life. I also need to remeber that any day, holiday or not, is just 24 hours. I can get through anything by taking it just one day at a time. Have a great day everyone!


Member:
Catherine L. - Ann Arbor
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
9:29:58 AM

Comments

Hi everyone, I'm Catherine and I'm an alcoholic. Thanks for the topic. I too have to watch my expectations of the holidays. This is an especially difficult year for me. My son and I went to my parents house for Thanksgiving. It wasn't really what I wanted to do, but something I felt I had to do. That night my son(he's 16)and I went to an open talk. It was great to be able to share the program with him, to stand there holding hands, saying the Lord's Prayer with 100 other alcoholics. It brought tears to my eyes. It made the day ok for me, do the family thing and then be with other recovering people. That is what is important to me, especially during this time of year. I need to be with people who understand me, know where I've been and can help me on the path to a better life. I also need to remeber that any day, holiday or not, is just 24 hours. I can get through anything by taking it just one day at a time. Have a great day everyone!


Member:
Catherine L. - Ann Arbor
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
9:30:35 AM

Comments

Hi everyone, I'm Catherine and I'm an alcoholic. Thanks for the topic. I too have to watch my expectations of the holidays. This is an especially difficult year for me. My son and I went to my parents house for Thanksgiving. It wasn't really what I wanted to do, but something I felt I had to do. That night my son(he's 16)and I went to an open talk. It was great to be able to share the program with him, to stand there holding hands, saying the Lord's Prayer with 100 other alcoholics. It brought tears to my eyes. It made the day ok for me, do the family thing and then be with other recovering people. That is what is important to me, especially during this time of year. I need to be with people who understand me, know where I've been and can help me on the path to a better life. I also need to remeber that any day, holiday or not, is just 24 hours. I can get through anything by taking it just one day at a time. Have a great day everyone!


Member:
Kay S.
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
10:13:07 AM

Comments

Hello all! I'm Kay and I'm an alcoholic. I have only been sober for about 2 months now so I wasn't quite sure how to handle the holiday season. I was happy to be reminded that it's just another 24 hours I have to get through. As far as the expectations part, I just keep in mind what a friend once told me..."Expectations about other people are just predetermined disappointments." So, I focus mainly on what I need to do to make me happy. I do the best I can, and if it be God's will, it somehow works out. Even if it isn't quite what I had in mind. I'm grateful you are all here with your words of wisdom. It really helped this newcomer put things in perspective for me.

Happy Holidays to all!!

Kay S. in Wisconsin


Member:
Doug A UK
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
1:46:55 PM

Comments

I just printed off all the shares in the meeting. Twelve pages in all, and I identify with most of what has been shared, but I unusually want to share a Christmas message as much as an alcoholic story. Not a religious witness you understand, but what happened to this alcoholic one Christmas time. My share will, I hope, show the newcomer that if Christmas say is the day of goodwill to all men, then an AA day, any AA day, is the time of goodwill to all men. Any one of us can go to whatever lengths it takes to pass the message to the still suffering alcoholic.

The story goes back to 1984 - November 25th. It was a cold, wet, late autumn night in Plymouth UK, and I was new in town, drunk and homeless. For you colonial cousins in the Us, I slept in a fishing boat about 30 paces from the mayflower steps. Somehow I feel that those puritan ancestors would not have approved. The problem was that the fishermen had not bothered to clean out the bottom of the boat, so it was somewhat slimy, smelly and covered with fish guts, slime and blood. I passed out in the chum in the bilge, and awoke the next morning feeling a little rough to say the least. At 11 am I was stricken with a spiritual experience of the flash bang variety. That night I arrived at my first AA meeting that I had attended with any honesty. Behold the fellowship, here was the last bastion of the great unwashed. God knows what patience they showed me. They gritted their teeth and studiously managed not to hold their noses, whilst hanging on to their lunches, and offered a warm welcome. This is the UK and the tea was obligatory of course I was so shaky that I lost my tea. They mopped it up and gave me half a cup. I managed that one using one hand to hold the other. I think I cried. They said nothing. I remember very little of what was said, but I did "find", a packet of cigarettes in my pocket. Absolute luxury. A whole packet of real cigarettes. Even more amazing was that they asked me to come back and somehow I knew that they meant it. The only resentment that I picked up was that they made me laugh, and I wanted to feel sorry for myself. I remembered that I had not laughed for about six months or so. In fact a little dog had crossed the road to avoid me the day before, and I was destroyed. When dogs cross the street to avoid you, you are at the bottom.

Today - well. I have a beautiful wife and three lovely children. We had an AA wedding. ZoŽ Ann Lois is named after the first ladies of AA. She is 11 now and loves the programme in Al-ateen. My wife Theresa is a solid member of Al-anon. Robert William, named after Bill and Dr. Bob, is a lovely boy, and the baby, Christopher is named for the higher power.

This Christmas we are having two members round for Christmas lunch and we will have an AA Christmas.

That first Christmas, well a member asked me around to his house for coffee on Christmas eve, because he knew that I had no-one and that I would spend Christmas alone. I went back to my flat on January 17th. What a fellowship!


Member:
Doug A UK
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
1:47:28 PM

Comments

I just printed off all the shares in the meeting. Twelve pages in all, and I identify with most of what has been shared, but I unusually want to share a Christmas message as much as an alcoholic story. Not a religious witness you understand, but what happened to this alcoholic one Christmas time. My share will, I hope, show the newcomer that if Christmas say is the day of goodwill to all men, then an AA day, any AA day, is the time of goodwill to all men. Any one of us can go to whatever lengths it takes to pass the message to the still suffering alcoholic.

The story goes back to 1984 - November 25th. It was a cold, wet, late autumn night in Plymouth UK, and I was new in town, drunk and homeless. For you colonial cousins in the Us, I slept in a fishing boat about 30 paces from the mayflower steps. Somehow I feel that those puritan ancestors would not have approved. The problem was that the fishermen had not bothered to clean out the bottom of the boat, so it was somewhat slimy, smelly and covered with fish guts, slime and blood. I passed out in the chum in the bilge, and awoke the next morning feeling a little rough to say the least. At 11 am I was stricken with a spiritual experience of the flash bang variety. That night I arrived at my first AA meeting that I had attended with any honesty. Behold the fellowship, here was the last bastion of the great unwashed. God knows what patience they showed me. They gritted their teeth and studiously managed not to hold their noses, whilst hanging on to their lunches, and offered a warm welcome. This is the UK and the tea was obligatory of course I was so shaky that I lost my tea. They mopped it up and gave me half a cup. I managed that one using one hand to hold the other. I think I cried. They said nothing. I remember very little of what was said, but I did "find", a packet of cigarettes in my pocket. Absolute luxury. A whole packet of real cigarettes. Even more amazing was that they asked me to come back and somehow I knew that they meant it. The only resentment that I picked up was that they made me laugh, and I wanted to feel sorry for myself. I remembered that I had not laughed for about six months or so. In fact a little dog had crossed the road to avoid me the day before, and I was destroyed. When dogs cross the street to avoid you, you are at the bottom.

Today - well. I have a beautiful wife and three lovely children. We had an AA wedding. ZoŽ Ann Lois is named after the first ladies of AA. She is 11 now and loves the programme in Al-ateen. My wife Theresa is a solid member of Al-anon. Robert William, named after Bill and Dr. Bob, is a lovely boy, and the baby, Christopher is named for the higher power.

This Christmas we are having two members round for Christmas lunch and we will have an AA Christmas.

That first Christmas, well a member asked me around to his house for coffee on Christmas eve, because he knew that I had no-one and that I would spend Christmas alone. I went back to my flat on January 17th. What a fellowship!


Member:
Doug A UK
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
1:48:12 PM

Comments

I just printed off all the shares in the meeting. Twelve pages in all, and I identify with most of what has been shared, but I unusually want to share a Christmas message as much as an alcoholic story. Not a religious witness you understand, but what happened to this alcoholic one Christmas time. My share will, I hope, show the newcomer that if Christmas say is the day of goodwill to all men, then an AA day, any AA day, is the time of goodwill to all men. Any one of us can go to whatever lengths it takes to pass the message to the still suffering alcoholic.

The story goes back to 1984 - November 25th. It was a cold, wet, late autumn night in Plymouth UK, and I was new in town, drunk and homeless. For you colonial cousins in the Us, I slept in a fishing boat about 30 paces from the mayflower steps. Somehow I feel that those puritan ancestors would not have approved. The problem was that the fishermen had not bothered to clean out the bottom of the boat, so it was somewhat slimy, smelly and covered with fish guts, slime and blood. I passed out in the chum in the bilge, and awoke the next morning feeling a little rough to say the least. At 11 am I was stricken with a spiritual experience of the flash bang variety. That night I arrived at my first AA meeting that I had attended with any honesty. Behold the fellowship, here was the last bastion of the great unwashed. God knows what patience they showed me. They gritted their teeth and studiously managed not to hold their noses, whilst hanging on to their lunches, and offered a warm welcome. This is the UK and the tea was obligatory of course I was so shaky that I lost my tea. They mopped it up and gave me half a cup. I managed that one using one hand to hold the other. I think I cried. They said nothing. I remember very little of what was said, but I did "find", a packet of cigarettes in my pocket. Absolute luxury. A whole packet of real cigarettes. Even more amazing was that they asked me to come back and somehow I knew that they meant it. The only resentment that I picked up was that they made me laugh, and I wanted to feel sorry for myself. I remembered that I had not laughed for about six months or so. In fact a little dog had crossed the road to avoid me the day before, and I was destroyed. When dogs cross the street to avoid you, you are at the bottom.

Today - well. I have a beautiful wife and three lovely children. We had an AA wedding. ZoŽ Ann Lois is named after the first ladies of AA. She is 11 now and loves the programme in Al-ateen. My wife Theresa is a solid member of Al-anon. Robert William, named after Bill and Dr. Bob, is a lovely boy, and the baby, Christopher is named for the higher power.

This Christmas we are having two members round for Christmas lunch and we will have an AA Christmas.

That first Christmas, well a member asked me around to his house for coffee on Christmas eve, because he knew that I had no-one and that I would spend Christmas alone. I went back to my flat on January 17th. What a fellowship!


Member:
David C., Asheville, NC
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
3:39:50 PM

Comments

Thanks for sharing, Doug. I keep forgetting what my social drinking was all about. I hope to make it to a convention in UK sometime.


Member:
Mike M, Pittsburgh
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
3:49:16 PM

Comments

Thanksgiving day was spent with my in-laws and it was still another good day to be sober.


Member:
Mary Jane G.
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
4:08:33 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Mary Jane and I'm an alcoholic. I have been sober for twelve years but only attending meetings for about five. This past year I found out that I have Fibromyalgia which is like arthritis of the muscles. It is very painful and I am tired most of the time. My husband has been an alcoholic for years but now it is getting worse. Because of my condition I do not get out a lot but I know I need A.A. meetings. I figured I could get started by attending this one. Usually I don't relax at Christmas like I would like to . I always have the family dinner but this year I'm not because of the FM. My family lives out of state and I really miss them around the holidays. I don't enjoy my husband's family because all they do is sit around and drink. I haven't had an urge to drink in 12 years but I don't consider their celebration any fun. I just have to remember that it's only one day and with God's help I can make it. I am so happy that I have found this group and I hope like the lost sheep you will take me back in the fold. May you all have a peaceful and God-felt Christmas.


Member:
Frank K
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
6:52:32 PM

Comments

"Worry Works".everything I ever worried about never happened.DOS 2/8/64


Member:
mary h.
Date:
12/2/97
Time:
8:23:27 PM

Comments

Mary H.- arkansas this is a very strange holiday season- first one without husband and son. the house is empty and quiet with just my daughter and myself and the animals. probably will help a family in need to keep things in perspective, we were there not long ago. glad to be sober and alive, and that i think i just figured this thing out. next step bigger on line meetings, if not i know where to come now. i'm glad it is just one day at a time, and that there is only 24 hours to get through. happy holidays, aa stronger and meeting better. mary h.


Member:
Adam R
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
12:30:42 PM

Comments

Hi im ADAM R alcohalic the holidays are a good topic for me most of the time Im gone because of work and its better for me that way, instead of dealing with the caoss of christmass I usally get to spend one on one with my relatives. For me that is nicer than seeing every one all at once. This year is going to be a littel different Im home on an injury at work, Ill be home for another three months. I spent thanks given in pain because I had surgery the day befor on my shoulder. So scince this was a last minute thing every one had previous plans. Everything went really nice my friend Hank that I went to treatment with came down and spent the day and we had a lot of fun, it's funney how things work out and we have started our own tradition and that's special to me to friend's like that in my life today, in fact all of my relationships that I have with people are trulley special and for this I am truelly gratefull. Well thats it from this end thanks for letting me share and god bless. adam r


Member:
Artie
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
2:03:16 PM

Comments

Hi everyone my name is artie and I went to my first meeting of AA last sunday it was a very big one. I am a 34 yo gay male HIV+ I( have been sober now for 12 days and with all the Holiday cheer it is getting quite hectic. I picked a hell of a time to decide to stop buit it wa endangering my health and destroying my relationship to the point where my other half movedout we are still together but living in seperate homes.


Member:
Jan J. - Phoenix AZ
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
2:05:43 PM

Comments

Jan J., alcoholic. I love the holiday season. Because I get a public opportunity to focus on things outside of myself! Gratitude and thanks from the heart expressed at Thanksgiving, and rejoicing in my faith at Christmas time....I can leave the committee in my head and focus on others! Yea, Holidays! I've learned with the help of the people in this fellowship to keep things in perspective at this time of year, and I've also learned to discipline my thoughts and actions as well, with help from all you AA folk. I've learned to feel comfortable in turning down party invitations where everyone is drinking. I've also learned that sparkling cider in a champagne glass looks just like champagne! I've learned how to have fun without alcohol. And when I wake up each morning without a hangover and with my memory of the night before intact, I feel wonderful because I made it another 24 hours without a drink! Thank you, members of AA!


Member:
artie
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
2:15:32 PM

Comments

Hi everyone I was cut off but i am back


Member:
John L. from Jersey
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
7:27:17 PM

Comments

Hi everyone. John L. alcoholic.

Gratitude is a great topic for this time of year and I've heard a lot of good things in this meeting. Being sober means everything to me and so many good things have happened to me since I put the booze down that I can't help but be grateful. I'm now able to see all of God's blessings that He has given me. I'm a little less selfish now than 9 years ago and I try to think of others instead of myself all the time.

This was probably the best Thanksgiving I've had yet and I'm looking forward to Christmas just to have the opportunity to make someone else happy.

I also look forward to growing in AA. I go to a meeting a day and enjoy every one of them. I have found great peace by being active in this program and wish all of you a happy, holy, and sober holiday season


Member:
Chris P.
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
8:29:53 PM

Comments

Hello everyone, my name is Chris and I'm an alcoholic. This is my first time here and it's great to be here. This topic has me thinking of many things. Like a good alcoholic , I have already begun projecting. In my current situation, this will be the first Christmas I will not be spending the holiday with my two sons. Although I will not be alone, I'm still feeling hurt and sorry for myself. It looks like a good time to make some more meetings. The most important part of my recovery is the love and support I find in the fellowship.


Member:
joy a. from Vancouver BC
Date:
12/3/97
Time:
10:33:22 PM

Comments

Hi, my name is Joy and I'm an alcoholic. I sobered up in August 1987. My first Christmas was kind of tough for me because I was very lonely and afraid of drinking because everyone seemed to be into the "spirit" of the season. I spent a lot of time at the local alano club hanging out with other people in recovery and attending lots of different meetings. This Christmas seems to be a long way off. I enjoy spending time with my family and we usually have a good time over the holidays. That's a big change from the old days. Alcohol is very cunning, powerful and baffling but through the grace of God I have not had cravings for it for a long time. My heart goes out to those out there that are still in pain. Try to remember, do not pick up the first drink. See you.


Member:
PAT L KANSAS CITY
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
7:01:32 AM

Comments

HI, Im Pat L in Kansas City and Im an alcoholic and exdruggy. Everyone in my family is in AA and they have much more sobriety than I. I usually slip during the Holidays. So far, 1daat,(1 day at a time)I managed to make it throught thanksgiving. I did everything wrong.Got extremely tired, let myself get hungry of all things,didnt call my sponsor. What I did do correctly was pray in the morning for help not to drink and say thank you at night for my sobriety for that day. Immediately got to a meeting ASAP and called my sponsor ASAP. My next hurdle is going to a family reunion, celebrate that part of Christmas. Already celebrated with my wifes side of the family. That was tough also. Then DEC 14th, is my wedding aniversary and Birthday. Then Christmas with the immediate family. In between all that I have several church functions I am responsible for. Usually I would say "if I keep myself busy, I wouldnt drink" WRONG It takes talkin to other alkies, and at least for me trusting in that HP, I choose God. Somewhere it says God helps them that helps themselves. Thats where the working part of the program comes in. Doing the steps,reading the books and to me most important- getting your butt to a meeting, whether you think you need it or not. Make a shedule through the holidays and stick to it. I have made it this far with all YOUR help and Gods. Not religious person. But I beleive in this program. Keep comin back, it works if ya work it! Feel free to email me if ya want DIRTYFERTY@HOTMAIL.COM


Member:
ARTIE K.
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
7:50:17 AM

Comments

Good morning all my name is Artie and i have been sober now fo4r 12 days I attened a meeting for the first time last Sunday. I have been pretty good so far. Bur right now I really want a drink! I can't handle all thr pressue going on in my lofe!


Member:
Tom M
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
11:08:44 AM

Comments

Hi... I'm Tom M. & I'm powerless over alcohol.

I've been sober since Thanksgiving Day this year and I really appreciate the comments, and everyone taking the time to come and be here for me.

I'm not new to the program, but obviously I have failed to enlarge my spiritual life... I keep coming back to square one. So I keep trying to work Step 1. Maybe one day it'll soak in.

Regarding holidays, I always think of the first paragraph of Chapter 11: "For most normal folks, drinking means conviviality, companionship and colorful imagination. It means release from care, boredom and worry. It is joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good. But not so with us in those last days..."

That's a pretty good summary of where other people are and where I need to be. I need to be with the "us" -- not so for me.

Actually, being mostly a "lone" drinker, I sobered up for most holidays, not wanting to reveal my incredible capacity and thirst to family, friends, and coworkers. Not wanting to drink around others, I'd keep social hours short. I actually spent a number of holidays sober, drinking heavily again when I got back home.

Right now, I just want to stay sober for another day. The office is talking about a Christmas party. I didn't go to the one last year. I had an excuse of being out of town, but I wasn't drinking at the time and didn't want to be around all the drinkers. I'm wondering though, this year, since I'll be here, if maybe I don't have one of those good "social, business, or personal" reasons for going. It may be something I need to do. It might be selfish not to go, if I'm sure I won't want to drink because of what I see or hear (like, "How about a beer?").

If I'm on-program, the compulsion goes away, and I don't feel like drinking. My sanity gets restored, even if it's just temporary (and it always is). It's easy to refuse drinks and to not buy alcohol.

The hard thing for me to hammer into my skull, apparently, is the temporariness of it. I get tired of doing the same, sometimes seemingly meaningless little rituals, over and over again. I start thinking I can take a holiday -- speaking of holidays -- from the program. What I've so far failed to learn is that for the program of A.A., there is no such thing. Everyday is a work day, no matter whether I like it or not.

Well, that's my two-cents' worth, I guess. (Ha! About what it's worth, too!) :)

/tom m


Member:
Barbara S.
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
12:28:18 PM

Comments

My name is Barbara, and I'm an alcoholic. Like Tom, the holidays for me were never a big drinking time. (I used to think of New Year's Eve and St. Patrick's Day as holidays for the "amateur." They were the only days of the year when I WASN'T drinking! Perversity, definately!)

These days, I barely notice the whole thing. I just remember that life really IS a day at a time, and that EVERY 24 hours is a bonus. So much to do in life! Now THAT's a wonderful holiday gift from God and AA.

Welcome to all, newcomers especially. Remember, it's a day at a time (or an hour, a minute, a second at a time, whatever you need), don't drink, and go to a lot of meetings! Talk to AA people, ask for help, give your love to others. Your life will become better than you ever dreamed of.

Peace to all -


Member:
Chrissie McD
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
1:22:04 PM

Comments

Hi my name is Christine - Chrissie McD - and I am only a few days sober (once again) and this time has been the hardest for me especially due to the fact that my "hubby" walked-out because I was complaining about his drinking...after 8 mos of being sober (actually dry-cuz I wasn't going to any meetings)he left my son and I...and that's when I picked up - pretty lame excuse to pick up...but I did and in the few weeks following that dreadful night I managed once again to self-destruct...I left my son one night to go find his Dad...after downing a pint of scotch...I got behind the wheel of my car to find "P"-when I couldn't find him I ended up in one of my notorious hangouts in Southie and all that mattered was achieving numbness and love (yup alcohol loves to destroy me)...That night (actually early morning) I slammed my car into a parked car about a block from the bar...got arrested blah blah blah...I cannot believe I did such a stupid thing...I have been around AA since 1990 and I am sure that if I was in contact with AA family that I wouldn't have picked up...This holiday season will be the toughest since "P" will not be here but I will get through it one day at a time and this site is a godsend...really, since I cannot get to meetings much...This will help BIGTIME!!!!Thanks & Love, Chrissie McD-Boston, MA


Member:
Jennifer C.
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
2:06:16 PM

Comments

Great topic! I'm Jennifer, alcoholic from Washington, DC area. I just got back from an noontome AA meeting around the corner from my office that I'd never attended before. Very powerful! There were only five people at this 20yr old meeting...4 men and me. The leader was a man from Akron, Ohio with 42 years who actually knew Bill Wilson and his wife Lois. One man spoke of holiday blues and how he was grateful to AA that he did'nt have to drink to survive the holidays. As an alcohilic and the daugter of an alcoholic (13 years sober) I pent years fantasizing what the holidays should be because my life was anything, but normal. Now, I still have some of the old fantasies that Christmas would be like you see in the magazines, Neiman Marcus Christmas catalogue etc., but I've learned to be gratful for the "gifts" I've got now through sobriety. Holidays are always difficult, but living one day at a time makes it easier to get through and being grateful for life free from obsession and control over the booze is a true gift and I know now that I can survive anything if I stay close to AA, my sponsor, meetings etc. Happy Holidays to all and for the newcomers hang in there it only gets better!!!


Member:
knud the thirsthty
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
2:46:09 PM

Comments

hello im knud and im thirsty. i will go and take a nice cold beer. one beer cant harm.my nerves get much better when i drink just a little bit.


Member:
Jenny H
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
4:27:24 PM

Comments

Hi, my name is Jenny and i too am an alcoholic. Come from a long line of them. I have been online all day looking at alcoholism hopeing something will make me want to stop. I am pretty close and am ready to make the first step. I will be going home for the holidays and i know what that will entail. Lots and lots of drinking with family. My sister already has plans for me when i fly in, its Saturday she said. Funny isn't that we think drinking and weekends go hand in hand. So glad i found this site and hope it will help me stay sober. Thanks for listening.


Member:
Holly W.
Date:
12/4/97
Time:
4:28:57 PM

Comments

Hi, I,m Holly and I,m an Alcoholic. I've only been sober for a week now, and I plann to spend the holidays that way. I was wondering if that would be possible before reading about other personal expiences. I just want to say thanks to you all for showing me that an enjoyable holiday is possible sober.


Member:
PAT L kansas city
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
6:21:38 AM

Comments

Hi, This is Pat L in Kansas City & Im an alkie and exdruggy. For Tom M, I can relate to your problem. This site is only a spec of what we need to be doing. AA is actually changing your whole lifestyle, its a way of life. Dont go to where you know there will be booze. Go to as many local meetings as you can. If you keep going out then you havent hit bottom yet. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. One teaspoon of booze is gonna make ya want another, then your mind set is primed and YOU LOSE. Getting past the first part is really hard, I know, I only have 30 days as of today. According to the old-timers, Im not through the hard part yet. Get a sponsor and use him. I hate calling people, I hate the phone. But look at it this way, if I was to call you for help, would you help me if ya could? Its the same thing if you call, you let that pride get in your way. This program works because its alkies talkin to alkies. I am grateful for this program, I am grateful for this site, it only takes up a spec in my life but this little spec has helped me not to drink. Its 24hrs at a time, sometimes 30 seconds. Keep it simple and keep comin back, listen and pick out pieces of what is said and arm yourself to protect you against drinkin. I used to say" with booze ya lose with dope there's hope" Booze is my drug of choice and dope only weakens my thought process and leads back to drinkin. Learn to play sober. DIRTYFERTY@HOTMAIL.COM WRITE ME IF YA WANT


Member:
Celeste in Monett MO
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
11:46:18 AM

Comments

I've been clean and sober now for 11 and a half years. I still remember those first years of staying sober a day at a time. I went to 2 and 3 meetings a day and hung out with sober people. It was great going to the dances set up by AA members. Getting sober gave me a chance to grow up again. I remember my second Christmas sober. I put up a simple all white lights around a picture window in the apartment and hung a french horn in the middle. My room mate cryed because of the simplicity of it and how it gave us joy. I spent very little time with my family as they could not except my sobriety and the way I finally set out to find me. This Christmas will be a difficult one because we (my husband and I)have lost so much to a fire and my Fibromyalgia is worse this year along with arthritis in my back worsening. Still we always remind ourselves that it could be worse. We have a wonderful understanding landlord and I go to a church that is very supportive and caring. When either one of us are feeling that draw towards a drink we think back on how our lives were when we were drinking and how hard it was to get through those first 3-5 years. Neither one of us want that back and we both know that father in heaven will get us through the hard times. If we pick up one drink the hardships will double and maybe even triple. Now we have the clarity to pursue whatever help we need because our minds aren't clouded with booze or abuse of narcotics or other drugs. The only thing special about Christmas day is that is one day out of the year set aside to remember who paid our way back to our father in heaven. Once you realize just how hopelessly powerless you are over the drink or drug then you can move on to step 2 and begin to realize just how insane and out of control of your life you've become. Part 2 of step 2 is learning just how much the higher power loves you and will help you. You can't give your will to the higher power until you trust that whatever it is will do what is in your best interest. This process never ceases. Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Member:
Howard G.
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
11:49:14 AM

Comments

Hello everyone, young and old. My name is Howard and Iam an alcoholic. I once had the privilege to to hear the late Chuck C. speak at a meeting in Vista Ca. It was a tuesday night and he made the comment "tonight is a good night for drinking, isn`t it? It`s tuesday! What Chuck was saying of course, is that any night or day is a good night for drinking if you are an alcoholic and we must never forget that. In that light, holidays are just another day we must remember who and what we are, alcoholics and we can not touch that first drink. I always ask myself, am I willing to pay the price? The answer is "NO". Keep in touch with your HP. He will not let you drink. Love Ya!


Member:
Gregory L. Tampa
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
6:31:50 PM

Comments

Merry @#!$&*! Christmas all... Topic;"i been blessed i guess with learning early on in my sobriety to STAY IN THE NOW stop trying to do the impossible, do the possible "What is right in front of me at this moment?" do the next right thing etc... ya know for the most part i hold true to those truths because thay are solutions ive found that actualy work truthfully i was taught them through utter humiliation,ego deflation, and surrender to the program of AA. ps "if i dont pick it up i cant get drunk"


Member:
Jack M
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
7:25:56 PM

Comments

I need advice on my first speakers meeting. I was aked to speak tomorrow night


Member:
Rebecca T / Indiana
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
7:44:04 PM

Comments

Hello! I'm Becky and a grateful recovering alcoholic, glad to go anywhere sober and alive by the grace of god. The Holidays are emotional I'll just stay that much closer to my higher power . Alot of changes going on this year my son is away from home and it's kinda lonesome, I mean my stepmother died last year too and all the family for the last 22 yrs got to gether for christmas and Thanksgiving, This has changed because we're step-family it's really different leaves me feeling alittle sadness. I remember when I first was sobering up and I had all these problems as a result of my drinking and drugging and was feeling lowerer than low. My aa friend said to me at least I was feeling. and today that is a miracle and I am grateful to be sober my worst day sober is better than any day back where I was, Sure don't want to pick up a drink and start the hell again, god bless everyone here. If anyone would like to write me: RTom@cbd.net


Member:
Tara M.
Date:
12/5/97
Time:
11:57:57 PM

Comments

Hi from California. My family has been pretty devasted by alcoholism, my father and brother both died from the disease and my sister and mother live far from here. I try not to get sucked into self-pity. As my sponsor says, "count your blessings, everyone has them." I have my sobriety, my health, the fellowship and ample opportunities from service. It's amazing how when I get out of my own way, I see so many needs in other people that perhaps I can help to fill. Service saves my butt. It did in the beginning and still does, eleven years later. God has truly blessed us.


Member:
Tara M.
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
12:02:15 AM

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Hi from California. My family has been pretty devasted by alcoholism, my father and brother both died from the disease and my sister and mother live far from here. I try not to get sucked into self-pity. As my sponsor says, "count your blessings, everyone has them." I have my sobriety, my health, the fellowship and ample opportunities from service. It's amazing how when I get out of my own way, I see so many needs in other people that perhaps I can help to fill. Service saves my butt. It did in the beginning and still does, eleven years later. God has truly blessed us.


Member:
Barb R
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
12:09:18 AM

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I'm Barb, alcoholic. I am so glad I found this site. I was raised around a lot of alcohol. The holidays meant the family would gather and the booze would flow. It always seemed like a lot of fun but I didnt remember much about what was said or done. Today I love the holidays. The family gathers, no alcohol and I remember everything. This is real fun. My expectations are minimal as I work at keeping life at one day at a time. Happy Holidays.


Member:
Helen. W
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
10:04:34 AM

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Hi I'm Helen and I'm an alcoholic from England, I really need a meeting today, thank God for this meeting board. I can't get to weekend meeting, have kids and hubby's at work. Have no one to have the kids for me. I have been going to AA for nearly a year now, but only have a week away from the booze.

I don't want to have the same Christmas as last year, I started drinking sherry at 10.00 in the moring, and had other different drinks all through the day, God know's how the Christmas dinner didn't get burnt, I was in a fog. This Christmas (i know i shouldn't project) I plan to have a bottle of cream soda. The most days of sobriety I had was six weeks back in April/May this year. I can't seem to get past the cravings, I always fall. I still keep coming back though and keep trying, several times now. I don't want to give up, I acknowledge this is a serious deadly disease and I don't want to die. Have seen people I looked up to in the fellowship, go out and have not come back. Have been told they are in a poorly condition. I don't want that to happen to me. I'll keep coming back, thanks for letting me ramble. Live to win, Dare to fail.


Member:
Helen. W
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
10:05:03 AM

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Hi I'm Helen and I'm an alcoholic from England, I really need a meeting today, thank God for this meeting board. I can't get to weekend meeting, have kids and hubby's at work. Have no one to have the kids for me. I have been going to AA for nearly a year now, but only have a week away from the booze.

I don't want to have the same Christmas as last year, I started drinking sherry at 10.00 in the moring, and had other different drinks all through the day, God know's how the Christmas dinner didn't get burnt, I was in a fog. This Christmas (i know i shouldn't project) I plan to have a bottle of cream soda. The most days of sobriety I had was six weeks back in April/May this year. I can't seem to get past the cravings, I always fall. I still keep coming back though and keep trying, several times now. I don't want to give up, I acknowledge this is a serious deadly disease and I don't want to die. Have seen people I looked up to in the fellowship, go out and have not come back. Have been told they are in a poorly condition. I don't want that to happen to me. I'll keep coming back, thanks for letting me ramble. Live to win, Dare to fail.


Member:
Helen. W
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
10:05:18 AM

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Hi I'm Helen and I'm an alcoholic from England, I really need a meeting today, thank God for this meeting board. I can't get to weekend meeting, have kids and hubby's at work. Have no one to have the kids for me. I have been going to AA for nearly a year now, but only have a week away from the booze.

I don't want to have the same Christmas as last year, I started drinking sherry at 10.00 in the moring, and had other different drinks all through the day, God know's how the Christmas dinner didn't get burnt, I was in a fog. This Christmas (i know i shouldn't project) I plan to have a bottle of cream soda. The most days of sobriety I had was six weeks back in April/May this year. I can't seem to get past the cravings, I always fall. I still keep coming back though and keep trying, several times now. I don't want to give up, I acknowledge this is a serious deadly disease and I don't want to die. Have seen people I looked up to in the fellowship, go out and have not come back. Have been told they are in a poorly condition. I don't want that to happen to me. I'll keep coming back, thanks for letting me ramble. Live to win, Dare to fail.


Member:
Steve A.
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
3:50:57 PM

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Thank you, Helen, for sharing with us. I know the misery of being in and around AA and not staying sober. The only reason I have had any joy at all at holiday times the last 6 years is because of my AA family . I have almost 90 days sober now, and am very grateful to be sober today. I had 10 months , which was the longest time I have ever had sober. I could never put together more than 2 or 3 months before that. What finally worked was getting INTO the program instead of just being around it. The program of Alcoholics Anonymous is the first 164 pages of the Big Book. I had some people who were working the steps in their lives take me through the book and show me how to apply it to my life. I found the most important thing I have in my life, a Higher Power that I can absolutely trust and rely on to run my life, and help me live on a day to day basis. But there are NO guarantees! I forgot that I have to constantly watch for selfishness, dishonesty, fear,and for ME especially, resentment. Because I wasn't paying attention I drank again. Thank God I made it back. Today I know that no matter what is or is not going on in my life,if I don't pick up that first drink,I don't develope the craving that dooms me to keep drinking, and I don't end up like I always do;with terror,frustration,bewilderment,and despair ! I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday season, and Keep Coming Back!


Member:
Chris S
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
4:19:05 PM

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Hi, my name is Chris and I'm an alcoholic. I have been clean and sober for a little over 2 weeks. It is a very challenging time for me. During this past year I have been on the road to self destruction -- I followed the path very well. Within the last 3 months I have received 2 DUI's and I'm may be facing a couple of months in jail which may begin during the holidays. I have finally accepted the fact that I cannot drink -- this is after 10+ years of alcohol and drug abuse. Currently I am going through some immense anxiety problems/feelings that are very difficult to deal with. I have lost much sleep, been very frustrated and naturally angry (with myself). The couple of months in jail are only for breaking probation from the first DUI -- I still have to go to court for the second offence. This is the difficulty for the holidays -- this holiday season may be the last that I'll be able to spend with my son. When word gets to my ex about the DUI(s) she'll most likely try to my visitation privelages away. I understand that without my sobriety I won't be able to be the best daddy that I can be -- but it hurts to know that even with sobriety I may not be able to see my son. I believe I'm being strong about this however my own thinking has gotten me into this mess and I'm not sure if I'm truly being honest with myself. Many issues to deal with but I'm very, very happy that I'm clean and sober. Thank you...


Member:
Uptown Jim
Date:
12/6/97
Time:
8:44:20 PM

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Hello, my name is Jim and I am an alcoholic. The holidays are very hard times for me even though I try not to admit it. I tell myself it's just another day but of course it is not. I spent five years in prison around a thousand people who walked around in a daze every holiday and said to one another 'it's just another day'. I don't try to kid myself like that anymore. So what I'll do is force myself to be with family I really don't want to be with just to keep from being by myself. I love to be by myself because I eventually run out of things to da and get board, then find excueses to drink. Better off being with somebody than the alternative. Peace